Wednesday, July 21, 2021

Notes from a Phone Call

I.
Is it official? Can we grieve?
Or do we wait for the doctors
To connect enough markers
To give the news they like least?

II. 
The first thought is of others, always,
When one becomes oneself, alone only.

III.
She chose the things to test
Like a scholar collects antitheses,
But no one wants to give her the diagnosis –
The gun is passed after each discharge,
The bullet she placed there waiting still.

IV.
The depth charges come from the invisible distance
-- You can hear them
Before falling
Through the skies.

V.
When there’s so little time
There is finally time for things inconceivable.
So much comes in now to be swallowed.
Do I let the somnolent river
Have its way with me?

VI.
It’s a brand-new world
At the end of the day;
We stand nervously between,
Hoping for a hand
From any side.

VII.
More tests! More tests!
There are antidotes to the terror,
Calm voices behind numbers,
But the eyes cut through the cool room
Like a flame.

VIII.
A future of wheelchair lifts and straws
Fills itself in 
Like the outlines of a fevered dream
Automatically, 
As if drawing a new reality.
Or are these scenes as empty and unresponsive
As the deals one can’t help but make?

IX.
It drifts uneasily to normalcy.
Distractions are like spies
Tracking our time.
What else should we do 
But waste it?

X.
Life must go on, so we weed,
Harvest pumpkins, squash, potatoes,
Tomatoes, lettuce, berries,
Cucumber, grapes, swiss chard …
Only to be faced with the stare of dry beds.
Oh to be able to plant … something.

XI.
Brazil nuts, ashwagandha, pine needle tea …
Such details temporarily forestall
The enormity of being.

XII.
The pills that were for this
Must be replaced by those for that
Though no one really knows
If it’s this or that
That is really wrong, 
But it’s up to us to believe that there's a cure.
Our hope stains every cup.

XIII.
A good night! A good night!
Everything will change
For as long as the will allows,
At the thought of progress,
Some permission to hope.

XIV.
Exercises – hope – new postures – hope –
The only thing that seems to really exist
In this world.

XV.
A new sound late at night –
A note of labor
In the endless, easy flow.

XVI.
Hope: the tiniest sliver of moon.

XVII.
I’ve spent my life
Chasing the impermanent
As if my life depended on it.
Now I wait
For everything perishable
To fade.

Tuesday, July 20, 2021

Silence

The window has the sun. The sound of no one.
Crows gather in a raucous tree. What is between
This silence and the way I feel?
An opening of vacancy – too full.      

A river passes through inaudibly.
The heart's too large for knowledge anyway.
The sounds we hear are the quieting
Of our anguish, never what’s far away

Inside us, inescapably. The blue codes
That do not echo shadow the black-leafed night.
The scales descend like high water flows down
So many intricate prisms, each one

One of our own, to sing from, as if we
Live there, and can become every other,
Whatever the key signature calls for,
A modulation away from the place

It must end as it had begun. A clear ploy:
Collapsing radiance born as dissolved
Away, heard for the first when dying,
When spirit reaches the toes that touch the sky.

Monday, July 19, 2021

Home by the Sea

From the Italian of Eugenio Montale

So this is journey’s end:
A soul silenced,
Fractured by petty cares.
Now the minutes exist,
Like inertia feeds a pump.
One turn: water rushes.
Another: it groans.

The journey ends on this shore
And its slow, assiduous flow.
Nothing unveils the listless smoke
The ocean concocts to console
With its breaths: so rare
For spines of islands to appear
Through migratory air,
Corsica or Capraia.

You ask if this is how everything vanishes,
In a fog of precarious recall;
As the waves accomplish every doom
In the weary break or in the sigh.
I would like to tell you no, that what approaches
Will pass straight through our time;
Perhaps the infinite is only those who want,
And you will too, who knows, not me.
I think that for most it is not salvation,
Some will still wreck every sketch
And overshoot the void of themselves again,
What they wanted to find.
My gift would be, before I give up,
To draw you a pattern of escape
Fleeting as these riotous fields
Of ruffles or pleats.
I’d give you even my threadbare hope
I’m too sick, these new days, to cultivate:
I’d pawn it to your fate, that you’ll be safe.

The journey ends at this extremity
Eaten away by the motions of tide. 

Your shared heart that does not hear me

Sails perhaps already for eternity.

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Casa sul mare

ll viaggio finisce qui:
nelle cure meschine che dividono
l'anima che non sa più dare un grido.
Ora i minuti sono eguali e fissi
come i giri di ruota della pompa.
Un giro: un salir d'acqua che rimbomba.
Un altro, altr'acqua, a tratti un cigolio.

Il viaggio finisce a questa spiaggia
che tentano gli assidui e lenti flussi.
Nulla disvela se non pigri fumi
la marina che tramano di conche
i soffi leni: ed è raro che appaia
nella bonaccia muta
tra l'isole dell'aria migrabonde
la Corsica dorsuta o la Capraia.

Tu chiedi se così tutto vanisce
in questa poca nebbia di memorie;
se nell'ora che torpe o nel sospiro
del frangente si compie ogni destino.
Vorrei dirti che no, che ti s'appressa
l'ora che passerai di là dal tempo;
forse solo chi vuole s'infinita,
e questo tu potrai, chissà, non io.
Penso che per i più non sia salvezza,
ma taluno sovverta ogni disegno,
passi il varco, qual volle si ritrovi.
Vorrei prima di cedere segnarti
codesta via di fuga
labile come nei sommossi campi
del mare spuma o ruga.
Ti dono anche l'avara mia speranza.
A' nuovi giorni, stanco, non so crescerla:
l'offro in pegno al tuo fato, che ti scampi.

Il cammino finisce a queste prode
che rode la marea col moto alterno.
Il tuo cuore vicino che non m'ode
salpa già forse per l'eterno.

Thursday, July 8, 2021

The Pitfalls of Nostalgia

The mansion by the sea, heavy as sleep,
Emerged beyond the woods, always empty,
Windows facing the sea, a mystery

That deepened as the noises of your terror,
Dim rumors, of blood and ownership,
Whispered you were not allowed to stay

Though it was only you at the dry pool,
The bare cabana on the edges of the shore,
The furnished and deserted carriage house ...

It wasn't a dream, but a place of your own,
Isolé, those bodiless days, when the dogs
Had freed you from the need for it to mean.

You gazed without belief through wisteria 
As though it had nothing to hide, no guile
To cruelly deny what you made of it.

The bees were free from the hives up the street.
The sun turned the chandeliers to gold.
What is it, now, that you were so afraid of?

Wednesday, July 7, 2021

Notes of Tang

Vying in the sky
Voices won't relent
Trying me to buy
The night is silent

Zhang Zi - At the Maple Bridge

Crows cry at moonfall
     Frost covers the sky
By Hanshan Temple
     Near Gusu City
A fisherman's fire
     In the night's black eye
Lights a passenger
     Whose dreams are ugly

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月落烏啼霜滿天
江楓漁火對愁眠
姑蘇城外寒山寺
夜半鐘聲到客船

Monday, July 5, 2021

The Brutal Baja

The mesquite fields wait to explode.
How could I let them go
As rough and unyielding as they seem?
How can I be separate from them,
The toughened gigantes fingers,
The unrelenting stone
As the vying crowns of thorn
Rasp for the smallest moisture
And stab for the most inhospitable crag?

The haze comes down 
And makes the hills seem endless
Instead of opaque.
"No El Paso" it says
As the seeds wave away
And the white hombres walk in the dust.
How can I say 
I'm already there?
How hard it is, the leaving?

Saturday, July 3, 2021

La temporada del cangrejo

The crab walks in and out of the rock,
In and out of the spray,
In and out of my eye,
Yet one can't say it changes
With each one of these phases:
It holds the crags of red and brown
And the moving domes of foam
And it waits to be detected
In a tidescape without form.

They say there is a world outside
But I can never see it --
Its shadows are a minor tone,
Shapes hidden between slots.
The crab, though, grows,
As large and undeniable 
As stars.

Friday, July 2, 2021

Observation

The song hits the window like a harsh wind.
I feel the agave spines stiffen. The woman with the twin
Scorpions on her skin acts like she's my friend.

So it is I can't be escaped from.
Everything finds its home 
As the universe reveals itself inside me.

It doesn't end, how things I'd never seen 
Are achingly familiar --
This peacock's eyes are blue.

Thursday, July 1, 2021

Seaside Anecdote

The mind will generalize 
By size, color, curl of hair
Until everyone is of the same mind
On one long strip of sand 
Facing endlessness,

Then someone trips
On the moving planet
And falls to crashing surf,
How she decides, in that moment,
To stay there, roll around
Like a mermaid with the crabs
Perhaps forever.

The people then, 
Surrounded by her
Supernatural smile,
Turn to automatic
Drinkers from cups,
Talkers by rote,
Onlookers in traffic

And there is only the woman,
Pulled kicking and screaming 
From the sea to her room
By her concerned family
To remind us
Of humanity,
How it exists,
Really.

Wednesday, June 30, 2021

Luna

O lover who knows only how to take,
Her lips are cold, her pallor unholy.
Longing turns to dolor -- still I look on her
For love, lie before her as in a tomb
Hoping there is something else to give
That she desires. 

                                  O to rescue her
From the cold hole in the sky where she presides,
Seeing everything here with jaundiced eye
As she contrives my pity. But the flowers
Down below are not of interest to her;
She craves what loves and creates them

                                                            For her place
Of dust and nothingness, pocked with endless war.
Her scars became a face, rigamortis smile.
My anger, fears are nothing for her
To receive, with what ardor they carry
Hidden behind a benign stare.

                                                             For she knows
I want to die in her, to have my last
Distinct and separate trace peeled away.
Nothing is said, so nothing is a lie,
And every loss occurs so easily,
Each grief seems a relief, a way to feel.

Tuesday, June 29, 2021

The Difficult Ones

The wind came in today 
And some went crazy
To be sane: dancing 
With the African crane
As a towel torreador,
Moving the refrigerator 
Back and forth because
There's no one way to be,
Walking away from the people
Who would have them
To knock on stranger's doors
Screaming to be let in,
Offering malevolent glares 
From plastic chairs,
Medicated stares as grievances
Never expressed or guessed before
Were dealt like continuous cards.

It is time for mothers to cry
And take calls upstairs.
The blue roof lights flare on and off
As if to fill the domes with messages 
For the nearest stars:
They are recovering nicely,
In the chaos they've created,
Some permanent truth,
Even if it is only a lie.

Monday, June 28, 2021

Resistance

Only sleeping souls could behave so;
The dead would not forget
That there were others
Who witnessed these private wars.

You care, you are a philosopher,
You get to the bottom of the martini glass
And talk about the food as if you own it,
And I can be nothing but a gleeful voyeur
As you send back your bloody steak again
To get it right.

Some beggars get your dollars, others only glares.
You hug the person next to you
And complain that you are cold.
The lights of the marina are a moving picture show
And you stumble into the walls
As if you don't have a role.

The streets are filled with people talking to themselves
Like that, innocent of how they got that way.
They find new selves in every colored light
And fight not God or nature 
As they think themselves welcome
In each revolving door.

This is what I haven't renounced.
This is what I needed to know.
But now, but now, I watch it limp away
And with it goes the city, turned to black.

Sunday, June 27, 2021

Homebrew Mix at the Playa

At the crustal crystal 
With seaweed and barnacle
The ocean has come
From underneath
Where we can't see
But it holds us anyway
At the moment of the shore.

Babies dance the two-step in the foam
To a celestial orchestrator,
Children slide in tremolo 
Undertow, and the rolling 
Corazon rrrr's of those older 
Form chords with the swells 
As they tumble.

Out a ways
The manta rays
Leap to a beat not our own 
But part of the pull
We go to in our diminuendo 
Of the endless emptiness 
Past the sift of sand.

The surf stumbles to a close
In evanescing veils
Redolent of the painful joys
Lost in every moment
And recovered so dangerously
In the dive of staying alive
Amid the flashing teeth of wave.

It feels us in its sway
As we walk away waterlogged
And sunk into incongruous
Unimaginable soil.
The only voice
Worth listening to
Is the one we cannot hear.

Saturday, June 26, 2021

The Materiality of Knowledge

The endless pool palace,
Place for tourists to rest,
Which means, for most,
The zen deprivation,
Sensory overload:
Everything sound, sight, smell 
And taste can loudly bestow
Vie below, as thoughts
Of gold.

But rejected knowledge 
Rises to the palms 
Above, turns
Meringue chaos
To a flowing dance
And bows to the hordes,
For the holiness
That's not yet 
Escaped.

Friday, June 25, 2021

Moon Over the Sea of Cortez

We know what to do with an orange moon
Rising like a crystal ball 
Above a nest of cloud ...

But then it vanishes upward.
Palms shiver with a life 
That overtakes the forms of night.

In the atrium the 20 fans
Continue circling as before.
There's no one on the floor.

Thursday, June 24, 2021

Old Songs in Late Afternoon

The song is too familiar by now:
Hero denied, on a logical course, turns
To hero victorious, if only in pain
That we donate towards.

The progression is only of chords,
Transcendence is only in words that rhyme.
We think it’s the heartbeat that drives our lives,
The scars of love our medal to shine.

One day it will have nothing to do with your life,
As much as you’ve waited in its void
For your number to turn up.
You’re glad to have wasted your time

In another’s dream. It seemed freeing
‘Til you knew the song too well
To think it applied to you, as some homage
To your daily loss, as if that’s what it was. 

It's always whatever you need it to be,
As long as you don’t know what it is,
The tricks it consists of,
The souls given over to its charge.

The chaos of the mad as they escape the clubs
Seems like order to us now, like sanity.
There is no other world, we say,
Than the one of beauty and heartbreak,

And we line up to play our roles
As off-key singers, busy drummers, 
Guitarists without callouses or thumbs.
And even when it loses, at last, its meaning

There is still another alternative take 
Somewhere waiting, that may free you 
From the aimlessness within. There must be a song 
Beyond all last chances, to lose yourself in again.

Wednesday, June 23, 2021

Abgrund

When one is ready, the universe appears --
And the past becomes extraneous,
A different place
Whose echoes merely throb.

The light above your street
Seems like something known
But what you follow is the dark,
A new unknowing,

Where what you are turns actual
As the world blurs to chimera --
The voice you hear says only 
How you don't exist

But you are past the point
Of adding in a self,
For there is nothing but the way 
You are moving,

Not knowing this,
Not sensing that,
And what you're left with
Mostly hole.

It's the closest you need go,
For you see how it is there,
No matter how infinitesimal 
It becomes,

The great unknowable,
The source, the origin,
That thing you're always looking for
Called you.

Tuesday, June 22, 2021

Credit / No Credit

The last month was not what I had planned.
They made it pass or fail after the fact.
They saw I showed up, knew I tried,
But the learnings were too hard to earn a grade.

I have only gained the dimmest grasp
Of why I behave as I do
And how others take me in --
Though I felt, at last, some boulders move,

My lips found some warmth
Where something else had been,
Things bottled up that didn't know how to say
But came out, because they needed to anyway

In the cramped space between what others say --
Who saw it as reply, this long-denied jeremiad,
And smoothed the friction away
With anxious and thought-free fingers.

Still they wait for me to say
What it seems I need to say,
What I may discover somewhere along the way,
In some coin out in the open, some me I can't deny.

Monday, June 21, 2021

Cold Solstice

I have talked all day
But what I know means nothing,
Not like the turquoise field in the sky
Below where the sun has dropped.

There’s a final note
For a summer more hope now than fact,
A cool pink floats
Like the cackling lilt

Of voices that need to be listened to,
And that are, conveniently, heard
In another layer of cloud,
A deeper blue,

Yet their murmur turns into a scream,
A frisson of powerlessness
Runs overwhelmingly
Through the crowd.

The horizon bends
To the water’s late blues.
There seems nothing one can do
To stay whole in the blur of sky.

The sun is gone,
No sign of what’s to come,
No reason to believe
Or think we know.

If you light a fire,
Will summer arrive?
If you raise your voice,
Will the world move?

Something asks, or seems to,
“Can you trust me
Just this once?”
The air’s alive with lighting fluid.

Sunday, June 20, 2021

The Smell of Dust and the Gyros Wheel

Death, death I remember,
Myself as unconscious and young 
In a souvlaki dive
Debating philosophies
Tried on for size
Because we didn't need 
For them to mean 

Anything but what we felt 
At that moment
Where we glowed
In ephemeral candescence --
With the songs, the lines, 
The gestalt of the time,
Which we knew.

If I had a regret
It would be in not saying, then,
When there was still a chance, 
That I would remember this,
And even the meal, 
Which we laughed at,
As maybe the best I would ever have.

It would have filled the instant
With fellowship 
And its twin, ridicule,
But such gestures 
Are quickly forgotten,
And this one would blend into
Impressions from long ago:

The energy my friends had, 
Vague and vivid,
The way distant time 
And just yesterday converge.
If I had taken one step away
Into awareness
It could have changed everything,

Like saying that thing 
Before someone died
Or knowing the last time 
You'd gaze on a sight.
Life from then on
Would be observed 
Not merely lived and died.

Saturday, June 19, 2021

The End of the Ink

Books are ghosts, that possess with their self-possession,
Though the corpse is put away for later haunting,
As if they could last forever, what never started 
And never seemed to end, unlike the hot forged thoughts
That pass with aperitifs between us, from somewhere 
Not so threatening as what will stay, ideas
That will come to define us, instead of racing
Away, like an octupus who loves every form
Until there's one that it cannot escape, too tight
The prison of the closest thing, you want to touch.

Thursday, June 17, 2021

After the Exchange of Worms

Coyotes ate the neighbors cat.
Nothing left but a lucky paw.
We helped them make a photo book
And dug 54 potatoes at dusk,
Red and smooth and fat, with our fingers
From a planter box where crabgrass was
Last year.

The ways of life and death are mysterious
But that's hardly an excuse 
To close the door on immortality,
Because something might get loose.

Wednesday, June 16, 2021

John Keats is NOT an Idiot: A Screed

Even in the long and illustrious history of the harsh treatment of wild and magical poets in the august institutions of higher learning, the purple shiner around John Keats’s eye stands out. 

Part of this, of course, is the obsession the modern academy seems to have about not valuing poetry as poetry, that is, as something emotionally moving that gives harmonious pleasure. The “joy” is only in the intellectual discovery of its meaning. To “adore” a poem, today’s thinking goes, is to be an inarticulate philistine. 

This becomes a problem for Keats in particular because of his sublime, perhaps unparalleled, mastery of the art of English-language poetry. It’s assumed, at best, that his composition of sounds, harmonies, rhymes, assonances and consonances, alliterations and rhythms is spot on, and thus not worthy of anything but lip service. Thus, his poetry as poetry is largely ignored, and the all-important way he says things is conveniently excluded from the “serious discussion” of his work in the millions of pages of “secondary literature” that have sprouted up like mushrooms around the rich soil of his name.

This would not be so bad – one can only expect so much blood out of an intellectual turnip – if the interpretations of what he means didn’t always paint him as a country simpleton without an actual thought in his head. 

At the moment I’m thinking of a paper I recently read by one late professor Earl Wasserman that offered, with panache and verbal precision, a compelling argument that the major British Romantic poets all react to 18th century philosophical quandaries about the transactions between the mind and the sensuous world. The only problem was that what he said about Keats – that he was obsessed with losing his self and his identity through empathy into objects of sensory experience – is about 180 degrees from what Keats actually does. 

If readers of Keats have learned nothing else, they should realize that he is a master of showing how his raw and ragged humanity just doesn’t fit in the plans of others, no matter how much he loves or admires them. The discomfort of love, for want of a better term, is at the poignant heart of his poetic genius, a fact one would think would not be lost on A KEATS SCHOLAR! 

If you think Mr. Wasserman is an outlier, sadly you would be mistaken. Keeping the Keatsian threat within the barbed wire of the farm runs across institutions, eras, academic disciplines. That is easily verified for anyone who cares to look. What is harder to account for is why this apparent conspiracy exists to turn him into an oversensitive moron who did not appreciate the gift he gave to the world IN THE NAME OF RATIFYING HIS GREATNESS.

A Keats poem at random will make the point. My magic 8-ball chose “Bright Star,” which is short, “major,” and a good illustration of how at odds Keats’s poetic vision is from the conventional academic caricature. Here is the poem in full:

Bright star, would I were steadfast as thou art—

         Not in lone splendour hung aloft the night

And watching, with eternal lids apart,

         Like nature's patient, sleepless Eremite,

The moving waters at their priestlike task

         Of pure ablution round earth's human shores,

Or gazing on the new soft-fallen mask

         Of snow upon the mountains and the moors—

No — yet still steadfast, still unchangeable,

         Pillowed upon my fair love's ripening breast,

To feel for ever its soft fall and swell,

         Awake for ever in a sweet unrest,

Still, still to hear her tender-taken breath,

And so live ever — or else swoon to death.

The conventional readings of this poem assume that the first eight lines literally have nothing to do with the last six lines. That is, the poet had no actual plan, he just grafted two delicate and sensitive poetic moments awkwardly onto each other, the still aloofness of unchanging nature and the sweet feeling of wanting to be forever in one’s lover’s arms. Critical interpretations dress this up in all sorts of morbid speculations based on the supposition that this, the last known complete poem of Keats, is some kind of tragic statement on his imminent death (without any actual evidence, I might add).

Somehow, in all the extrapolation, the professional readers miss an obvious and rather pedestrian metaphor that the star in line 1 is the girl in line 10 – an analogy too sophisticated apparently for our country bumpkin. It’s certainly less trite and far more intriguing to attribute the qualities described to a woman than just to a star. She has “lone splendour … watching, with eternal lids apart … patient,” who like a monastic (“Eremite”) priest oversees the snow and blesses the ocean waters. From the vantage point of the speaker, she is removed, uncommunicative, cold yet loyal and strangely all-powerful. That the woman and the star are one and the same is pretty clearly conveyed on line 9: “yet still steadfast, still unchangeable, / Pillowed upon my fair love's ripening breast, / To feel for ever its soft fall and swell.” 

The speaker is a man hypnotized and dominated by this force of nature, equally loyal to her, but he gets nothing from her in terms of the melding of souls such commitment suggests. He wants more than an eternal “fall and swell,” but he is consigned to live forever this way, in the “sweet unrest” and overwrought emotions of love, when she might as well be a heavenly body, for all he knows and feels.

It’s really brilliant and heart-breaking if you open up to think about it. Most readers – non-professional poetry readers – would readily understand and embrace such an interpretation – if it were not for a pernicious system that makes authoritative hash out of the admitted difficulty of interpreting poetry. You don’t even have to step into Keats’ life story and confer special poignancy since this poetic moment occurs so near his early death (much less take it the next logical step and contemplate how death was for Keats a small price to evade being defined as a poet).

“Bright Star” is just one demonstration of the special cognitive dissonance that is the hallmark of Keats’s poetic genius, in poem after poem, from the unfathomable difficulties Endymion encounters in love to the way the art of the Grecian Urn – both dead and alive in effect -- leads the present admirers to their slaughter. The richness of Keats is in these moments, when one has to, with the characters, suck it up and embrace a beauty that cannot be embraced. 

I know, I know, it’s called “negative capacity;” everyone pulls that term out of a Keats letter to define his rarefied spirit. Why, then, is no one seemingly willing to navigate how that quality is expressed, over and over again, in his poems? 

I won’t hold my breath waiting for an answer.

Tuesday, June 15, 2021

Some Implications from the Romantics

Today, in a place of stasis,
    it is timeless, this sense,
Above the slant
           of the morning eye.

No forms will be surrendered
    to prove one's obedience
To one or the other nothingness 
                     of human urge.

Your knowledge does not need
    to be revered, or even acknowledged,
For it is of the captured realm
            with its nets endlessly extended.

It is not to know that makes us wise,
    for the thing that can't be caught
Stays behind, to bathe us in the light
                       of our own ignorance.

The further and further
     the stars withdraw,
The more the coyote
                                      cries.

Monday, June 14, 2021

The Charity Case

In a rational world, the ogre would be taking orders,
Forced to conform to loving thoughts
Towards the one who hates his guts.

What he needs can’t be explained, only received 
Or found to be wanting, in blood-curdling screams,
The telltale augury he feels abandoned.

You say that he is only spoiled,
Unable to crack his own egg,
Unaccustomed to being left in the dark for weeks on end —

As you're sure all of us one day were,
You who couldn't put another in your place fast enough,
Like an anonymous prisoner to take your blindfold and bullet.

He makes no apologies how everything falls to him,
No, not like a king, for that involves responsibilities,
Consequences, of which there must be none —

If you can't work that jam out, how are you smart enough
To keep up with the greatness he'll tell you all about
As soon as you lace up his shoes?

O such pathos! My heart melts away!
What can I do? How can I help? 
How could one end up this way?

Sunday, June 13, 2021

Still Life with Trowel

O if I was alone,
     With no one tending me,
     Attaching my branches to sticks,
     Keeping the flies away ...

O but I'm not alone,
     No one tends me,
     My hands flap wildly,
     My face is bitten and bloody ...

I'm told what seeds to plant
     And when the harvest must be done,
     I pick the fattest berries for those
     Who would be lost without my hand ...

I spend my days toiling
     So others can write poems,
     Yet, somehow, the words are all mine,
     About how beautiful it is to be alone.

Saturday, June 12, 2021

Some Snow from a Neighbor's Antenna

Casey Stengel chewed through the Popol Vuh like Red Man tobacco, as if its Rosetta Stone would unlock the mysteries of the Mets batting order, but the problem was insoluble, even for Methusalah, even with the glove of Ed Kranepool, yet we all looked for solutions in those days, so we could continue in our ways of whine and poses: That we had to pretend every heart was not estranged and that what was called beautiful was more than pain, that resentment was only hunger, mass unconsciousness comfort and almost identical the same as individual, that annihilation did not hang like grapes over the most well-lit streets. It was all somehow the fault of the Greeks, who hurled the first thunderbolt of mind to level cities clean, creating centuries of pain and central plumbing and a whole lot of forgetting of everything that wasn't hell and especially of our complicity in our own slavery, as we dreamed, like horses, we were free and that we only chose compassion for our captors in the belief we would become them, having forsaken the carrot of knowledge for the stick of De Sade the Teacher, having made peace with the insidious beast of carnal desire for commodities, having settled for the drums that were taken from the chattel and strangely given to the outsiders whose gimcrack smack and fellaheen benzedrine made some want to crawl through the minor 9ths of derangement's fun house mirror cracks, but it was as treacherous as ever on the outskirts of the sublime what with talk and liquor never near cheap enough and Buckley hoovering up any holiness like the arch gay Jesus wannabe he was paid by the CIA to be, quoting from the scriptures of golden freemasonry, never disclosing that Tiki martinis and the Playboy Philosophy would be the keys to a new and distant day.

Friday, June 11, 2021

Poem Not About a Cat

The cat spits off his junk,
               goes leoparding
                   in sun stripes.
Killing is such play,
            we must put
           what we feel
                                  away
          to keep him happy.

Thursday, June 10, 2021

Backyard Chorus

It's only when the light 
                 starts to leave
         that you sense the 
                     closeness 
                     of the sea

And the peace of compassionate
                                        presence 
        without a dervish
                     to steal the feeling
                                         of green

As the planes steal the silence 
                               from the sky
       like they don't see
                     what they're doing

The hummingbirds and butterflies
                     have voices too

Ah but the chimes have
                              a mind
                              we can't imagine

        except to say
                     we hear a pie 
                             cooling
        
        Boysenberry blue
            through & through

Wednesday, June 9, 2021

A Footnote Recovered

I believe in Scholarship – its paralysis –
Consensus of attention – that wills the Eye still –
Into submission – leaves the Mote that can be seen –
As Formula – grows Reason on a string – distills

Something – where once was vaporous None – that can keep us from
Chaos – and safe in Forms – that adjust – nonetheless –
Demure – it's like they never were – but now are Firm –
They bring Confidence – what we have to say makes Sense!

And can be corrected – by what bears the savor 
Of its Opposite – as Pupils find their own – twist –
Perspectives slant – lighten assembly line labor –
Locked tight – no Detail – too large – for a Specialist.

Tuesday, June 8, 2021

Some Recent Reviews

It's a music
     they won't hear
Though it's been there
     in the air, it seems,
For years, and, at times,
     more like forever

Always asking for the stand,
     always knowing what to blow,
But between the microphones
     and impresarios 
It was always passed over
     for the known

For it seems too unabashedly new,
     never before attempted,
What's been buried
     in dust and neglect
A moment or a century more
     than it could endure.

There are workers in charge
     of people's ears;
It's a job to keep the strange away
     and debut a new
That's something destitute,
     a perverse devolution

As if that is the only way
     progress will unfold.
A trace of a God!
     The redacters won't rest
Until there's nothing left
      but darkness.

Monday, June 7, 2021

Dr. Tom

On the second floor,
Beyond an open door
He cleaned his instruments
And, in bare feet, spoke
About his need
To right the wrongs.
It led to 60-hour weeks,
So many people
Needing healing,
"We remove no other animal's
Back teeth."

The waiting table books
Were not sold on Amazon.
The truth was spoken here, we knew,
And we talked of every theory 
We'd been taught, and how each one 
Was wrong, falsified 
For our consumption,
And how the world made much more sense
When not hysterical
Like science and the press
But calm and rational
Like the glories of the central
Human mind,
Which was safe
Within the confines
Of this room,
Alhough we felt
The breath
Of outside ice.

Sunday, June 6, 2021

The Sunday Painter

Some quick work turns the week conspiratorial rumor,
Bathes the white sheet in umber, thinking only
Of the blue eyes and how to realize, 
On the seagull, what may not even be.

The endlessness of sky must become a horizon 
As the variations in spray must take some final direction,
But there's a place for nets and buoys, watercolors
In the empty space along the wainscot grey,

An immediate immortality
That can be cataloged in posterity
With baby albums and midget football trophies
And can temporarily wash away

The sense of obligation 
Weighing on the week,
The ways that one's found wanting
In the things that others need.

Is there a grimace along that fine beak?
Some life in those eyes with the taxidermist glass?
Perhaps there's captured, at the moment of flight, the freedom
To go anywhere, before the familiar calls back.

Saturday, June 5, 2021

Interview with Bronk

Belief is as necessary as breathing —
The world forms and then dissolves —
For we need the illusion of contour 
To pull us through our confusion

As we need our creations annihilated 
From time to time, so that we will know 
They are creations we no longer need bear
Through the increasingly tighter nets

Of what they call our desire,
The great implacable, unknowable force 
That devours illusions like food
For something it can call truth.

What it needs, of course, is to remain 
Indecipherable, part of a larger unknown,
Not accountable for its impulses
Hidden, as they are, behind stars.

Friday, June 4, 2021

Wave

The churning is real, the dissolution,
What seems like creamy foam
Contains an essence 
Of motion

From some rogue spirit
Far enough away
To exist 
Apart from us

As a sovereign being
Rolling all the words
Into impenetrable 
Sentience.

We give it measure,
A space for breathing,
And our time dissolves
In its abyss

And space recedes
To our scarcity of vision,
As what we know goes
Folding in its swells.