Saturday, October 12, 2024

The Ryder Horse

October as the oranges 
       descend on the greens,
Returned like the fake
       parmesan grated
Into another red stew of day
       -- the basil still grows
               tho with holes
       and infested with seed,
Not going anywhere

It just exists to be purple
       and rhyme with the lavender
Who gives way finally now
               to the lull --
We can't quite call it a death.
       The strawberries white
Surprise the guardians of the secret
       who stand with scythes
              smoking 3-rolls 
At the oiled and now-calibrated gate.

The images yellow
      like the grape vine leaves,
Ahead of the frost
      that doesn't look
              like it's coming --
Its plane was delayed 
              in Des Moines
And a bevy of cornhuskers
     surprised they're still winning
Escorted it to oblivion --

The light she won't part with
             keeps hope alive,
Tho the ghost gave up last winter
     and the skeletons were removed
Along with a childhood of paintings,
     the half-crafted yarns,
The albums that held all the smiles.
            They are gone,
But what is left has been given
            a reprieve --
More vagrancy 
     and loitering with intent

In a space that refuses
            to be empty,
Refuses to admit it doesn't exist,
     so the clock keeps ticking --
What would be a tale
    of varnish and vanishing timelines,
The paperweights conveyed
    to safer libraries,
Where the past doesn't weigh
            quite this much,
Where breaths must be counted
     til they end.

The last light in the window
    sees a grimace still,
A thought that haunted mansions still glow,
   and characters to mirror the not-you,
Who played their roles impeccably
   still lurk inside your closets
            stirring trembling ash --
But it is only the laugh that came with the house
   that wants, after all, to go on living.

The dead have come so close I can't tell
            which side is which.