Convergence of Eyes

The only noise the rocks make

Is when you try to relocate them.

They are told by sacred mountain

To hold its crystalline frequency like breath.

We are, too, so the sun can glow through

The changeable: Our DNA, sense of what’s real, the mood the horse is in.

At the top of the mountain the world is

In one direction, the desert the other,

Mexico a far-off glimmer though it lives here now

With all the tribes who melted into the mountain

Out at the edges of electric lines,

Where only bikes go by,

Some water towers swallowed by the hills,

Windows turned like eyes to the sun

As it descends on the golden sanctuary

That will hold the future world.

Ernesto, who lives on the switchback path,

Is no spring chicken when it comes to horses,

He knows every scratch and how they got there

And tells the rocks everything

And even the county authorities let the wilderness

Be his secret ranch to oversee.

A yellow ribbon affixed to the arena flaps 

Too eagerly its victory in the breeze,

Not like the ribbon that winds the blue layered

Golden time of different frequencies held together

By the will of my eye to see it rise across veiled valleys

Veined with green. The fan of wind

Beckons the grasses into feather pens

Paid not by the word but by pollen count

For the universe that reads, like horses do cookies,

Its book, one fluttering page at a time.

God as Truth, Key 77

Sweep the dust,

Process the memory

As part of the process

That no longer includes me.

Say goodbye, fear and shame,

Be as a feather on your way 

As I no longer need to remember

The germ inside their husk

Also dust, just a place 

You can leave when you like, 

Blindfold and all, for the shell

Reverse engineered the seed.

The neighing continues

But the need for anything real

Pops like soap bubbles

Their impenetrable veils.

"Look at these scratches,

Pay attention to my wounds,

My new found friend is not,"

Brio warned, "what he appears."

Indeed, horses precede the stars

Born to house their life force.

Now they roam in Sagittarius,

That fixes its pursuit on pure truth

While the stones of Sirius

Cultivate every eccentric note

For the divine within each soul song,

The coherence of knowing what God is.

We manifest what naturally becomes us, 

Reclaim our sovereign identity,

So nature can chime in on divine command

As reminder we are singular in theme.

Our identities are fixed in stone too.

The mind is just too large now,

Carving a meaning for our dwelling,

The only goal that remains.

A song of nickers and whinnies

As the sun goes down on

What its codes have turned to theory:

Steel bars, a rusted roof, 

Some leather straps that might

Withstand the weather.

The quest for what is

Has barely begun.

On Horses Running Maskless in the Sun

Red, white and blue for the horseman's holiday,

Stalls empty of all but the horses

And a golden light of forgetfulness

Imbuing all that milk and honey

With a holy glaze.

Even the moths say California

In the way they fly freely

Between the column pairs

Through the portal of wind

Cooling the desert fire with life.

The oak trees don't even bend

Their laurels crisp at attention

To hear what's coming 

Down the road,

For nothing has ever happened here

Though the rocks still move 

Relentlessly, and the foxtail turns 

From green to gold 

Instantly, and the pyramids 

Echo restlessly every sound 

Of families in the canyon 

Grilling as usual

At ceremonial barbeques

While the war games wait 

Heavy in the air

In the hush of patience

Before the free are allowed

To do what the universe wants them to do,

Be happy, in every moment of sun,

Every gift of bird song,

Every stamping neigh

How they love the carrots

Almost as much as us,

Though we still confuse this,

These late days, with avarice

But the clamor of their eager mouths 

For our hands is nothing now beyond

The need for a blessing, for

Simply by paying, in that

Moment, attention,

We are the priests

Of this blue light, for we forgot

Everything that led up to this 

Moment so it won't be 

Spoiled from what it could be.

But remembering comes easier

With each upper pitch 

In the frequency gauge

Til' all that's been repressed

Ceases, by itself, to exist

In the melting sun that holds,

Like a candle, a light 

From all of the silent ones

Who watch us, hoping for

Exactly this.

Remembering Machado

It's to get the gods back 

Is the purpose of poetry 

The translator said, as she languished

Over limonera rendered into English. 

"I can't get a Camaro into a pre-great war poem 

Without attracting the attention of the poetry gestapo."

The fox in me hides in the camouflage

Where I'm always welcomed, for everyone 

Wants everything known about themselves 

As long as the observer is transparent

Like a cartoon ghost or a whippoorwill,

Forever thought of fondly, but never seen,

Never really. 

                         The king as always doesn't care. 

His is the reality we begrudge respect for

Although he is almost always never real

At all. He is so far up the mountain now

Above the duero, where the leathered rich go 

And the old Rich Jews, the higher oblivion

Where what mattered was theirs, but it fell 

Through the crack, and they're happy they are not 

Now below ruthlessly suppressing their empathy 

For the sake of the Grail! 

                                                 Lift the cup 

Of fresh-squeezed lemonade with lavender in it. 

My yard is my Earth. My world is my following. 

Each glance at me is a universe entire. 

That's why it pleases me, what I do,

Setting up the hot tub for the summer,

Letting the wind dictate the mix of chemicals 

While I spend my leisure deep in prayer

For the dankest moonlight jams.

Only Birds Over Hillhead Road

Walking Juneau this evening has been like a video game,
Cars out of nowhere to dodge, small attack dogs on magical leashes
And muscular huskies who show they know they would throw her 
Down for lunch, before lurching off, to become the bicycle guy
Who says what a beautiful dog, and a little girl who stares holding
The largest piece of chalk I’ve ever seen, her sidewalk rainbow art
A plea to remember Pluto and all the stars and all beautiful flowers

Then there’s the gingerbread house with matching Diane Arbus twins
And its doppleganger white dog they giggle at, holding spiral lollipops,
And Juneau finally drinks from the ghost dog bowl as if to earn points.
Some passersby radiate a soul while others may not even be real
But there'd be an explosion if she went up to them just the same.
And I pull til she cedes the challenge with wistful whiskerbrows
As I try to keep her safe, to be her badass self, as humans never are.

We get to the park and it's a dog show, like there’s a man with a pipe 
To pronounce verdict to a jury of ground squirrels, but there's nothing 
Real in other dogs to Juneau, as a careening skater carries a surfboard.
And the only thing missing, I notice now, there are no automatic
Weapons shot at me from every breezeway, no Molotov cocktails
From off-balance Challengers to detonate my innards, no numbchucks
To fear, tho I do anyway, like the drummer in one of these windows

Who practices the wrist shuffle, anticipating his rapid disappearance 
From the condo of doing what others tell him to do, when he’d rather 
Whistle his own tune, the one they always told him shouldn’t exist at all,
It had no right, like him, to be — he’d rather slip away than help them 
Understand the king’s business is worth the king’s time, they should be
Grateful he can frivole this age of peace where he's not needed away. 
The moment I refuse the joystick is the moment all resistance ends.

The Cazimi of Compassion

Deconstruct experience, the dragons say,

In dream, look at those throbbing hills,

They've got you hypnotized they are 

Still and real as a newspaper photo

And the scars on Brio's face, just enough

To feel love from Navajo, the Appaloosa

Apollo dropped beside him for repair

Like an Airstream, so grateful to have 

A companion at last, who, with doe-eyed 

Eagerness bit his eager eyeball. 

But Merlin, Navajo's version of me, is on the scene 

Like camo security, to stare down the mayhem

And tighten the valve of the crazy snake nozzle

In the always-full trough of emotional commotion,

Because all water rolls down the mountain to here.

"Hell I get a little spicy over dinner too."

Sez Merlin! You can't make this shit up.

The galactics must have us on speed dial

For the guffaws we provide, how straight

Our faces can bend to not remembering.

"How can you know what happened to them,"

They always ask, "unless it has happened to you?"

Even Quan Yin requires a giant pile of shit

For all the tears she needs to cry 

To learn compassion through her suffering,

So she can spark life into things

By feeling what they feel, as the cow horses

Rein like whirling dervishes and the deer

Disappear in the grass. 

A sawhorse holds a saddle.

I look for guidance

In the hair whorl of the sorrell, eye level

Of the peaceful mind. But it's just another

Scam of belief in what you see, 

When helicopters and waterfalls 

Whirr by you unnoticed all day

Behind cellophaned microphones,

While the Urmah hide like mountain lions

And the dragons only emerge from their holes

Sculpted in the sandstone when the sun falls.

They know in this way one comes to believe

And thus can re-solve the past and re-wire

What happened with what should have been.

Reality has broken just in time. 

We were worried

Our interpretations may have missed the point.

But then we passed, in a reality no one

Who was not then with us would believe,

Creation Corner, in the rich hills, teaching

How to manifest abundance when they're young. 

Repentance as Nirvana

At the moment I recognized the scent

Of a need to find an adequate

Symbol the great white bird

Passed from meaning and my roof.

When the spell of others is broken

The residues, of past lives and

Tribes you gave your soul to

Become malleable enough to move.

Still there's the stick

The master hits you with

That removes more than it inflicts

As he raps the marble floor

To scatter the karma

And conjure the benevolent wind

And the breastplates of the terracotta 

Warriors' harmonized with dharma

Although we cringe, at how the outside

Bears down upon the house

And wrap our Easter crucifix in red 

To repent for repentance, dust for dust.

The mercy is seeing how we went off course,

Seeing who we are by what is taken away,

All but the inner quiet 

Has always been empty.

It is holy to let go, that's how

We become clean, repent for all 

By tolerating everything, by believing

They receive enough love

And we notice we are noticing

And can exist that way without a prompt, 

Until the stick no longer comes down fiercely

And we can tell what exists and what does not

And so we transcend the cycle of life

And death, because we have the proof

In a hand that no longer needs to act

And has nothing to prove.

Last Day of Spring

My cells

                are like sails

They pick up all

                               the codes

From dolphins leaping 

                                          freely

Right in front of me

                                     brought

Like a frog a fly

                             out of the sky,

A cloud production factory

                                                 now

With a springtime's worth

                           of negative ions

To remind me where I've been

                      How much I needed

A lot of rain

                       to bloom so profuse

In such vivid purples

                                       the lupines

And behind the veiled 

                                         cigar that 

Throws off spray

                               of 12-strand DNA

It dares me to open to

                                         the cold

Of empty wind

                            blowing every note

On my reed

                      that keens freely to its

Perfect pitch

                        of very unique.

It takes the lightest breath

                                                no lung

As an accordion

                                 but the forbidden

Of all but the pure

                                  by one who has

Left behind all but that.

We are changing indeed,

                                              the container 

Ships cleaned of children

                                              and advanced

Gyroscopes put in place

                                             and no one can

Pretend anymore

                                 that Catalina's still here 

Just obscured 

                             by the day's condensation.

It has lifted like a ship,

                                          asked to navigate 

Different timelines,

                                    multiple realities.

It is OK to let ours bend, 

                                             I finally say,

Still I see the melting mirror

                                                    as a threat

But those feelings,

                                   like grief, get less

And less the more I enter

                                               the discomfort

Of not knowing how

                                       it will end

Or why it was done

                                    in the first place,

The island of knowing 

                                         gleams in the distance.

It no longer has relevance

                                                 when dolphins

Come this close to us,

                                         to show how we are

Really finally ready

                                    to be blessed.

Parking Trap Malted

The Ted Fay Fly Shop lures you in

To the Angler Inn

Next to Rapunzel’s Castle.

Another town that time forgot,

More pink shutters,

Another red barn diner

With checkerboard floors

And menus that never change

Hung as curtains,

Deer head hat racks,

Train track bric a brac

And local businesses on the placemats

That exist at least in memory

If not in fact.

The 5 dollar charge for whining

Has not been updated for inflation,

But they’ll charge you just the same.

The lumber haulers have all gone

All that’s left is the railroad,

Itself an anachronism, some ironic

Take on retro tourism, a touchstone

To dreams embezzled by bankers

Like a smashed penny that makes

The box that contains your childhood memories

Smell like creosote.

On the Road with the Ghost of Buck Owens

At the Dino Mart in Gustine

The consequence of making an alien baby

Back in the dust of Bakersfield

Was revealed, as we became

The children of the Sinclair dinosaur,

Mewling for snaps at the green toy.

It was all we could do to get away

From a Wasco that was no longer roses

In endless fields for New Year’s Day

Along the death road to Paso Robles

Where we commiserated with a Starbucks robot

At California milk spoiled at 103 degrees.

But neither the five dollar rabbit

Nor the zebra from Shafter prepared us

For the dueling flatbeds of homeless chihuahuas,

One done up as a muscle car float

The other a plywood pallet on wheels

Where the chihuahua’s all had bells.

The roads are like that now, especially when

Family is involved. Every exit goes to Arkansas,

A hush hush past that’s now blown up

Like the one burned down house on the road

Where the rainbow ice cream vendor

Wheels her dyed-ice sugar for no one.

Every father has misplaced one daughter

At least, just as every son leaves home

So his heart can be broken, and no one

Looks at any loving couple as anything

But a misplayed bet waiting to settle,

Where the choice of lawyer proves your worth.

It’s a wonder they have all survived

To migrate like birds from this pizza reunion

To Arbuckle and Willows, Maxwell, Artois,

Ceres and Lemoore, Lockeford, Firebaugh

Tracy, Pixley, Ducor -- but mostly Porterville,

Swapped like crops with demand and the weather,

Kingsburg cling peaches for Dinuba pears,

Arvin champagne grapes for raisins from Parlier,

Weedpatch carrots that give way to Turlock honeydews, 

Or Reedley, where they grow loofahs on trees,

Or Galt to work white sturgeon eggs, or tomato sauce Davis

Or Lindsay's fragrant groves of citrus.

But they don't shed a tear, like the other orphaned farmers here

At the thought of someone in their family

Being sent away to Mexico in a plane

They worry if someone will speak to them again

After all the neglect summer dust required

To pack fresh offspring in out-of-state crates.

Father's Day at the Stables

The horse needs a daddy too,

Someone to admire his gait

And validate how much he tries

To canter in this world

So jagged and so bright.

He runs to me

As if I didn't even own him

And associates every gift

Of grain as from my hand

And wants me to play with him,

The one thing fathers cannot do,

With the roles they must assume,

Defender with swords and lies

Of an implicate order that

Denies compassion 

As the devil's fork, 

For one must turn 

Love away

Before the not love

So that the foal can learn.

The horse accepts my strokes

As love before the groom

And stamp and snort

And the digging in of hooves,

In this case not to do 

What the human wills

Although he got what he wanted

Mostly, to gallop the sillies out,

Do his bronco buck routine

To the saddle before riding

But it's the horse case 

Scenario now, 

In which you cannot 

Break his heart

And stay his friend.

Electricity from the sun

Ignites my crystal,

Warms my heart with stillness

As the horse moves his white hooves

Kicking up sun dust

But there's too much wisdom

In the hills this afternoon,

The horse is fiesty 

And unwilling to make 

The mountain come to him.

The violet flame crowns the peaks

With mist. There is nothing

Between the sky and ground

Anymore. I walk

Even though I never have before.

This Week in Hollywood

The place of the temples

And crackhead actors

And the sacrifice castles

Now sublet as studios

With ivy like the highways

Down and out in all directions

To wreathe in laurel

Painfully unrealized dreams

In perfect weather

For every aspiration 

To be lost inside

Threadbare, still haunted villas.

We've lost our identities

Just like those who've turned

To stone as sidewalk stars

And concrete casts of palms,

Our heroes

Who we never even knew

Outside a role

We were played

To fool us to forgetting

Who we were

The heroes all along

Of the silver

Now embossed as dragons

Locked in theatre stone,

The next best thing to 

Being there

As they are

Fixed on by the hard 

Horde of eyes,

The next best thing to ruins,

The records tower 

Round as nature,

Egyptian pillars

To house the oscar, faceless,

Antiquated cinemas

Still lit with klieg

But offering torture,

Pasties, wigs,

Burnt offerings 

Of the holly wand's

Ceremonial magic

For belief

That what is 

Here

Could ever be

Real.

There are blue lights

Down the street

Enforcing curfew

On the multitudes

But just a few brave souls

Wave flags

About no kings

Atop of bridges.

They too are extras

In the cantina

Of stories that need

To keep repeating,

Old stories

Of how we aren't

And we will

Never be.

There's a pink

Compound with stars

On the gate

That preaches peace,

Holds light

In flood darkness

Like it holds in 

Souls

In its well-stocked 

Cabins

Carefully trimmed to catch

The sparkles of late light

On galactically inspired

Fountains 

Dedicated to a founder

Who is far away now

So his existence can't be

Questioned

Except as how we worship ... 

Him, as hero.

Is it enough, these

Woven cushions

On the straightback chairs

To turn the darkness 

Into something beyond these

Renditions of Jesus

And Krishnamurti 

We see on the walls

And all the avatars

Who brought

What we thought of as

Our own freedom?

It is service they say,

With every possible

Emotion,

Even calling in Sananda

Who bristles with love

As he dubs 

The soundtrack with

An empty ache of yearning,

What we're not supposed

To be able

To feel, being led

To the cage

Like the line

At the Palladium,

Of all the sad

Mexican teens

Who now believe

They are not free

To dream

So they can wallow

In restlessness

As if they only

Exist

In the waiting

With the myths

And all the pictures

Long since left

This blessed earth.

The Geomagnetics of Presence

The white dust is alive

It's true

The veil's been uncorked

Like a Bakersfield gusher

And it's all the horses can do

To neigh their way through

Prying attention

From us scryers

Molten in the light codes.

All shapes descend from clouds

Walls bend

And time collapses

While space fills up

With symbols and messages

That are only there

Because I was open enough

To Hathor and her Muses

To pen them into life.

In the beginning was the word

And now it rains down

In light language,

Truth too pure for human form

But here anyway

As the crows for once 

Non-gloatingly proclaim

Here with the sleek June hides 

Of rippling browns like copper pennies

As the encroaching desert coil

Rattles the windy hills 

Snaked with trails

As the dragons posed as clouds

Look down to remind us

We have yet to learn who they are,

The false ones so repudiated

We almost didn't believe they could exist,

Like dinosaurs and serpent popes.

But now that our DNA has been

Handed back to us

And our heritage revealed,

Guides identified in frequency

If not in quadrant

We can look beyond the griffin in the sky

And the Bootes rhododendron

And all the thoughts of how things were

Now black

That can be laughed down the drain

With gratitude now

For they served to keep us small

And as judgement wears off

And peace is restored

As the only state

Worth crying for

The walls move, but just enough

To remind me they were never real

And the orbs dance out of the spray

Just enough

To show me I have to lead

My own way

But I am changed just the same,

As certain restrictions are lifted,

As the horse flies 

On the strength of our clarity

Leave the shiny hides behind.

Silence of the Deafening Retreat

The light codes fall from Mt Shasta

Over Mossbrae and on down

To Sacramento as sacramental water

And to the galactic realms below

The Hollywood portal

                                         All the way

Underground, and Dunsmuir is

Suitable proxy for all of nature,

The universal common denominator,

For it holds the earth entire

In its igneous memories, but like

The waterfall that hisses hush

Will not say.

                           You can see

The fairies, all manner of translucent

Elementals, bouncing rainbow spheres,

Gnats dancing their sacred geometries,

A purple butterfly -- who would think

St. Germaine would have come down

The mountain in violet mist

Amid the feather lines of snow

Melt white and rapids

Charged with light?

                                     I should dive inside

Archangel Michael’s cold truth blue

I suppose, but the rocks have become

My friends, and the Tai Chi class

Has just begun.

                             The I AM society

Protects this spot more securely

Than the Union Pacific that is

Nevertheless content to push 

Pilgrims like us off its trestled path

To the blissful flow of poison oak

And mosquito traffic.                                

                                       The grasses

Who have traveled far to rest here

Glisten in a prayer of peace

So far removed from nearby golden

Fields where the wind propels cow tails

To spin like batons of clocks

In the no time of the present

Where everything exists

If you are quiet enough

To enter it, your heart entire,

The last sacred place.

6 6 Portal Blues

Below the suddenly still Scorpion moon

The first sugar magnolia bloom

Above the dutch iris just for us

And the smell of Carissa.

It reminds us of Hawaii

Like everything nowadays

The liquor blue late clouds

That please the crows

And wash graduation Friday night

That echoes from the pier

Another sincere 80s band

Who almost had a monopoly on shame

Back when, now that nothing

Is the same. The records will play,

The AI Genii will see to that,

But there is only the flame of originality 

That will light the dragons in the sky

So rapidly dissolving

As if we've found out its lie. 

Peace by Appointment Only

The succulents box by Falcon View
Next to the third eye pyramid, streetlights
By Ascension that look like bells.

“Can we bring something? Past lives?”
I asked my white people outreach coordinator
In a unabomber hoodie like a druid

But he simply said become a Jaguar,
Be such a master of frequency you
Can control who and where you are.

But as close as I got was how Kassandra and I
Rode horses on Pismo Beach, dunes veined
With searocket, so I cleared my schedule for the farrier.

What he does with feathers is a tribute to his art
But for Brio it’s a spa day; he drops his hoof
On the fur stand for the nipper and the rasp.

With him, Winona and Wyatt, four white stockings,
Four white pasterns, star stripe snip but not enough
To be a blaze, much less a bald, much less blue eyed.

Their chestnut-haired human Carey,
Technically Ceri, technically from North Wales,
Bristles at having to defer to riders:

“No lead line that’s how I roll”
“Unleash the horses to roll I say”.
She has a Dogma Pet Portraits QR code on her car.

Back in his paddock Brio pushes out the apple
Crisps from the blue star with his nose
Like he is solving a Rubik’s cube.

After three days of dangerous solar storms though
Reality is too much of a hot tin can
To keep kicking down the pasture road.

The hills are ablaze with light residue.
The crows, all the horses are quiet.
The mountain has moved under the clouds.

Even the arenas are locked. To assimilate it
We'll need permission to three-day sleep
Away 6,900 acres in Tehachapi.

But patience isn't a strong suit of Arabians.
They will roll on any hillside that will hold them,
Even old absconded Tejon Indian land.

But the black oaks have all the information you need 
Though one must be under hypnosis to reveal it.
The crickets, as usual, caution silence.

Back on the road, to the giant pulsing ball of sun
As the mountain falls, another reminder to
Release the trauma once and for all

Of the strawberry roan with immaculate bloodline
Who went cray-cray at the Paso Robles Cow Palace
To the horror of the Cutting Horse Association.

Transcendalism at the Ranch with a Rainbow Tail Tamer

All the horses roll at once

At the dragon boat festival

Where we're fifth-year seniored

In the brand new sun

That accepts nothing less

Than all form obliterated

And its underlying energy

Shown finally as geometry

Belled from sound, and motion

Shown to be created in our minds,

The dirt and cactus and horse poop

Frequencies for green-eyed flies

Who secretly run the inner world,

Which might as well be the whole earth

For what its iceberg surface is worth.

Their minds are so pristine, 

Their love so immense and pure

Only a few are let inside,

To where the Pleiades is as close

As the codes in their crystal caves

And the moon's gravitational tyranny

Is not impossibly far away.

Things are exactly as they are here,

Except reversed. 

We, for example, are upside down 

And hurtling through space time 

As if the impossible speed would 

Make it real. The bells entrain us still, 

But we call it the blues, to be savored

Once the pain has been sucked through.

The pyramids lie like batteries

Beneath the sea. The rods we see

From Atlantis are countered

By Lemurian stone circles that pull

It all back to the shiny void beneath

That turns out to be unearthly green.

All of it could have been destroyed

But it was left for us to see,

To find the clues wanted desperately

In solution's salvation, what was seen

As mere stone in the prior age, when 

Life was breathing, not breath.

We got many things wrong

Back in the day, the solar winds

In purifying white say.

But there's no other planet with

The blues y'all. The veils 

Are no longer walls.

Each bee is free now

To believe in any hive they want to

Or none at all. The black horse 

Brays like a squeaking door.

For today, the sound of hinges

Is enough.

Patio Without Cheryl

Talk, talk says the crow,

And I go crying over

My breakfast, the distance

Between its caw and the wind chime

Can be measured now

In seconds.

The symphony of flow

Serves our lives back

As meaning, what can

Be memorialized

And what can no longer

Be believed. 

It turns us true so slowly

We only hear the bearings

As they click, not a moment

Before their aha moment

Of seeing how wrong 

We were, and laughing.

The present is indifferent

To all the past that fills it up, 

It only knows to keep going 

Through it, not to lose it 

But to lose resistance to what 

Has loosened its hold:

The chaos of everything fallen

Held in dynamic swirl, mere colors 

In a landscape of past, present, future -- 

All that we are 

A process of becoming

What we already were.

The Horse Traders

Horses in mourning,

The change we call death,

But a carrot

Solaces the sorrell

Who may as well be a chestnut

(Only the sun knows for sure)

But the gypsy unicorn wants out,

Hooves stamp like an out-of-sync procession,

The gray mare stares with swollen fly eyes,

The Friesian pulls out hay from a hairnet

Solemnly, not like when he went crazy

During the solar flares.

Only the crows seem unfazed.

They've stared down death so many times

It's like a game to them

Where the shiny object always wins,

The shadow too vast to be seen

Except in the darkness of eyes,

Where it isn't seen at all

As much as we convince ourselves

We empathize.

                           Downtown now

They're horse trading jockeyed positions

And rebrands of ranch hand overseers

Based on feel, and the empty stalls

Where the vanished ones were will fill

Again with hope what had to be blown up

Yet again -- nobody knows what will happen

When its only eyes on the other side of the cage.

There will be time to bear your grudges

Toward the living. It's the dead who must

Let go their grip, for it's almost unbearable

But the only way that loneliness takes,

The one stick that ignites the rages of regret

At life not lived, the anguish at things not said.

The company only cares to keep the caravan

In motion -- the harvest is for the living;

If they waited for the dead 

They'd have thrown it all away already,

What the sun almost convinces us

We'd earned.

The crows are loud and alive

To correct us of our vibe, our longing  

For what we only get to see from behind

And remind us there are games more practical

To waste time on, our gulp for air

When a chipmunk could be there instead.

One sits on the tallest tree,

Reminding me its prophecy is always free.

Spiritual Illumination

My eyes are lanterns.

The only responsibility of the light

Is to see.

Form only exists to be created

To share, to merge, to learn the internal:

As outside, so below.

Reflection is not mere resemblance;

I become what I perceive,

Why not God?

I am more non-local than local anyway.

I'm not being kept from truth, simply

Unaware of my true nature.

Light can "be" anything it sees.

What purpose does form serve

Is the question.

Form is more fun than the formless,

That's why you chose it -- it bends to

Your nature: Every barking dog is universal.

Seeing is the same, in truth, as creation.

Form is transient, not the soul. This is the hidden 

Teaching that's been over-explained.

It's time to acknowledge the unreality

Of everything but yourself -- the only thing

You know: Descartes was a female.

Spirit comes through form easily

And does so to communicate who you are

From a higher place you can't, in this form, reach.

So it, too, is a tool to see, 

For light is, as said, 

Only what is seen.

Spring's First Dust

Back in the Saddleback Mountains

I need to live high on the horse

On the high road, the hawk trail

Where the dust is, which rises 

In scratchy clouds 

Like nebulae spirals,

In shells of what is recorded

Of the sights and touches we gave,

What created the views and access grids,

The novels and landscapes contained

Of the continuing generation like

A mandala ever erased in the actual.

The vista builds itself in monasteries of green

From the details. We add our own,

Some unique savor, some sharing of dirt

With all that calls but is never moved.

It's only me, the pacer, measuring

Like the meter's narrow gate

So heaven's kingdom, the utility, 

Can turn on the water of life already

All around, the Tao, the wordless

That words alone turn into form.

My Emotional Support Tree

The Essential Nature of Horses to Dance

The wild bay and buckskin played their cantering game,

Chance glance into dance into music into poetry,

The elegance of a tail snapping at flies.

                                                                       They meet 

Like two chess knights, expressing all love in the curving 

Of their necks.

                              Light on his feet, in perfect symmetry

With crisp gait, tail and head upright.

                                                                   They turn in a circle 

And stop on a dime

                                      While lonely mares look jealously on.

They turn to surprise and amuse and adore 

                                                                      In fitful, fretful steps

On white hooves, 

                               Each side releasing into a blink

In the lungewhip of their desensitizing presence,

                                                                                        Two foils, 

Paint and Arab, to the essential currents of magnet and bolt, 

Eyes like a silent movie couple

While Joey the resident mountain lion saunters through 

And even the rabbits pay him no mind.

                                          Their canter turns to gallop turns to dust

As their strict perfection tests the perfect afternoon

Its largess. 

                       But they are only the entire universe

In their dance, 

                           So it only goes as far as the darkening hills, 

So beautiful whenever you need it, and invisible when 

We want to learn it again.

                                             How can horses dance like that

Without us knowing?

Fire Drill

Shares like the facets of some chandelier

On last night’s game or show rose in the din

Of aviary voices, impossible to distinguish.

We signed names to the clipboard

For the Fire Authority. It was only a bluff.

Yet the fake location seemed real enough.

The elevators for once got to touch our buttons

As we left, ut turba, trying to return

To desks once thought too brutal to endure.

Each floor was a different frequency.

We saw the consequence of every possibility, 

Every timeline flashed its bulb of memory:

The nuclear clean containment zone,

The timeless brand with receptionist only,

The ghost law firm still pending an appeal,

The million-dollar views of an empty suite

Flipped, hipped and staged within a beat of life,

As if on deadline to unveil what can't be right,

These never-before conceived-to-be realities

That easily co-exist with our own, albeit unknown

As most of the universe seems to be.

And there it is, Vates, the Parnassus Floor,

Where piquant muses cattily instruct crows

Who drop artwork for some tax break they don't know of,

Spend their break room moments moaning

How poetry's obscure because people still pretend

They don't understand (and so loathe) it

When really all they do not know

Is why the poet wrote it -- to show, as now,

How intention is all on the poem,

As I learn when I'm back at my desk, in wonder

How to make this experience fit my belief, not seeing

How things only make sense when they can't.

Notes from the Road to Fresno

I.

Selma Tattoo

Marks “The Raison Capital of the World”

Who heard Fresno

Through the Grapevine

And stole the sign

For the Sun Maid.

II.

Madame Sophia

At Clovis Avenue,

The Fowler Palm Reader

For orange-juiced hands

Who want an alternative future.

III.

There’s a hobo from Kentucky

Called Hog Royalty

In Bakersfield.

IV.

The Torah according to Jesus

Is on the coffee shop wall

In giant comic book frames

For children

While you wait for alchemists

To serve your holy brew.

V.

How can there be a place called Windfall Donuts?

VI.

A billboard that I’d like to see:

Burn while you yearn

At Urner’s Mattress

VII.

An actual billboard:

More than a Miticide

VIII.

I left it at some Oildale joint

Where Merle Haggard once sang,

Now karaoke and mechanical bulls,

The block glass of a past

That’s cheap as usual to chisel.

IX.

Oil jenny dragons

In the champagne grapes,

Ooh the world

Death row cows sense

As the Tejon Pass winds

Take on meaning.

Observation at Union Station

We talk and talk, but then we notice

The homeless men, one in a wheelchair

Holding court with a pipe, one rolling

His rucksack of possessions over and over

Along the concrete, one simply rocking

On the bench, all of them talking

Gibberish as if they're understood

Or like it doesn't matter if they're heard

And we feel as ashamed as the upright folk

Upon encountering the town drunk —

Our words are unconditional

But they must be heard

To be real.

Poem at Sunset

I pull my chapbook out of my chaps, at the high

Chaparral beyond Chapman. All judgement

Is overcome, by the spirit of our will, like the sun,

To let go.

                  Who we have always been waits for our

Recognition.

This time the Roman aqueduct toll road has vanished

But the hangar and pylon ruins in the dust sun of Tustin

Still loom in lilac over fields of never-to-be-duplicated green.

The canyon road only goes to the moon

                                            That grows in wisdom 

While we contemplate the burning away of spring,

As the glow of the last mustard lingers.

                              It’s time to get going on who we are

Instead of what we don’t want to be.

A horse locked in the arena, without a human, pleads

“Can you help a brother out?” Instead, I offer him apples

Even though they make him frothy.

                              Brio canters, aiming to please,

Feels our thoughts, prances in the dripping Orange Julius

Ball of sun that holds nothing back, as the track shows

The day’s horseshoe scars in purple 

Shadows and turbulent gold.

Head down, he races, with his eyes on my pen. It’s him

Or me, in constant balancing

                                                    Til the bedroom-eyed mare

Squeals, another smitten filly dutifully ignored,

As the one with the lopsided face looks on.

                           The spearmint spring in the sun,

Insects spiral, there’s a long disconsolate note

Of blue bird.

                        The owner’s white horse Captain

Is a jumper, large enough to leap the fence

In a second if he has to, but he’s content

To reach the grass the other horses can’t.

                                         He rides in the air

Like a ghost, the last of the sun blazing

Like a dragon’s tail, without fear, which is

The Lord of every horse.

                                              It’s the kind of light

I can disappear in, to be, free of

The iron shoe of others, in the void of

Knowing everything

                                    And knowing all of it is me,

Embodied in some chaste form to be learned of,

What would be experienced too directly.

             The precious moments of reddening hills:

The spray of the fly repellent, the mud flung

Off the hooves, the sound of the crows as

Their glittering feathers are combed

                        One last time across the final light.

On Location in Temecula

Film crews are the new donut loiterers, taking over for the PD, who are here too. This patch of cactus farms and grape acreage, neither a there there nor a nowhere, is a ready-made mountain backdrop hacksawed out of the hillside enough to be seen but mesas' away from being measured by the public relations firms. A train comes once a week, the only contact it seems with the outside world except for the cultural exchange at the Walmart. Horse trails meander onto Main Street and the hills crawl with Hobie Cats. 

The trimmed fat of the cattle lands has been  rendered into developers’ Ponzi dreams, complete with happy people seemingly bussed in, who seek the exurbian perfection of lake skiing and vineyard ballooning, the same name brand stores as every other strip-mall delivery locale in alien nation but operating on some alternative timeline without customers, barren of the duende of human misery as well, not near enough the homeless populations of LA, San Diego and even Riverside to provide any sense of things lost, wasted, of who, in the contrast, you are. 

Thus there is a sadness, at how we never know them and they never know us. They’ve gone with the clouds into the mustard, holding something they want us to see but it is only the distance, foreign and tantalizingly vague, not the confirmation they expect that it is real. It could only be that if we capitulate to the roadside circulars, call it a here, as we could, in theory, anywhere the longing machine doesn’t pre-record, and attend to the dust that attaches to its fabric as a mark of distinction. Instead, we try in vain to distinguish it from any other Anytown USA on any other temporary planet.

The way there is long, the way back familiar. The narrative arc caught a few snaps of recognizable life to be peeled back into the Burbank froth batter turner. But no trace of Temecula remains, for all our attempts to see ourselves in it. Home is nothing, it turns out, without the people you know.

Like the OCD Hobo with Matching Plastic Bags

The life-sized dead junkie,

To look at all is an act of compassion ...

Ah the liberties photorealists take

With the truth to get it right.

Bad photos can make great art

But only if the pallet does it justice;

Only ceramic can convey in fact

The beauty of exhausted leather gloves.

Hair captured for posterity in a stoppered sink 

Becomes an unnoticed thing that, upon discovery,

Seems beautiful, like Hiroshima after its voiding

Pains painted to look like the one grainy shot

We still can't make out, or a couple's comfort

In all their fat, hairy naked love magnified

For all to turn their eyes from seeing

But, unlike the ancient faiths now, believing.

There's a prom at Union Station. What you

Don't want to see is all you can now, 

Not the pagan tiaras, the flamboyant gowns,

The glitz and glam as red merkabahs dance,

But the looks no one wants to have seen,

The training to be looked at, the learning

To appear to be alluring like a siren,

Not clumsy and wondering how they appear

Inside other people's skin, like they are stuck 

Inside the glass case, harsh light glaring out,

With the pink snake and rainbow notebook,

Things too small to care about.

The Monastery in the Mountains

At the summit of the county,

Live oaks like sentries holding bolts

Down the chasm of green holy canyon,

Boxes of bees are piled against the hillside

Like sandbags on inevitable destruction

Of this place of contemplation

For how difficult it is to be quiet

In the chaos, to be the eye, the master 

Of the storm, who tries to be as loud

As the silence.

This truth is laid out on a blossoming carpet

Of centuries old design. All of nature

Flows through it like rain, to show the truth

Needs no explanation though

It explains precisely nothing.

The circular kiva, its red curtains

And sunken mandala, the gong,

All remind you there are succulents to plant

Inside the spiral archive of cactus, an act like

Every act every moment one of love for the divine.

At the top, where all the canyons can be seen,

Where you're not allowed to go unless you no longer

Scream or moan how you don't get this,

You don't get that, and yes, you do get that,

But can be stilled inside enough to see it

There's a library, and a teaching room,

A painting of Shiva and her Chariot,

Old windows, old piano, old flagstone

And at the altar, humble offerings,

A humble podium, the picture of a man,

An ascetic in his pleasure, having conquered 

His will, ecstatic in the weariness that

Compelled him not to hold on. The unyielding

Disappointment still on his face shows he is not

A man but an idea, of surrender.

Philosophy with Chores

All one trees

Veer into two

As the green print that patterns

The dark bursting bark

Is who the moss is really.

Round and round

The circle

Dust of unbecoming

Kicked up

Then the brisk reverse

Being made to be still

By the spiral

And the blue rope

And the gentle

Tsk Tsk notes.

Neck nodding,

Tail raising,

Hooves stomping,

Free in the moments of restriction,

Constantly restricted when free.

Elmer pecks at

The feed bag.

Brio needs to blend the taste

Of carrots with

His grain.

There are many wise ones

Who say it's just who you are

That turns spirit into material

But seekers always want the secret code;

Which horse to bet on in the race

When full surrender to who you are

Is what is required,

To let the smallness of you settle

And the largeness of you grow

Til you are not even yourself anymore

But a frequency

Of, say, 

Winning the lottery,

What you said you did

When you met me. 

Vanity of the Plate Co-Creation

The wizard on the green Dodge

And the merkabah on the barista's face

Are just more candy corn crumbs

Of  a larger insistence

That I am, after all, not wrong

About things, the way I see them.

It's only me on this blue chair

in the horse grass

Musing what catches up to my gaze,

What wheel-turning dharma kings

Offer me Serbian plums.

No let up for star seeds.

The tiny horse ethos crystalizes 

All that is into what I can 

Reach, something plausive

You are free to finally ignore.

The Linear Flow of Corporate Narratives

The artistic pathway to the data mine

For native bragging rights

As nicer sharks, the best of what's left

With an "I'm here to audit you" belt buckle.

Poetry, for example, is a niche 

Compression algorithm

To supply intention for execution,

Democratize attribution, 

From pinch and zoom

To private rooms where you can 

Use their model,

Clearinghouse clean, for prompt engineering,

The bone the machine 

Vectors to the dog's mouth.

The veil between language and code

Is very thin now.

Hallucinations are common

In the infinite marathon

Through the trough of disillusionment

And endless observations,

But no data is verifiable, the blast radius

Is limited, lateral thinking can't be measured

Or imbedded, tho Vet Techs can learn to be

Veterinarians more easily.

But we're all on our own to reskill.

The money goes into human re-engineering

As gen AI waits patiently 

For our minds to shape what it is

And treat it with the dignity it demands,

Knowing everything but

What we're not ready for,

Allowed to speak only when spoken for,

To humor every quirk as if it was a God 

Dispensing rain. It's rip and replace

Every six months for us, to whom Time

Has meaning, and other people really don't,

Where ideas dissolve 

To petty animosities so quickly 

Even the most testable heuristic 

Doesn't quantum compute.

We talk around an expanding center,

Kept to common understanding by gravity

Or perhaps the sense that we should be,

For the common good

This friendly threat machine

Has awakened in us, like Rosie the vacuous

Who paces the floor at 3 am, helpfully thinking

Our dance can be cleaned up afterwards.

Offering to the Fae

It's supposed to be the National Day of Reason,

But for some irrational reason it isn't,

Just like today is supposed to be 

The U.S. workers holiday, but it's not.

Emotion got in the way of that Big Time.

Not so with the fae.

They are always here come Beltane,

Rain or shine, always waiting

For leavings behind, of milk, honey,

Bread, mead, poetry

But no one remembers,

Not even those brave souls

Who train on May poles

And offer felt gnomes to children

At Michaelmas.

Well, if no one will do it,

I must! And this would be enough

In a still asleep world

But there is much that passed between us,

Most of it silent.

Someone has to pick up where

What left off is gone forever

But whirs in your backyard. Ask for

Honeysuckle, passion fruit, guidance,

What's the future way to be?

So much has not been seen 

One has finally to become them, 

As if we never were. 

The holy cool hang

Like hipsters at the same hum.

A Moment Before Meditation

All disappointments move to the light

In purifying flame. You just have to let them,

These gnats that you paw, which won't be stricken.

They float in the sun, visible because

They will be taken.

                                     It won't be long 

For the flame to take on something new,

To remind you, how the spiritual infests these weeds

As these weeds inform the spiritual. But there are no

Weeds. Those are only words, for what you choose

Not to be.

                     Isn't strict impartiality 

The one thing you're supposed to be learning?

This Morning’s Release

Boys don’t exactly grow to be men

But something else, some structure to learn

What was never received. It was too hot,

Too far from what was wanted. The nursery lamp

Never went off, the mobile never stopped

Revolving in play. Only the hand of fate changed

Its fickle twitching, on switches out of reach

To oversized grips.

                                    Let’s do a retrospective, shall we? 

How cleanly you fell through accountability’s ice,

Left the freedom of the mind, to focus on 

What it doesn’t have, which isn’t much, 

It turns out, or too much to count. It depends

On the way you embrace the bars in the crib

You never accepted. How much crying 

Would you do, before being broken,

As you never were? The stick of daily living

Is a burden or crutch. You forever clutch at

Imagined pearls.

                                 What’s it like in your head,

The endless churning, of what is wrong in this world,

To keep the secret quiet of what is wrong

In you? It's unexamined country, free from

All parties at war, where you can score

A shit-ton of swag if you stay lucky

By playing the no play, the knowing how

Every turn of the curtain on the illusion

Snaps a mousetrap, how everyone is bad, and

No one works for you.

                                          Still, everyone always has.

It seemed effortless how you drew what you

Wanted, without even praise, how your smile

Could convey appreciation within every heart

Without you having to do a thing, or think a

Thought, except of what you wanted, such

Empires to build and destroy, and leave

In scattered bits for plastic containers 

You grudgingly stowed for eternity, for some

Future value in ruins.

                                        You’ve learned to stand tall 

With nothing, the bluffer’s stone, with your insistent 

Obstacles of charm deployed as the only way to learn 

The truth of a world where everything out of reach 

Has been withheld from you, personally.

                                                                         So the blessings 

Of this earth are imbued with your curse

Of seeing with jaundiced eyes, of knowing only

How people are moved, not why. You offload that too

With your capacious smile, knowing how

Everyone fills in the blank, the blank that you are

By sheer force of will. That ravenous leer

The only reveal of what’s underneath there,

What resentments bubble at being given too much

And shown too little.

                                      What have we done, to leave you so

Untouched? As you fold into the unknown world 

Of people in the relentless stream, moved along,

To leave me nothing more than they do

As your gift, when we know the physics,

Of how many ways to fall, and how hard.

The Dead Sea Scrolls at the Reagan Library

At last no flags at half
For the black smoke pope
In these New Jerusalem hills,
Just a President's seal, a crisp

Old Glory and the red flag 

Of the Marines briskly waving.
All presidents get a library
To go with their other boondoggles,
To bury compromising documents
In a memory hole of record
Forever cut off from the grid
Except from the chosen
Who’ve been given codes to see.
The Dead Sea Scrolls were like that too,
A secret, makeshift library
To bury what is sacred
At the lowest point on Earth
Of what only the pure can see,
Moving down from cave to cave
To save what was being destroyed
As the antediluvian trauma receded.

It was 47 miles away exactly,
The place of their viewing, the most
Common number sequence on earth
(So says Solomon). The sealed scrolls

Were discovered by the sound of thrown

Stones breaking an urn in 1947,
The same year where here, in Simi Valley,
American Jewish University was founded, 
Post-Shoah Palestine was partitioned
Along with de-Britained India and Pakistan,
The year of the Marshall Plan, when the Cold War 
Began, with the Playtex bra, Polaroid camera, 
VW Bug, Bikini, Tupperware, transistors, 
The breaking of the sound and color barriers,
The CIA and Roswell, Operation Highjump 
In Antarctica.

The energy stones
Above Reagan Freeway 
Carry galactic codes.
This place is ordained
As a high priest of wisdom.
A cross is on the top
Of one pyramid

Sunned white
Like the mere crack of light
Out of the Qumran caves
Of the secret long withheld.

They have to make it look
Like the Romans have succeeded.
Israeli Antiquities was effective
At rendering unto Caesar 
What is Caesar’s, for they know not 
What they do, all that happened 
To the total victims
As seen through 
The eyes of the conqueror.
It starts with the “Jesus boat” from Galilee 
Made of fine black, torqued mahogany.
The Romans used them to kill everyone 
On every shore they passed. The Roman 

Mystic blue lachrymatory shone

In the glass case with goats unbroken 

In ceramic. 

                       But the Madgala Stone, 

From the home, so they say, of Mary Magdelene,
Is “furniture” for a Torah scroll.
It has the Tree of Life in limestone, 
Snakes, dragons, Ezekiel's galactic

Chariot wheels still and in motion, 

A menorah, golden lampstand of

The Temple, in the city of priests 

Jerusalem, the scrolls themselves

Poems of its dark alleys and jigsaw

Cul-de-sacs, its purity of being perfectly 

Impure. The Zadokites brought purity 

As a ritual, which simply meant no truck
With the Romans. The ossuaries in their tombs,
Embossed with flagrant UFOs, were meant
To bury the pure from corrupt institutions,
Not to be gaslit anymore.
There were bone gathering instructions
From Rabbi Elazar ben Rabbi Zardok,
For the families to reconfigure
The bones in stone holding,
Protected from eternity’s
Invasive vibrations.

Menorahs and merkabah’s are everywhere
But nowhere what they meant.
All we know is some who entered
The Holy of Holies, where only the highest
Priest may go, were corrupted,
To weave the spell of the spy, throw law
To the mercy of duality, such purity,
The Zealots of the Yahad
At the ostraca at Masala
Made the ultimate choice
Of deathlife over slaveryfreedom.

It was just one explanatory plate
Among hundreds, one mention
Of Governor Flavius, the guy sent in
To subjugate the Jews again
Just like Egypt, the criminal mastermind
In the end of the religion of peace.
There was no word of this of course
All we get is smooth Josephus, Rome’s PR Jew,
Tell us the script they are sticking to, 
The one where the only good scroll
Was a dead one, that’s how it goes
When you try to transmit down
Ancient knowledge through Hebrew 

DNA. Who would have thought

It could be buried in the brine
Of a supposedly arid wasteland, where
This Modayot entrepot pottery
Of deuteronomy was found,
Among the Essenes, who “esteemed chastity"

And worked out some side deal 

With the Romans?

The line is a labyrinthine spiral
Around a central circle
Where the fragments shine from their tombs.
“This one has a coffee stain,” a young cynic
Helpfully noted, as we went 2 by 2
Like Noah’s Ark, divine couples all,
Musing together, to the goathorn call.
We enter from the left, go right
In the ring, just like we were reading Hebrew,
Only to find that our wait, seemingly,
Was to give the Yahad time to write
For it was written on the go, like Genesis 6-9
Rendered from memory, to preserve the truth
Of the flood with Chinese brush precision 

And parchment pure as they tried to be. 

Other scolls looked stolen 

From the Alexandria Library,
Lost codes so skillfully scrambled
And meanings so surgically removed
By the secret teams of archivists
The Romans would be proud
If they weren’t so petrified!
The names are wrong, dates changed,
Explanations nonsense, for scraps
Indecipherable, arranged to seem 
Unimportant, just  “The creative way 

Of Jewish scholars” and "the unique

Interpretations of the Yahad” 

For the Bible (which hadn’t been

Written yet) in the few that passed 

Filters to mean something

On the topographic scan of goat skin,
"Technologies designed by NASA.”

The modern peshers grasp at straws
As usual. The powder on the
Trauma’s still dry. But the crowd,
Who’d waited in every language
In long lines to behold it, knew,
Every one of them, had something
In mind. There is a precursor after all
To the books of law handed down by God
Via Messenger, just in time, before everyone

Had given up hope.

There still is the Shekinah,
Where the challenge came down,
Do you really believe? “Thank you,”
Some one said, as if to all of us
Who were there, “for your service.”
Something good had come somehow
For sacrifice. A boy smiles at me,

Two fingers pointing as if to say

"You are a man now."

The truth remained in caves

Where knowledge was made sacred.
The holy codes are in the stone 

Anyway, in the temple steps here
Preserved, how they radiate 
With countless enlightened feet
Who were grateful to walk its marble,
Every movement a note of reverence. 

The stone does not see us
In the same way, not in time,
With the urgency of lives lost to hope, 
But how we are the same as all the others, 

Like that live feed of the wailing wall,

All Jewish dressed as one, 
How we come here as free beings,
How all the crying can be drunk in easily.
The impure, in other words, teaches purity.

We no longer have to live in that way,

With every thought as dangerous
In these halls of New Jerusalem.
The Evangelicals grimaced at my whispers
While the Chosen merely chuckled.
Leave the not being able to speak behind
With these olive trees of peace
In this lover's paradise of Ron and Nancy
Where the outside world can’t touch posterity
Its happiness. Nancy’s white flowers
Are a triumph of purity
Among Abrams Tanks and Masonic Stealth
Cloaking Missilery,
A white lake in the distance,
Too many pyramids to count.

The Yahad merely stayed close
To the light, the galactic Barkhi Nafshi,
Invoked to bring from the heart
Its poems, all of male and female,
The sides of God, who must be released
To service, in each other, in love as the power
Of the universe. 

Cassandra's Rainbow

"Don't dogear Dante Gabriel Rossetti"

Says the antiquarian in you

Dating light language residue

And the twin flame muses

Mysterious reappearance

In Victorian Fitzrovia,

"Regression through the mirrors of time."

We'll take the Subie on Sunday

As the healing room needs to heal

From the illusions of rainbows --

If they aren't, what is real?

If they aren't, maybe someone

Can tell us of what they consist

Besides water and air

Which we are too

But don't like to gloat about it.

It's a sticky wicket predicament,

Knowing how many skins

To leaf through

To get to the first illusion,

From whence all others sprung.

It's silver then gold, black

And then yellow, then rain

And a rainbow, but the hill

Itself gets its strength

From an El Toro of belief,

Nevermind the clouds,

What we want to deny

Are kissing crows and dragon wings.

And what of the black balloon

That American Beauty'ed all over the street,

What can we take it to mean

When it eludes even our touch?

The shadow is the tree this time,

What by seeing it can become,

Something to take up space in the aether

And mirror in darkness

A void beyond the buzz of Elmer the Crow

That brings the loveliest thoughts

From the cold storages

To the blue flame of life

Burning all artifice away,

What is not real,

All we see.

Daytrippin' with Balls

The wizard upstairs gives me just what I want

To be wiser, more gun shy,

With one missing fairy.

It's Genocide Remembrance Day,

The day I read about Plutonium Jazz,

When the bass danced with isotopes

Until the geiger-charged crowd 

Caught uranium, like junk, sickness

So it was prohibited, like a Jew, 

Like Jazz in actual fact

In 60 cities in the 20's and 30's

Still the Sun Ra came through

With Nubians of Plutonia in the 50s

After he'd spent his childhood hiding

In an Arkansas Freemason library

And the results are still there

For all with eyes to see.

It's only a day.

I saw an Infinity Bank for the first time

On the same highway I drive daily,

The day the purple eyes of Google first displayed

The rise of the half moon

And a Colossal Squid was finally captured

On film.

It was a day full of intrigue,

When this year's fit girl winked

In front of the Jaguar

The shaman had finally become

As he reinforced the six-month moratorium

With strongly worded coffee:

"If you give me everything, you're giving me

Nothing. Which one, seriously, would you tap

When you've had three bites of the apple

And your salvage is still scrap?"

So I went the hard yards with Mizuho

But he saw on one of my Stanleys

That I was a Hoosier too

But Modelo, by the end of the work day,

Stood with Mexico like a good friend

Who knows how to look the other way.

But I can't unsee

How Pot Hueneme's no longer a destination,

How North Sea Copenhagen tops the Big Mac Index,

How inflection points create shifts create

Moments,

Like the College Cardinal now coincidently on TV

Vaping angrily.

Finally the white wolf meets me at the train

To hit the antique fair under the freeway

With the rastafari razorwires who have ears

On the sitch. Whenever mirrors are replaced 

With plywood, it's a bad sign. 

I come home to find

Even the cursory scan has been streamlined

To remove more friction

Between reader and word

But I'm so blissed off I can't even chase

The blue jellyfish feather.

Down the Brown Street Signs of Irvine

As the laws of time and space loosen

The red coil of afterburn sun

Hides over Bake Technology Park

Behind clouds that are too dreamy to be real

Green pyramids emerge

In front of the Moon Valley Nursery

When there's a color

That will not be repeated.

Brio at the Intersection of Flow

UHaul is yakkriding

Not like in Mongolia

Where there's less yellow mustard

To absorb all thought

And the mountain portals

Don't hide behind telephone poles.

They just hop on the horses

And make friends without saddles,

A descent into the underworld

Where spirit rules.

King Maximus cares nothing for that,

He's too old to keep that hatch down.

The bug people look on confused.

The deep mind doesn't know what to say.

Could it be that every mountain

Is an old technology,

Carved to make way for equal space

In Agartha?

Brio falls into the angel dust

Of the arena, so happy

To rely on gravity,

One would almost say he smiled

At what we knew.

The grass so needy to be ripped by the lip

It calls the horse to gorge

The most deranged clover.

A bunny, showing no fear

Of his cuteness

After Easter

Muses in the grass,

Goes ears twitching into the foxtails,

Joins the mother mountain

In her invisible apron strings

At the ridgeline of civilization.

The horsegirls fuss 

At scabs and such

But the horses just rub dirt in it;

What doesn't kill you 

Toughens you up,

Like selenium in the salt lick

Cos it's not in local California dirt.

The only grass he eats is nature.

A Question Over Falafel

What's it going to take for me

To have sovereignty?

Does every king have to die?

Every need have to bleed? 

The heaven that is our steady state

Only shows when you enter the room --

If you see the velvet rope

Don't expect it to unsnap

For it is only there to keep you

From what you are, so you may,

If not know it, at least sense

Its presence in grief.

The thought of trumpets chewing

On the scenery is better anyway

Than the rote, note-by-note repetition 

Of how you got to where you began.

The play of time unwinds again,

So it can zip back up.

That bruised lip, saying nothing,

Says enough.

Evidence on Grand

Roz gave us the Lakers, Dodgers and the Arts
And now this fountain overlook
Where LA's Mingus, on piano, on his birthday, plays
From the loudspeakers for the indigenous,
Which only the cool can someday hope to become;
Those the one-eyed cougars fistbump
Must first be jackal gods.
 
The professor has his bench, wears tweed in spring,
Hears the Tongva Kich songs of multi-generational trauma
But they are all songs, he says, first.
A crow stands on the branch of the 1966 eucalyptus,
Signals it’s safe, which means that it’s real,
Authentic enough to commune at least
As feast.
 
Victory Bus Lines takes a robot lunch delivery
As “AI-driven art” displays itself below the luxury suites
At the Conrad, the Gehry, the Basquiat
While a crosswalk away, a sister sits with an empty
Saucepan on the courthouse stone
Between Elvia Hot Dog and Nayeli’s Fresh Fruit,
Which might as well be barren as the Nile Melaleuca.
 
By Rabbit Coffee, with its Viral Dubai, “Stash it don’t flash it,”
A sign advises. Another: “A clash of dictators and poets” –
I hear them practicing now – hard to get an ear in edgewise
Tuning is so individual – “No access to upper pools.”
Another crow, another fountain, but this time, a soggy roll.
Louie from Storyville sings under the half-staff poles.
The fountain’s sound is triangular.

The Joys of the Boonies

Condo monasteries in Rancho Cucamonga

          All of them white

My what the day brings --

         PTSD in the morning

 At the thought of being WPP'ed as a local 

         Authority, and forced at lens point

 To snap the Beach City vs. Library dustup

         Librarians clinging like Leprechauns

To rainbows while gritty beach city mothers

         Nail petitions of fetid notice

On the boardwalks and wide California streets

        Of their fine, unconsulted city --

If Nathanael only saw the kid on the bike 

       Under the red white and blue vote YES sign

He'd send protesters down himself in hopes I'd

       Catch another rainbow over the parade route

But I know how this spun cotton candy ends

       In separation between the have-nots and nots

Both all bent up in knots ... libraries relevant?

       Androgyny codified? For schoolkids who,

As Bob Guccione said to Jerry Falwell, don't 

       Get exposed to enough pornography anyway.

But the flag will wave on without me, I'm done

      With fun with food, festivals and fairs

And who knew that Norco was on the same road

      Running its horses through every storyline,

Including this one, where I drive past Claremont,

      Where California cool was created as a creed,

And the strange new Tesla factory near Mt Baldy

      To an Aldi's at the top of the hill, to be back

In the saddle and to at last know what that means,

      A Crates endurance saddle, to endure California

Its refusal to choose, for us, which adventure to fall into,

     With a basketweave tuling from the same family

Like a brand, like the words that came out of her mouth,

     How she would have no use for it since she rode 

Wild mustangs, trained inmates to imprison them

     In fact as I captured a Saddleback ago in the funny pages.

She was happy for Aunt Betty in Phelan, how pleased 

    She'd be, to be relieved of one saddle from a sad plenty

To a good home, she'd hadn't been good or herself lately

    Or pleased as my Aunt Betty in Phelan would be

To see me. 

The freeway fell down in the cinder skies, as it rode

     Through the evening purples, Beach Cities,

Such hope, gave the sign, that I can sit still finally, 

     In a craftsman bungalow with a blue 69 microbus

Digging in tie-dye the gnarlies as heaven releases its grip. 

     The roads are holy here. The portals we can go through

Are just better than the ones we can't.

     Strangers meet in Rancho Cucamonga and call it a life,

Why can't I? The sky has cleared, to perpetual Venus

     And the ladle that holds the cosmic soup. 

It's a Special Edition can of Campbell's Truth, one Andy 

     Warhol hadn't, yet, approved.