The hole they dug to find the others.
Sunday, April 28, 2019
Selfie and Other
The hole they dug to find the others.
Saturday, April 27, 2019
Meditations on Labelled Plants
Friday, April 26, 2019
Hymns by Hölderlin: Patmos
Unaccustomed to the boulevards
Down which Pactolus festooned with gold
Drove from Tmolus
And approach
So sprach ich, da entführte
Mir Asia auf, und geblendet sucht
Es rauschen aber um Asias Tore
Gastfreundlich aber ist
Gegangen mit
Doch trauerten sie, da nun
Itzt, da er scheidend
Doch furchtbar ist, wie da und dort
Wenn aber stirbt alsdenn,
Es ist der Wurf des Säemanns, wenn er faßt
Wenn aber einer spornte sich selbst,
Ein Losungszeichen, und hier ist der Stab
Und wenn die Himmlischen jetzt
Wednesday, April 24, 2019
The Dream of my Face on the Cover
Tuesday, April 23, 2019
Fresh Pagodas on the Lawn
Sunday, April 21, 2019
From Taipei's Morning Mists
We have travelled the vast ocean of sorrow
By ferry, by car, by plane
Like mosquitos make circles in a pond
Back to where they've forgotten
Life is meaningless
Except for the voyage
Saturday, April 20, 2019
The Walk from Secret Beach
Time to leave the ex-pats in mid-complaint
About how meaningless their lives were before,
Time to part from the Germans
Still looking for something to do on the beach,
And turn away from the moon party ravers
Nursing their wounds in the open cafe.
And it's time to say goodbye to the roosters
Who share their sound so happily all night long,
And so long to the screaming cicadas, hysterical mynas,
The silver palms, the green banana leaf rainbows,
Time to bid farewell to every
Palm oil farmer and songthaew driver,
Every temple in every storefront
With a wish to find compassion for all of it,
To remember the innocence in front of the mind
As we slip away invisible,
Barely a passing shadow to those here,
Yet we've left something permanent behind
Amid the swirl of impermanent activity
That extends all the way to the silence of our presence;
It is the same, now everything can turn into dust.
Thursday, April 18, 2019
Evening Prayers
Full moon in Phangan
Sparks from distant storms
Monks chant sunset apologies
That float across the palms
And soon turn to laughter and jazz
As figures walk to shore through black water
Wednesday, April 17, 2019
Elephant by a Pagoda in Ko Samui
The giants eat through a town like this in seconds,
Uproot the university as if was a banana tree,
Drink down whatever sweetness is left upon the faces,
Rip through the night market to find and devour
The most pungent and succulent fruit
In a blink of a wandering eye --
Cursed with a vehicle that is led to more sensation,
Guided only by a child's nose for the fresh
To amble in the rose thorn bushes.
More arrangements are made by the small -- ever fearful
The silly giant does not see them though as smaller,
It can't accept the way it is either,
The way the world made it large enough for its soul.
All error pushes against the back of its throat,
That the way it is is how it must be,
For all to be shared equally.
That is how it tries to end the mind that sees
Only an endless swath of destruction ahead,
Which leaves only a heart breaking to love,
Forgiving in advance, forgetting slights instantly,
Knowing there's no wrong, though there is suffering,
The flies that puncture the thickest hide,
The path that always leads away.
The dreams of grandeur they represent?
Will they relieve its lumbering misery,
Or make it harder to bear, to be a prophet
Without portfolio, honored without remorse,
Nothing of it understood? Only a stately
What can't even be looked away from,
That tells us nothing of clouds or soil.
For at this very moment, it is welcomed as a God
On the island of the monkeys.
Tuesday, April 16, 2019
At Klong Muang Beach
At sunset
Frogs and Muslims
Intone,
Seemingly vying
But too much alike
In the low surrender
Of their sound ...
Some love they
Enjoy being near
But not having
Except as moans
Can conjure longing.
William Wordsworth Goes to Tamarind Island
These Koh Garos fjords are speechless
Therefore I have no words,
But the river so quietly discourses,
Every moment a new eye of light,
A different reverberation of idea.
The vines of rock that hang below
Echo with the river's glow,
And in their tortured edges
Are the water's kneading hands.
How could this green of mangrove
Open so quickly to ocean?
So the voice always roars about the wilderness
Though it knows nothing of what it is.
Monday, April 15, 2019
Phi Phi Decalcomania
The monoliths rise
Above the glassy waters
Every morning it seems
With messages from the deep
To be paid attention to
Because impossible
They've found a way
To stay upright
In the all-consuming jungle
A certain grace of posture
The offer
Of a shore
With all sacred meaning
Taken care of
For you
You can lay there if you choose
On the beach all day
Try to keep your worries away
The beauty of the cliffs
More or less permanent
Has been supplanted
By the impermanent kind,
Scores of Asian girls
Posing in the waters
Vexing themselves
Into the allure
Of images
To share with the world
In a way the jagged cliff face
Never will
Still, clouds form
Themselves out of
Those shapes
Saturday, April 13, 2019
Songkran in Chiang Mai
The army of monks did their clean-up operation at dusk
And now they sit in the bar by the empty temple
Admiring all the latent violence in the souls that pass them by
Who smile in their sacred duty to fire at will
Their squirt machine guns in the war zone of the streets.
They bring the hose to the perimeter bucket,
Conduct reconnaissance behind the durian carts,
Duck for cover inside the beds of pickup trucks,
Use defensive umbrellas and human shields to reload,
Real art of warfare stuff
Practiced without any restraint or training by children
To vanquish the ghosts of Hollywood fantasy projections
That order the spilling of enemy blood.
There are grandparents too, with the sacred duty
To thoroughly cleanse the soul,
And there are firing squads of ecstatic vacation warriors
With strap-on rainbow uzis that never waste a shot
In street patrols wearing goggles and cabana clothes
Against marauding gangs in jeeps
With bubble guns and pink beach pails
As lawlessness washes over the streets like rain.
Defenseless civilians we are buddhas too,
Born to die again in the fusillade of holiness
That never stops, only takes a different shape,
A different gun pointed to our heads.
A Thingyam Collect
The roofs of Mandalay are silver from the sky,
Blue on the ground,
And what looks from above like rivers
Are the curves where people's lives
Are dropped like feathers on the unforgiving earth,
To catch rides on cattle trucks and motorbikes side saddle
Under bean locust boulevards
Where buddhas dance in stone around the traffic circles,
It's easier when the Buddha has all the gold,
Everyone is saved,
And the monks are sent out in the dusty streets
In linen robes
To hitch their own rides,
Collect rice, carry parasols,
Smoke cigarettes, read newspapers,
Talk on cell phones
Amid the hack and honk,
The top of the head bartering
That goes on even here
Where they sand down Gautama's head
Along Buddha factory row.
The monks carry items in their baskets,
Colorful plastic covered in shrink wrap,
Their own kind of trade.
And further out, in the magic mist of Lake Inle,
Whole families live and trade under the teak bridge
Next to boats untouched by time's implementations
That rest in purple lily fields
Pulsing beneath the duck beaks that nuzzle the mud.
Stray lilies float into the larger veil of water
That tractors and ducks cross farther up together.
Burma lives too, rusted behind razor wire
And on ancient billboards that have long since lost their hold:
The Burma Biscuit Factory,
Apache Cement, Kipling's Ale.
Blue ghost pith helmets hang like buddha marionettes
From the windows of antique shops
Where elephants hang from ceilings
And a banjo is in a display case.
Friday, April 12, 2019
The Red of Bagan
Temples pierce the sky
Wherever the eye can go
Above the grandmother tear beans of mesquite,
And each one has a caretaker to sweep out the dust
And each one has a buddha inside in the middle
With still another variation on compassion.
It's in the flesh here how they stay
Until all of us are enlightened,
Though there are no cemeteries here to keep them
From the next unique incarnation.
These pagodas have withstood the warlords
And the earthquakes, all encroachments of the material
On the things of this impermanent earth
But more importantly they survived the guilt
Of Thumbula who had them built,
And why he did it:
The rage that calls our compassion
Like singing to prayer.
Thursday, April 11, 2019
Lines Written Alone as a Cat in Bagan at 2:33 am with the Overwhelming Scent of Jasmine
Why do I cultivate the beauty of poverty,
The happy to be living only a little hungry
In a thatched hut by the side of the road
While oceans of plastic tears are held at
Mesquite thorn point poverty?
No other kind of beauty can replace it,
For all that is harmonious and green
Must be tossed aside like an empty can of oil
That can't be traded for the companionship
Found in the dusty procession of motors.
Once one surrenders to it, the trees move
As universal marionettes, the useless sand becomes
The shape the books try to approximate,
And there's no need to adjust the view
With a flourish here, a switching of valances there,
For nothing needs to be changed at all,
Despite the heart of compassion that wants
An end to the circle of suffering,
Known otherwise as the circle of life.
Acceptance comes so hard to those who have
Cultivated meaning like so many blinding stones of gold.
Those who truly cultivate nothing
Find a buddha every time in every one of these
Ruined temples time has ripped the meaning away from
To force the beauty of what can't be explained:
Each vehicle an inaccessible story
That reveals all it is as it passes
From the truth that passes understanding.
Wednesday, April 10, 2019
In Mandalay
The pigeons in the golden dome
Crow about the eightfold path
As the small bells on top coo in reply
But the people are too blinded by piety,
They pray at the Buddha's feet silently,
Have children hammer the gongs,
Give service and compassion to everyone
And all they've received back as alms.
It appears the pigeons are not speaking of them
But of the one so blinded by poverty
She accosts the pilgrims desperately to buy her bells --
"I'm mad, I am unhappy, this isn't fair"
She storms, with eyes not hidden
Enough by thenika leaf
To be forgotten.
What a lesson it is to say "no" to that,
Feeling the heart explode
As if it didn't see the suffering
Hidden in the smiles before.
The fighting dogs still talk of it at 3 am,
As if the day will never come again.
Tuesday, April 9, 2019
Lines Written at 2 am in the Afternoon
One shouldn't have to go all the way to Taipei
To learn that language is overrated.
The clover blows in that Chinese way,
Harmonious yet free
And even the streams have an intent of peace
That is hard to fathom, yet easy to contemplate.
Everything here resists my understanding
But I step into its vaprous rule without hesitation.
I wash my face in the spirit of the place,
In surrender to the shared creator.
Maybe there's a word here
That can mean only that.
Sunday, April 7, 2019
The Drive Back from the Airport
Or the desert wind
That takes me off the track
To distant memories
Of nothing specific?
As these Sunday parties
After they're done
Are a generalized
Stream of laughter.
What lives inside the moment
-- Only the most ruthless
Prisoners escape.
Saturday, April 6, 2019
That Steady Dial Tone
Another day collapses,
The crickets fill the space,
Answering the silence with silence.
Freedom, it seems, is out there in that sound,
Of no one needing anything,
No reason to take shape,
But something remains
Of what prompted us
To take the axe in our hands --
You'll call it whatever material gains
Or psychological lack you want,
But there's a path across the universe
-- We're already somewhere else.
Friday, April 5, 2019
The New Invisible
Don’t mean to be mean
The golden mean,
With which the cars peel away
Thursday, April 4, 2019
Sestina
Wednesday, April 3, 2019
The Erewhon Building, Reflected in the Glass
Perception alone can annihilate, as we know, a world
— Boredom turns forms into tropes —
As one knows everything at birth
And falls into the long forgetting ...
Pretending the barbed wire glitters
And the tumbleweeds are green.
That's that tiny thing, the outside world,
That never really offers truthful hues,
And there's always this rush to make it all seem right
As if we couldn't bear the thought of us
Without our senses shackled
— Oh, but for some, they slip away
Like a vision of a lover to the clouds,
And the only relation is what one can make of it,
Whatever spells dissolving chimeras can cast
To see that thing you'd heard about,
To not hear what you were not given to see
— It's a cold, unblinking window
As you sit beside your hearth
And hear the whispers of the fire
Until you're strong enough within yourself
To look there.
Tuesday, April 2, 2019
A Personal Aside
Sleep is me time
When I can stretch out in
Kirkutsk or Rapa Nui
And perfect verses form themselves
Like leaves inspired by wind.
When I woke I met Hermione
Who's taken care of me my whole life.
Monday, April 1, 2019
At Sounio
In memory of Tina T
She sat on the marble
Gazing at the impossible
Blue Aegean: new worlds, new people --
That's why she had to leave
Where the evenings never seemed to end,
The cup of companionship
Was infinite,
And everything was not only known
But forgiven,
For the face was always Mary's face
With its secret gift of heaven.
Though they never would agree
On anything
There was never any confusion --
What's right is right,
And nothing is wrong.
There are those who know this
And those who don't understand.
She will sew her sails
To reach them.
Sunday, March 31, 2019
Before the Flowers End
Saturday, March 30, 2019
Memories of Hospice
Friday, March 29, 2019
Hymns by Hölderlin: The Only One
Der hohen Gedanken aber
Mein Meister und Herr!
Ich weiß es aber, eigene Schuld
Es hindert aber eine Scham
Die Wüste. So sind jene sich gleich. Voll Freuden, reichlich. Herrlich grünet
Begehrt zu einem auf Erden. Immerdar
Thursday, March 28, 2019
The God of Moving Spaces
explain
Wednesday, March 27, 2019
The Latest on the Horse Auctions
The illusion of city dissolves
To gray cloud that gives nothing back, like coffee
Served black. The falseness was effervescent,
To watch who I'm not dance with what can't be
As if it's already happened, as in
Selectively remembered stories, themselves lies.
Instead, the shapes form themselves, and move on
Their own with the same disregard that you have
For what holds you down and what pulls you along.
In each face that walks by, though, is a promise
Of something to be known, some uncanny
Experience to make you feel less alone.
It floats in the vapors of the late sun still,
The persistence of nothing. For you offered
Whatever it was that you had to that
As if it was the same, as if it was different,
As if it was something, but that was
The one thing you could never ask of it.
There's too much that is real in the ethereal
Realms, in this slow, heavy town there's only
A train, moving through, and all manner of
Ribbons and stones to jiggle in the sun,
Not to give the doomed here hope, but to share
The unyielding feeling that they've been cheated.
Another city emerges, bathed in white light,
Streets empty enough to walk through the dream
Where one foot in front of the other has meaning
And all that it has -- uniquely -- is available
In the mind, a private Winnebago ...
If what you never could imagine would only exist.
Tuesday, March 26, 2019
Guatemalan Market
He bravely takes a cigarette drag
Amid the hard look of poverty on Alvarado.
They can only buy what can't be sold at the Dollar Store,
But the call has been heard: Wheelchairs for the poor!
Such strange compassion this is.
Saturday, March 23, 2019
The Crawl of Progress
Adrenochrome is so hashtag yawn
And vril bubbles up from the underground
Only to go the way of the suicide squeeze and the 4am memo.
I see an Anonymous mask
Like Melpomene and Thalia
On the back window of an SUV.
Information drops at the same rate
Vibration rises: what we can bear,
And someday we'll say "It's about time"
When they close the cloning centers down,
And we'll put up memorials to the millions killed on Mars,
Even though the factories will never stop
Converting hard-earned truth to rhyming lies
And keeping everything that matters away
As if it was a rabid bear.
But we can ascend with "Welcome to the Jungle"
As readily as with Brahms,
And learn as much from the snickerings of families painted gold
As from the thought forms of blue kachina birds.
Most can only take so much, though,
Before they disappear to wake the sleeping
And never come back.
That's the problem with a world
That enslaves everyone but you.