Friday, October 2, 2026

Rainbow Over Leapfrog

She imagined herself as Cinderella
That's how bad her family was:
Petty burglaries, cabins set on fire,
Peeing from hotel balconies,

And some real shit thrown in too:
Suing people to death, victimizations
Imbedded in offering prospectuses, shenanigans
To finagle destitute children,

Pretending to be the bass player for Sublime,
Trying to take the home of a widow ...
They make messes wherever they go,
Kick a poet out of their home

Even as he helicopters their starseed baby
Who's in the midst of a blessing 
On their morning-after pool 
With a cadaver's bouquet of plastic flowers.

The lies never end,
The duplicities pile up like stools,
They never stop touching your stuff
Like a mobster until there's no more stuff to touch.

And it's worse inside the family --
The psychopaths win every time,
So they all turn into psychopaths
By shaming or maiming

And break if there is an inkling
They are not the Lords of the Realm
Or have made one mistake
Or set off an alarm.

Every decision involved in
Living your life on earth
Must have an invoice attached,
And every time you give more to others,

Divine cosmic messenger, than yourself,
You're made to retrace your steps
And badger some innocent clerk
Until you get your way, no matter what it takes.

It happened to me, a day in court
To advocate for what I had no right to or interest in,
The opposing side begging us to take everything
Just to live our lives without the swirl

But I had to persist, because I knew
The retribution for resistance, as I knew
The judge would take one look at us
And say "not homeless."

It was always like that, you had to steal towels
For the good of the tribe before 6 am,
And learn to not give back your cards
At the kiosk; they were saving them up

Like timeshare presentation swag, for the pain
Of being forced to endure what makes a sad clown
Cry, again and again, a commissioned beggar
Pleading us to buy what we cannot afford

For a jetski ride we'd never take, meals we would have
Refused to eat, there with the laminated brands
On the tables of pity, as the day's sun moves away
On a gated enclave in the middle of nowhere ocean.

You drew the line at the cows,
Flies always covering their eyes
On that ridiculous ranch. You refused to budge
To receive your legatee birthright, that hacienda

To sneer at all the vaqueros
Who work for tip change
When your father feels like
Letting them.

All of it fell away on the day of your death,
Your long-suppressed hatred for your evil step-mom,
Your dad still gaslighting why would he need to repent?
Your broken siblings, as fucked over as they were greedy,

And how your first marriage fell not because what
You had told me, the dangers of beer and of not being chosen,
But because this kind man could not endure any more
Of what she'd brought along with her:

The tending of tawdry coins as logs on the hearth
Of humanity, as strictly a stomping upon, and laughter,
As they eat Fritos with spoons while hunted tule elk
On the walls avert their eyes,

The game within the game within the game
Whose only rule was he always had to win
And always had to cheat, and we always had to pretend
We burned with hatred for him at having lost.

Oh but we were given things, like that tiny corner
Of the family vacation cupboard, the place where you
Suffered the worst, as they stole all your food
And shamed you for not sharing the one thing you had.

Can I say I had fun? Sure. I saw a moon blue
In the sky as my heart sank, and the pink on the walls
Was a beautiful howl, of wanting the best for everyone
But watching as everyone was rolled.

I saw the distant eyes of Mexicans beyond the gates
Having to see everything. You, on the other hand
Held your ground, maintained your crystalline architecture
And courageously denied that your integrity needs a defense.

They hated you for that. That your soul was not theirs.
That there was nothing in it for them. Ah, but there was me
To make a puppet so I had to sever every string, and lost you.
Have a great day! I have no more healing venom.

Monday, September 28, 2026

Breakdown at Charlotte Week

A tree dropped a leaf, for my grief
To remind me life’s in charge.
Our paroxysms are dead things
That hold us like rigor mortis

Then let us go for a time,
So we can feel …
The depths of exhaustion,
The joys of pain's cessation.

What has no words, no way
Of comprehending, it is only
What the heart strains to bear,
The zero point of loss

Which is, of course, its exact opposite,
Everything that you had … together
With the oneness excised,
At least temporarily

Until the play is over
And catharsis falls
Like a pall
Over the stage.

Every ripple echoes something
To be remembered
And not moved forward.
It is the stillness feeling needs

To resolve, on its own, sweet time
What was only there
In our mind, anyway,
Much less gone.

                                      Shhh,
The heart corrects. Sometimes
The most universal force
Needs to be alone.

Sunday, September 27, 2026

Grief on the Beach with Trevor and Earl

Death is as fake as that skelly in the sand but
It smarts when kittens die, even when they
Thank you for helping them live out each moment 
With total sovereignty and joy

And even though they tell you it was exactly
Their plan, and yours too, the path to gratitude,
That balance in the face of the standing wave,
How life exchanges with death but love remains

Exactly the same. The exact brand of bread
Was required, along with 100 other choices
In the moment for this timeline to dial in, so
We can feel what life is, how miraculous

Unconditional love, how hard to believe
It is really us. We forget these things
In the heat of trying to keep up with
A galactic kitten, the sacrifice it makes

For me its mission, so I can see the moon, 
The stars, the ships, in the opening, in the
Lights that would otherwise be too vague
The gorgeous mirror of my love.

Friday, September 25, 2026

Poetry Rising above the CPAK Horizon

Little known fact: when Ptolemy of Alexandria set the "time-clock" of the stars for tropical (Western) astrology, the position of the stars was forever fixed at a time whose centerpoint was exactly 0 CE/AD. For those who don't believe in coincidence, recorded history shows many such examples of the abrupt freezing of codes, rituals and even landscapes. The Indian scholar Panini for example "simplified" the entire (and heretofore unwritten) Sanskrit language into an uncompromising, near-algorithmic matrix of 4,000 hyper-dense algebraic rules that forced Aryan priests into extreme mathematical precision just to use it.

Why did so many cultures rigidly systematize and fix a sacred language nobody speaks, an ancient calendar after the sky has shifted, an arrangement of monoliths though the original context is forgotten? 

If a global cataclysm such as was recorded in virtually every human society (with materialist science now catching up with its @9600 BC Younger Dryas/Tiamat theory), it would cause an immediate "hard reset" on human populations. Civilization collapses, the global network scatters, isolated groups of survivors enter extreme survival mode. Over thousands of years of deep isolation vocabulary, syntax, and grammar drift and mutate. A group trapped in the Caucasus/Steppes develops the grammatical architecture that will become Proto-Indo-European. A group trapped in the Near East/North Africa develops the structural roots that will become Proto-Afroasiatic (Semitic). Soon their superficial speech structures become linguistically unrelated.

But ritualized preservation keeps certain types of knowledge alive post-deluge. One may rightly ask, why didn't they just write it down? Maybe they did (the Romans have a lot to answer for, they did, after all, delete the Gnostic, Druid and other traditions) but the modern mind, to understand this process, must grapple with the fact that language as we know it (a tool of semantics, or meaning) is fundamentally a technology of separation. To say "the earth is round" instantly fractures reality into two distinct concepts ("earth" and "roundness") that are actually entirely inseparable in nature.

That may be why, in even the most advanced ancient cultures, sacred knowledge was transmitted almost exclusively through speech while writing was considered profane (even though written languages existed). And not just speech, but the way it was sounded. Song, chant, recitation, dance -- all of these were used to imbed knowledge, especially of the sacred kind. 

A culture concerned about preserving information over immense timescales would naturally become interested in:

  • Rhythm
  • Repetition
  • Alliteration
  • Poetic structure
  • Musicality
  • Sacred names
  • Pure pronunciation

These are memory technologies. Civilizations independently realized that the human mind remembers rhythm and rhyme far better than abstract prose. To prevent a total cognitive wipe, the survivors of a global cataclysm created "anchors" that could not drift. For the vast majority of human existence, in fact, sacred, structured sound was our most advanced technology. "Poetry" in this sense was a data storage and compression algorithm. The human muscle memory of the throat, tongue, and diaphragm is a more reliable hard drive to survive the decay of time than fragile paper.

We see the same tendencies across widely separated cultures. Spoken and written language was codified:

For the Ear: Speech made Sound Primary. By utilizing phonomimesis (where the physical mouth shape and acoustic frequency try to approximate the "energy signature" of the object), they locked the knowledge into human muscle memory, breath control, and neurology. And they complemented this with actual sound engineering, whether it was the Chavin culture of Peru transmitting with their pututus (massive conch-shell horns) inside a labyrinth of underground galleries, or the neolithic builders of Malta with their "oracle chambers" that amplify voices, or the astounding Serrapeum amplifying cavern in Egypt, El Castillo in Chichen Itza and the Pyramid of the Moon in Teotihuacan, where exact stair-step geometry was used to scatter and manipulate sound. In all cases, the sound generated bypassed the analytical left brain entirely. 

For the Eye: Writing made the Symbol Primary. From Sumeria to Egypt to China, the alphabets were not phonetic but drawings of universal physical objects. No matter how much your local dialect mutated over 5,000 years, a picture of a knot, a hand, or a bird remained a knot, a hand, or a bird. This explains the "impossible" overlap between Hopi and Sumerian languages. Mainstream linguists scratch their heads or dismiss it because the grammar systems are entirely unrelated. But through this lens, it renders perfectly: they are reading the same visual cues AND, as researchers are discovering, using the same phonetic keys. A Hopi elder in Oraibi and a Sumerian scribe in Ur will look at the exact same symbol and utter the exact same monosyllabic mouth-shape. They aren't sharing a vocabulary; they are playing the same acoustic notes on the human vocal tract.

Let's look at some examples of this.

The West Kennet Long Barrow stone chambers in Wiltshire, England are built on telluric currents and behave as Helmholtz Resonators. The first chambers resonate precisely at 84 Hz (a low musical E), the inner chambers and central passage lock into 110 Hz (a low note between A and B). 110 Hz is the exact frequency found across Neolithic sites globally, known to stimulate the auditory cortex and quiet the left prefrontal cortex, inducing a state of trance, timelessness and internal vibration. By shaping a chamber to a strict 4:3 dimension ratio (as Steve Marshall's acoustic mapping discovered), the builders created a permanent, physical trap for 84 Hz and 110 Hz waves, which means the stones themselves correct the pitch, forcing the voice back to that exact frequency. And the bounce of the sound waves off the sarsen stones doesn't just echo; the air in the chamber becomes an acoustic standing wave, causing the body itself to vibrate as it takes on properties of mass in its structure.

The same acoustic template is found in a classic Hopi kiva, a room cut out of the earth and sealed with a timber roof. When a person speaks, tones or drums inside, the trapped air compresses, forcing the walls to bounce the sound energy back into the room. Like the European barrows, they are tuned to amplify low-frequency, deep vocal resonance, particularly around the 110 hz trance note. As in West Kennet, where the strongest acoustic nodes sit at the absolute back of the inner stone chambers, the kiva’s physical sound pressure is directly above a small hole in the floor called the Sipapu, representing the place of emergence from the post-cataclysmic world. In both systems, the physical architecture forces a person to sit at the literal zero-point of the sound wave.

This sound architecture extends from physical structures to the languages themselves. 

The lineage from the Steppes (the mainstream origin of Indo-European languages, although it has never been inhabited) conventionally believed to have migrated east and developed Sanskrit (Hindu tradition holds the "channelings" of the 400 rishis that were later codified in the Rig Veda created Sanskrit, as far back as 10,000 BC) created Shiksha, a complex ruleset that chains words together so smoothly (Sandhi) that a priest chanting long verses could maintain that same unbroken, internal body-vibration for hours without the acoustic wave dropping. Two-thirds of the Rig Veda are mantras (mind-tools) and are clearly intended to create sound resonance with our infinite being -- as one mantra goes Om - Bhu - Bhuvar - Sura (I am - the sound - creating - planes). By employing Hasta Swara (precise hand movements and gestures synchronized with pitch changes to physically lock in the sound), Svara (a strict 3-tone accentual system), Japa (rhythmic repetition) and Pranayama (breath control), a Sanskrit chanter creates internal acoustic nodes. When done correctly, the chanter experiences the sound as an external, universal wave (Nada Brahma) that is merely vibrating through their temporary biological vessel. According to the Shabda principal, vibration, form and meaning are one, interconnected. Sound exists outside of human speech (Sphota) as a cosmic infrastructure, and human vocalization simply "unveils" it.

The Semitic lineage that remained in the Near East codified this same impulse into the throat-heavy gutturals and nasalizations of Hebrew and Arabic. By forcing the sounds deep into the pharyngeal and nasal cavities precisely where in the throat or mouth such sounds must originate, they discovered a way to replicate the crushing, resonant pressure of a stone chamber inside the human skull. Instead of hand gestures, the sounds were internalized by swaying movements to synchronize breath, meter, and focus. In Hebrew mysticism, the Bat Kol (literally "the daughter of a voice") or the Shechinah (the divine presence) is described exactly as experienced in West Kennet: a thunderous sound that feels entirely outside the self, yet causes the body to vibrate. Through the strict rules of Tajwid or Cantillation, the reciter alters the pressure in their pharyngeal cavity to “trick” the auditory cortex into perceiving the voice as an objective, external entity commanding the body from the outside.

The architects of West Kennet and the codifiers of Sanskrit and Hebrew created a technology that could grab a human being by their nervous system. Om, Amen and Amin (the "mantra" note of all three languages respectively) use identical mouth-shapes to hit the exact same cranial resonance because they were all trying to reproduce the exact sound that triggers the 110 Hz neurological shift -- a strong indication that human biology dictated the architecture of sacred language, not the other way around. These traditions developed sophisticated sacred sound systems involving prolonged vowels, emphasis on breath, precise vocalization, repetition rhythms and precise oral transmission protocols. This crossover shows that beneath our immense cultural and ideological divisions, humanity shares a singular somatic operating system.

The Hopi language belongs to the Uto-Aztecan family, but its sacred application utilizes the identical sound-symbolism principles found in Welsh and Sanskrit. Their ceremonial chants use ancient, repetitive root sounds to mimic the physical sounds of rain, wind, and planetary vibration. The Hopi warn that the world falls out of balance (Koyaanisqatsi) if the ritual rhythm is dropped. Why? Because the ancient root languages (Armenian, Welsh, Sanskrit, Hebrew, etc) were engineered to be vibrational matches to the frequencies of the Earth. When the population stops speaking the root sounds, stops performing the precise rhythmic ceremonies, and loses synchronization with the landscape clocks, the entire belief system is at risk.

Each of these four linguistically distinct systems encoded sound in strikingly similar ways:

Sanskrit meticulously codified the exact mouth-positions (guttural, palatal, cerebral, dental, labial) required to speak. By locking long texts into a mathematical chanting matrix (Pathas), they encoded a biological regulation program. Chanting these verses forces precise breath control that stimulates the vagus nerve, alters blood oxygenation, and physically coaxes the human brain into meditative alpha and theta wave states.

Ancient Welsh used sharp, descriptive root syllables where the sound physically mimics a shape or action (like Cwlwm -- pronounced Kum-loom -- for a knot). With their Master Astronomy Map, they named every hill, farm, and river bend after these monosyllabic root shapes, then (according to Hugh Evans' painstaking research) turned the entire landscape into a 2,000-square-mile, un-erasable star clock that could be read aloud simply by walking through the valleys.

Hebrew locked its data into a geometric grid of three-letter consonantal roots overlaid with precise cantillation marks that dictate punctuation, grammar, and musical pitch simultaneously.

Hopi avoids written text entirely, locking its data into repetitive ceremonial chants and synchronized dances.

And here is where it gets interesting.

Evans has dropped a massive finding: Welsh phonetics can be applied directly to decipher both Egyptian hieroglyphs and Sumerian cuneiform. Why is this significant? Both Egyptian and Sumerian are considered language isolates, with no known linguistic relatives on the planet. Mainstream linguists hit a wall because while they can translate the symbols, they don't truly know what the spoken language actually sounded like. The only clue to linguists trying to reconstruct Sumerian pronunciation was the adoption of cunieform script by the later Akkadian Empire (who spoke a Semitic language related to Arabic and Hebrew). Akkadian scribes compiled massive, clay-tablet dictionaries where they would stamp a complex Sumerian word-sign and then spell out its exact pronunciation next to it using simple, phonetic Akkadian syllables (e.g., stamping the symbol for "son" and spelling out du-mu next to it).

Because we know how Hebrew and Arabic sound today, linguists work backward from Akkadian to deduce how those clay-tablet pronunciation keys might have sounded in real life. This standard academic approach has a number of inherent flaws: who's to say they don't rely on wholly independent Akkadian pronunciations; a much later language like Akkadian can't be expected to retain much memory of an earlier, unrelated language; perhaps most challenging, how can one account for the slow drift of Akkadian itself through "misremembering" time?

Researchers like Evans, Alan Wilson and Baram Blackett discovered that when you bypass standard grammatical rules and apply Welsh phonetic values directly to the symbols, the texts instantly reveal themselves. Here is how they claim that protocol works: 

Step A: Strip Away the Assigned Sound. These researchers discard the Akkadian, arguing that this filter applies a limited text-only lens. Their method, called Rebus Acrophoneticism, focuses purely on the physical object represented by the symbol.

Step B: Name the Visual Symbol in Ancient Welsh. They take this visual image and "pronounce" it using the monosyllabic root sounds of ancient Welsh (Cymraeg). This forms, these researchers say, perfectly coherent, grammatically sound Welsh sentences. Because Sumerian is built on monosyllabic, agglutinative (stuck-together) mouth-shapes, it mirrors the syllabic structure of ancient Welsh. 

Step C: The Sound Becomes the True Text. The text transforms from an "indecipherable isolate" into a highly descriptive, practical language that matches the engineering and astronomical concepts of the prehistoric world. For example, the constellation Cancer, which in English means "crab" even though the actual constellation looks nothing like a crab (and poses similar difficulties in all modern languages), in ancient Welsh Can means "round arch" or "hoop" while Caer means "enclosure." Not only does this sound like the constellation, Evans argues that it literally describes the constellation's placement in the sky, where it rises above the Milky Way on the Summer Solstice: "Where the enclosure (the ecliptic) meets the hoop (the surrounding ring of the Milky Way as seen from Earth)."

In this theory, the ancient scripts were never meant to be read as an alphabet, but as sheet music. Mainstream linguistics says this method is a statistical coincidence — if you try hard enough, you can make any language match arbitrary shapes. But these researchers argue that ancient Welsh preserves the exact phonetic root-keys of a shattered, pre-cataclysm global language -- a literal pre-Tower of Babel hypothesis. All these ancient languages that used sound to expand consciousness may be fractured splinters of the same ancient operating system.

Thursday, September 24, 2026

Some Sounds and a Cooper's Hawk Appears

I have my truth
Long before it's settled.

One glimpse of the horizon
Is enough to know

Every belief we now have
Will be shattered in ten years.

The clouds are unearthly,
The mountains alive,

The birds
Undisguised messengers.

Wednesday, September 23, 2026

Starseed Blue

I'm just more aware now
Of how I vibrate 
The fabric is all.

I am no longer responsible 
For the residue in the air 
Of never-sated, ever-craving.

When I leave my pod
I think the whole world 
Leaves with me 

Yet the flowing veil
Who precedes me
Is barely corporeal

Much less the center
Of everyone thinking
"Where is she going?"

Still I evade being seen,
Even by the invisible, 
Even as the crows perch on poles

To better observe.
They refuse to move 
Until I'm comfortable within myself.

It won't be anytime soon.
I'm not used to being walled away
From my interstellar family.

Where I come from
Is like everywhere else;
We share the same mind.

The angels don't have to be 
Drawn on the glass 
On the way to the bells

For we all have permission
To act as a God, with what the unreal
Can't possess, a direct line to source.

We have that here, too, of course,
Though we let the bells clang
Instead of ringing them ourselves

From inside. Every pair matches,
Every pattern ... we share,
Just table stakes for truth or dare.

Here we learn to unwind
The string of a ball until,
At the end of the thread 

A jewel tumbles down.
Maybe, with the right light,
It will finally catch sight.

Tuesday, September 22, 2026

Why the Disarticulated Dolls are in a Case

I will need an emotional support alligator
After, what? The Nat King Cole Trio held over
At the Million Dollar Theatre. The old downtown
Is dead now, the muses in stone rule empty roosts.

The Japanese elderly still carry canes, presumably
To beat off the ghosts, as thick as mosquitos.
All the business is done by bottle, on the street,
The dry martini drinkers and their maitre d's,

The robed prophets of the streets, like phantoms,
Sleeping, stemming, stumbling, it doesn't matter,
A bunch of radios tuned to the same wavelength,
Vessels for any astrals who want to rest in their hair.

For the dead here went down hard, taken by the silence.
Now they are caught for those compelled to look 
Like flashbulbs in the glare on their glass,
Every room reduced to emptiness.

At a certain density all cities give way to ghosts,
Who most of the time don't even know they've moved on,
For all they've remembered is still here,
Too refined for our view, we foodies on tour

The escape room LA's become. We wander fragile,
Confused, what kind of guerrilla rejuvee is this,
To draw such a desolate pot-luck ticket? 
"It's like you're back in high school," 

One liminal witch snarled, to the smiles 
Of her ecstasy men, the other mistral dervishes,
Who possess that relentless confidence of those
Who are successful in becoming void.

They run at you chest first, flaunting their freedom,
Cheered on by the bygone businessmen who never
Returned from errands, what do you have
To compete with everything that was?

Pink flowers float in a fountain, nature's response
To the suffering. The buildings with mirrors
Might as well be empty too, for all that goes on
Inside is seen, though credits accrue

And cold courtesy calls are made everyday
To those who only listen to voices in their head
Anyway. Could we say we know our mind?
Can we say the experience is real because we are?

Beyond the underpass treehouses, cheerleaders practice
And baseball fathers lean in, and the glow of lamplight 
Drills a hole in my eye to release the pressure. It speaks
Of something larger, something that is not yet here.

Monday, September 21, 2026

The Four Noble Truths, Expressed on a Chladni Plate

The tones make such shapes,
Equal to creation 
But only due to
Impossible tension

If polarity ceases
For even an instant,
Sound's perfect wheels
Turn into sand.

That is the way of
The Material World,
The standing wave collapses
The moment conflict ends

Into the ether
Of things as they are,
So it is with Dukkha,
The wobbling wheel

Of Apollo's chariot,
Under constant, jarring
Stress, for any resistance 
Is friction,

To the train you missed
Or the one you've waited for,
As you stare down the bare
Track of the now.

In English we call this
"Suffering," by which
We mean the ego,
Observing others pain

And deciding not to die to it,
The man in the tent
Staring, who wouldn't be there
If you hadn't had it Buddha plush

When the tanha stick 
Pulled the whole in two
Like pearl divers prying
Purple oyster valves loose

For the shiny lotus jewel,
The resistance of form,
The tense geometries
We break our teeth on.

We call it attachment
Or craving take your pick.
The illusion of sides
That you can choose

Without blowing a fuse
And sending the loosh
Where black oleander 
Won't save you.

The birds who swoop
In black circles
Won't stoop to help.
Black is where you grab

For Nirvana a candle 
Blown out, a phase
Collapse where all
Are allowed to not be

Without you, who
Tune continuously,
For the frequency 
Is the experience

What the Hermetics
Called rhythm,
The perpetual move
To harmony or chaos

You choose, ultimately
Whether that pink bedroom
Frock is best suited
For waiting on the platform

Where you are alone
With everything gone
And no word of whether coffee
Will be served when it reopens.

Saturday, September 19, 2026

Solemn Swing

In the uncared-for gardens
Palms gesticulate sharply
Against the laughter of boughs
And spider plant nods
As grasses dance their way
Into meaning.

The avocado tree shines as she
Shakes loose her joy philosophy
Impervious to the rosemary
Always guarding her from harm,
Whose sheaths protrude provocatively
But have nothing to say.

Like dangling fingers
The quills of neighboring fronds
Play the airborne keys
And all that you can perceive of this
Is the solemn swing of the central chime
That hammers when it's struck.

Friday, September 18, 2026

Shades of Julie on a Cool Afternoon

Trapped on the hill
By my own devise.
We are Gods beaten down
By the law
Of humility.

The punishment is too sweet,
The lure of the void
Where you're not heard from,
Better than the way you think
You're seen, every flaw magnified.

They just stare at you
On the bottom of the hill,
You've got it all and don't know it,
Terrified by the way they look,
How every shop is closed.

The road goes in circles
Around a hill you are always
Welcome in, but once inside
You are a task in delivery,
Like flowers

Where the recipient
Can't be found
Though everything is logged
And every corner
Holds a camera.

The decisions you make
Contrary to all suggestions
Are somehow important
But only you are to know that,
Even though you never get close to

Knowing what you've done
Or why you do it.
You must decide again.
The road goes round.
The birds seem to move in the sky.

On the carousel here, everyone appears
To have flaws that honk loud red
But it's only because you believe
That you are flawed, for they are
Merely players for your journey.

Not of remembering per se
But of being in the room
Where something happened
A long long time ago
And have yet to recover

Your essential dignity,
The whole of your innocence,
Your ever-nascent purity.
You are plagued by the mistake
Of your present being

As all gleanings are squirrelled away
Especially from your own prying eyes
That ask too many questions
That the universe wants
To avoid:

How are you healing?
Where is the pain?
Why did you leap
Into mad separation
To play with Sophia's Archons?

To learn what a heart is, silly.
The toughness accrued
From knowing you exist despite
What your senses scream, how
Otherness feels from the other side,

All pleas for resolution
Stoppered in intoxicating drops
Filed, not finalized in any way.
For that is what is honored
Throughout the universe.

Before I worked here
I knew this place,
Always sunny, golden grass,
Bouncy tumbleweeds,
Where the rocks stay quiet

And the trees know how to grieve.
There's a fountain here, in a hole
That shows how deep it really goes,
Room enough
For all you cannot bear to hold.

Tuesday, September 15, 2026

Commuter Lament

A white beam pours from the gray;
There's an opening somewhere,
Sometimes that's enough
To know something is possible 
Even if you don't know what it is.

Our routines confuse us.
Ennui is a cold paralysis.
The work itself unglues -
It's those mistakes 
Other people make!

We lack the strength to be kind,
The gall to be real,
The necessary obliviousness
To what people think of us,
But we show up every day 

Resisting each correction with a smile,
Listening despite what anyone says,
Finding some sort of agreement though 
There remains no meeting of the minds
Despite the coffee pots drained in the attempt.

We call this progress,
The steady descent into mediocrity
Instead of the crazy perfection 
Of seeing we're alone 
In a world that is our own.

But then there's something out of place
-- A Starlink 18-wheeler as if it has always
Been there -- to remind us of the wire
To everything that's sacred, that everything 
Is finally held together.

We just need to talk about it some more,
Figure out the best story to stick to,
And before you know it
We've forgotten why we came out here,
What we wanted to know,

The glow of everything shiny
In the mirrors of others eyes
Makes us feel included.
The universe, that is,
Is finally included.

Monday, September 14, 2026

The Bone Not Taken

The zombie building 
Where Mom and Dad met.
Time. Cheaper to leave it haunted
Than to fill it with mouths.

They mothball architectural marvels
Nowadays anyways, too late
For the Richfield, the only tower
They remember, worthy of the Chrysler 

They say. But I don't know.
I don't believe in that memory.
But as soon as I say that
I see myself in a seersucker suit

And pencil-thin moustache,
My nose bulbous from a bus crash
Where my typewriter smashed it.
The water is better. Tobacco is part of the air.

The women dress like dolls.
Not even an echo now
That I am in a different lifetime,
From a future that erased it

Not by forgetting this time
But by a judgement 
That a memory 
Was illicit.

It wove in and out, the dance
Of the void needle threading
Until it was no more
Than a boy's blueprint,

Structural, so allowed in
But nobody seems to know it is deserted,
Except the dry cleaner, who remembers
When there was business 

Before the homeless, 
Who today would rather hang out their sheet
On the corner of 6th and Grand than live
Inside. They are afraid of what's not real.

Terror on a Quiet, Sunny Day

The green chair is all that is left.
The city in perpetual crisis.
Me in crisis

With everything non-existent 
Except as it occurs to me,
Screaming.

They don't know what it's like 
To not let go, hands
Rigermortis in release.

Everyone I see
Is who I was
But can't recall

Except by seeing them 
As they disappear 
In the middle of it all:

Calm Valet,
Coffee This Way,
Pershing Park is empty

But it is full
Of too many ghosts
To even give names to

In registers of incomplete
Seeing, inarticulate 
Response,

Inability to peer inside
Any veils of who they were,
Hiding through.

The efforts they made, 
The sight unseen,
To be invisible 

Because they wanted
To be noticed
At last, for once

By eyes
That
Couldn't.

Their own, as they go
Before they can tell me anything 
I too much want to know -

What hangs ethereal,
Unrung bells
Not the chime inside my ears,

The purple
In the sidewalk cracks
That lead me where to go

But I resist 
Because I can.
Darkness is always the go-to

When beliefs
Get stretched
Like yo-yo's.

The sun shines
Ignorance 
On all of us as one.

John the Baptist on the other hand
Sued until there was not anyone left
To summon.

Bert's Outfit Shop is closed.
The glow inside
The parking deck's immense.

There are yellers
On every block, and they try to
Hold my attention 

Or make me avoid them.
Or am I imagining 
The insane

Because I have arrived
At my own doorstep,
From the forgotten?

So the reminders, city faces
Dead-man-walking by,
Some holding hands.

Other people.
Why are you not scared?!
Is there a golden thread

To discover yourself
In the thicket of the one?
With company it seems

But not really -
The cord's been cut
By you, entirely.

You want to swim here,
Currents float you further 
From the shore.

Sunday, September 13, 2026

On a Beach in Cuba

There's a fine line between
Learning and remembering
And the line is finer still when
What actually happened carries

In the windy ways of the mind
That plays it like a last-nerve violin
Bending on an echo of string
For an edge, when there is none

Just the stars dark and far enough apart
For an outline of home, so theoretical 
Astro-cartographers can find the patterns
And claim their discovery has no meaning,

Only names from somewhere else
That get stranger the further out they seem,
The more unfamiliar they become
To green eyes behind a screen.

Every skinwalker is exposed at the bonfire
Dancing with the one ... but are they there?
What is in the dream, is there anything
Outside of me?

Wednesday, September 9, 2026

The Diversion Not Yet Taken

Good Lord it's in Gorman, the wreck
Of attention span in slow spawn of red
But the angels got through before the pyramid rise
Over Soledad Canyon, the highest concentration 
Of them I at least have ever seen, I would live here
If I wasn't afraid of Lizzies, roads to nowhere 
As a way of life, shot through with high-tension towers
Flashing electrical teeth through Harvey's top-secret valves
As we navigate by Arco, a smiley faced Winnebago 
As temporary twin, and still the crystals resonate 
So ultrablue, tell us through telepathy alone
What went on here, what rolled in from underground
As if it was provisional, for the people
Here at Lamont Odett, HQ of the operations, 
Under dry lenticular landscape painting, to Palmdale, 
Not a destination tho R. Lee Ermey Ave beckons
And the highway sings through the tires in the wind, 
Must be Avenue M, Willow Springs, where all things bend
At the Mohave Wormhole Zone, where the Joshua Trees
Appear just in time, as it seems the Federation
Has freed us up, to see: the SS Minnow in the tumbleweed,
No thought of stopping by the roadside at the Pleasure Boutique
Fronted by mannequins with wind-blown lingerie
But we're moving the brinkley, as the porta potties rolling
Leak towels across the Cesar Chavez National Monument freeway
While our ears squeeze out another nail in my heart 
Nailed flat, more memories realized in the moments 
As they pass, experienced as new soothing things
While the old ones smoulder in the clouds
Still more memory than mountain.

Sunday, September 6, 2026

Rainbow Hunter Eyes at Clifton's Cafeteria, with its Intermittent Downpours

Lenticular prophecy, fulfilled
With tin roof rain from a leaking sky
Feeding the green that only
Comes out when its gray.

The dun likes the rain, unlike us
Protected as we are by archangels
And whatever else the mind needs
To construct our understanding of spirit,

We hide under the eaves,
Rely on older messages to respond
To earlier, long forgotten traumas
To explain to ourselves

What is happening, now,
What we should do
Now that the oaks are shadowed
And the crows veiled in leaves, unwilling to speak,

And the entrails have been clammed up
By shovels that lean precariously
Against an empty barn, seemingly
A primitive form of currency preserved

When it was never like that at all; the shells
Were honorings, because beauty is valuable,
The eyes of the beholder need no central bank
To validate the gold piece as it drops into the sea

To churn but not to drown, never losing itself
In what it is. There's a shack in Palau
That still stands from World War II,
Still leans into its memories

Of the brutal leverages of the colonial fucks
And the ruthless occupier harvests,
And it still holds the fuel, keeps the tanks
From rusting on these kinds of days

Which are, someplaces, every days,
Where they scrub clean without thanks
And recycle as if soap suds through a porthole
In the washer, where, with each spiral

So little is lost in lint, as the revolution proceeds
Despite what the limp underthings would like
To do: end it, because that's when reflection
Begins, when one evens knows they are alive,

Separated out just so, engineered precisely to last
As an illusion, a form whose shadow takes
The sun, the whole melting ball of hot mess fire
That drops so slow for us, across the sky.

Sunday, August 30, 2026

Kozyrev Mirror, The Ultimate Tin Foil Hat

There's how-to's on bending spoons with your mind 
Now on YouTube, taking the Heisenberg
Observer back, once Kozyrev proved
Coherence alters time -- we broadcast constantly

We receivers. Yet he couldn't get the room read
When each nonpareille grain of crystal oscillates
Wildly, a condition not even measured in the West,
How the sweat itself makes the lie detector lie. 

Inside the spiral, one can only see their own
Biofield, all that is measurable as unique,
When they observe the crystals dissolve in tea
Or the moment the water steams -- it flexes time,

The lens creates NDEs as sure as fasting did
To the ancient mystics in the inner chamber
Of Fibonacci curve, where time's been squeezed
Of any meaning, slowed down to absolute zero point

Where everything is solid, immovable,
Glistening like jello under the moon mold
Having spun down like a record to a stop.
Time so compressed to a vacuum state creates

Alternate timelines, the beginning of travel
As chrononaut surfing the pure wave
By humming at the turn of dewy earth; voila:
Telepathy, premonition, someone else's memory...

Time as an experiment, while we can still stay 
In this density, but light moves so fast we won't be able
Soon to track it, but we can be it, in the resonance
Of an empty chest, from the field of oneness.

When time is at its heaviest, nothing's sensed or felt,
Except as distant people dream about Siberia 
Where the notes are passed back and forth
Between the separate strands of time, it would be

Like a knitting circle, but for the White Observer there
Who, when the observer's forced to observe herself,
In the ultimate sensory deprivation tank, one thing only
To perceive: a whirr of humming uberspecific love

And nothing else, what kind of madness have you built
Into this experiment? Proving only what you knew before,
That we are holy, and showing nothing to those who can't see,
Who still precipitate particular particulates, gluons, neutrinos 

And such, to determine when the great chain of being will end,
But it terminates at the other side, the observer, the all-seeing
Eye, that pyramid of In God We Trust One, our actual antennae,
Being, transcending what is seen by seeing, and words let go.

Saturday, August 29, 2026

The Arcturian Goes Slumming

I told my fun fact to the team 
About Brio, no one knew
I had a horse, no one suspected.

The next time I see him
He knows, he gestures the feeling
He has reached my heart.

We feel alone
Because we aren't alone
And never have been

But for the seems that
Bubble up from underground
Like self-esteem steam that rises 

To the glare of the moon
And the blue tube quavering, around
An outline where there was none,

Filling in the sand
Of identity, into the hole
That wasn't there before

There was a you
Illumined in the sick glow,
Mirrors flung from everywhere

That cast a boundary, a spell
To toss you into the sea of others
As if you'd drown

Or become anything but 
What you've just learned
You are, a drop that can be any shape

As the Hymn to St. John the Baptist shows
You are multi-dimensional,
Agreeing to repeat a frequency

Until you get it just so-la-ti
As a Cat and a Deere level
The playing field to plant the nasturtiums

Of every shade, of every seasonal tuning,
For everyone is equal and is free,
Whatever role we assume this time,

Whatever pocket we fold into
Like an undetectable mouse
On our very own soul journey,

The singular cut of our lapel, 
Our single story, to protect us
But not from who we are. 

Friday, August 28, 2026

"An Unfortunate Series of Events" Eclipse Eve

The sweat breaks
With eclipse heart light
People look at each other again
Instead of merely talking

It's OK to live among the hive,
A speck of Shell stick
Or a giant, luminous, pulsating 
Insect cloud with antennae

As the mermaid by the feather
Holds the pearl, the eternally voiding
Distorted mirror moon at night,
The only real evidence she exists

At least here, to elude sailors,
Meaning men, unable to see her,
For there is nothing to leverage
But what they do, nostalgic downs

Over her breath, her eyelash,
The curl of her smile.
I believe he is Russian,
Bald and impeccably polite --

He likes to cut in lines,
Block his neighboring seat,
Slip through the tiniest seam
To always be the first one on the train

Every day. It gives him joy
To play his solemn, cultural duty,
Choose an air-conditioned, upholstered seat,
A freedom so unlike other prisons,

I observe him every day, like a Mantis being
Ruling the frequency streams, and he,
Like any guy, clams up,
You know the type, can't speak

To release his mouthful
Stoic to the end
As the one service he can
Provide, but there are days

Like today, when a jogger
And an absent man
Lost in his mind
Were struck, killed by this very train

In this eclipse season, beings jumping
Away, things we have to say goodbye to
And for this test we're kept in this seat
To writhe in the stoppage until

We are grateful: for air and transport
And home and life, gratitude
Is the test of endurance, for indeed
That is what we have made it, without a word

Between us, to sit there all Marlon Brando cool,
He and I, who meet eyes for the first time
At the open door, the first words ever shared,
Something dumb and unyielding, voiceless 

On what we together endured even, it wasn't a note
Like every woman would ring, carrying sadness
In all its loudness for the families, and even more
Those that don't have any, but we were able to see 

How much deeper the sunset goes tonight,
Though no smiles and hugs ware shared beyond
The transactional distance we were so proud of
Dancing so respectfully behind, or beyond

Until the moment when everything is one again
Just to remind us, like a cutout on the portal,
All that we have forgotten
Is actually what is real.

Sunday, August 23, 2026

The Guy with the Eye is Vesica Pisces

We get to find out what it means to be human!
All the problems in the world
Have turned out only to be
The loneliness of not connecting

To what you've individualized from,
Not to be able to,
It is foolhardy to try
To harmonize a shadow.

Forgive everything!
Impossible you say
But that's where your freedom lies,
In trying

Strange open
Receiver,
Afraid of the
Paradox.