Thursday, June 3, 2021

Stevens Textplication: The World as Meditation

We are accustomed, in this post-Phillip Dick world, to maintain a healthy sense of ambiguity about what is “real” and what is “illusion.” Human experience can be so readily falsified by our increasingly electro-magnetically mediated relationships that what was once pathological paranoia about the authenticity of one’s thoughts, experiences and actions has now become a commonplace understanding that our thoughts are monitored, our impulses manipulated and our experiences doctored by unknown, almost certainly malign forces.

Thus, it seems quaint to read old interpretations of Wallace Stevens’ “The World as Meditation” poem, as they inevitably wrestle with the nonchalance of both the speaker and Penelope that the homecoming of Ulysses she celebrates is almost certainly a figment of her imagination. Today, we are more likely to shrug our tattooed shoulders and say, “whatever floats your boat.” But back then, such doubts led to more existential lines of questioning: How can the mind alone create a satisfactory world? In what way does the real world itself contribute to the authenticity of one’s illusion?  Why is Ulysses’ illusory return more real to Penelope than his actual absence?

Interpreters in every decade since the poem was written in 1952 have struggled with its interplay of reality and illusion. Here are some examples:

". . . her [Penelope's] imagination of Ulysses, her constant meditation of reunion with the man she constantly creates in her mind, this power presses back, composes within herself a world of value and order." [Louis L. Martz, "Wallace Stevens: The World as Meditation," Yale Review, XLVII, 5I8 (June, 1958), 5.] 

“Desire is satisfied only by knowing the proximate, never the ultimate, satisfaction, like Penelope waiting for a Ulysses and finding satisfaction in the thought rather than the fact of his coming.” [Joseph Riddel, The Clairvoyant Eye: The Poetry and Poetics of Wallace Stevens, LSU Press (1965), p 247]

“… it is no longer a question of some reality which already exists out there in the world, and of which the poet then makes an image … There is only one ever-present existence: consciousness of some reality. Imagination is reality.” [J. Hillis Miller, “Wallace Stevens’ Poetry of Being,” in The Act of the Mind: Essays on the Poetry of Wallace Stevens, ed. Roy Harvey Pearce and J. Hillis Miller (Baltimore: The Johns Hopkins Press, 1965), pp. 144.] 

“… one need not relinquish one reality in order to acknowledge another; that it is, in fact, the co-existence of the two realities that keeps Penelope alive.” [Sharon Cameron, “‘The Sense Against Calamity’: Ideas of a Self in Three Poems by Wallace Stevens.” ELH, vol. 43, no. 4, 1976, p. 591]

“Desire gives imagination the force to supplant exterior reality … Penelope’s imagination metamorphoses Ulysses as she thinks about him, and no original or memory of the original is available in the poem … to realize something one must recreate, internalize it.” [Loren Rusk, “Penelope's Creative Desiring: ‘The World as Meditation,’” The Wallace Stevens Journal, vol. 9, no. 1, 1985, pp 20-21.] 

“[Penelope is] creating a reality in which she is constantly ready for Ulysses’ return and he is constantly approaching.” [Rebecca Dickens, “The Zen of Stevens,” 1990 Master’s Thesis] 

“[In] Stevens’s dramatization of the events of experience, the self in relationship with world and others, … the center of connection … retains a quality of uncertainty, a questionableness, that again and again leaves the event as in an aura of mystery or awe.” [Howard Pearce, “Wallace Stevens’s Poetry of ‘The Strange Unlike,’” in Mystery in its Passions: Literary Exploration. Anna-Teresa Tymieniecka Editor. Analecta Husserliana Volume 82 (2004), p. 264]

“ … The relationship between the world that one perceives and the actual outside world, and how this relationship changes in response to desire. Meditation, for Stevens, is a reflective and receptive process by which one reconciles oneself with the world around one.” [Genevieve Frank, “The World as Meditation,” The University Scholar, Volume XVIII Number 2 (Spring 2018), 14]

Hm. Imagination creating (or at least augmenting) reality out of desire. Sounds simple enough. But is that really what the poem is about? Let’s take a closer look. 

The “meditation” in the title is not to be confused with Eastern religion-inspired meditation (although it doesn’t exclude it). The more precise connotation is the traditional one: “a written or spoken discourse expressing considered thoughts on a subject.” Thus, the title professes no less than an explanation of life. And, in surprising ways, as we will see, it delivers.

It starts with the following epigraph in French by Romanian composer, violinist, and pianist Georges Enesco (1881-1955), an illustrious, almost-exact contemporary of Stevens: “J’ai passé trop de temps à travailler mon violon, à voyager. Mais l’exercice essentiel du compositeur — la médiatation — rien ne l’a jamais suspendu en moi … Je vis un rêve permanent, qui ne s’arrête ni nuit ni jour.” This translates to “I have spent too much time practicing my violin, traveling. But the essential exercise of the composer – meditation—has never stopped in me … I live in a permanent dream, arrested neither by day nor night.” 

Here is the poem: 

Is it Ulysses that approaches from the east,

The interminable adventurer? The trees are mended.

That winter is washed away. Someone is moving


On the horizon and lifting himself up above it.

A form of fire approaches the cretonnes of Penelope,

Whose mere savage presence awakens the world in which she dwells.


She has composed, so long, a self with which to welcome him,

Companion to his self for her, which she imagined,

Two in a deep-founded sheltering, friend and dear friend.


The trees had been mended, as an essential exercise

In an inhuman meditation, larger than her own.

No winds like dogs watched over her at night.


She wanted nothing he could not bring her by coming alone.

She wanted no fetchings. His arms would be her necklace

And her belt, the final fortune of their desire.


But was it Ulysses? Or was it only the warmth of the sun

On her pillow? The thought kept beating in her like her heart.

The two kept beating together. It was only day.


It was Ulysses and it was not. Yet they had met,

Friend and dear friend and a planet’s encouragement.

The barbarous strength within her would never fail.


She would talk a little to herself as she combed her hair,

Repeating his name with its patient syllables,

Never forgetting him that kept coming constantly so near.


Ambiguity – the mode for the main character as well as reader – strikes at the outset:

Is it Ulysses that approaches from the east,

The interminable adventurer? 


On the surface, this seems a straightforward rendering of a scene from the world's oldest great epic poem the Odyssey, where Penelope, having waited years for her husband Ulysses to return, imagines he might finally be arriving. Hopeful even after years of persistently watching the seas, she is by turns honoring (comparing him to the sun rising in the east) and chiding (regarding his masculine need for adventure “interminable”).


At a level of syntax, however, this interpretation falls apart. It’s not “Ulysses who” approaches, as would connote a human, but “Ulysses that” approaches, which suggests that this vague presence is not even identifiable as a man. Similarly, Ulysses is not “the interminable adventurer,” the east is. The rising of the sun is, indeed, our adventure of dailyness, and it is interminable, more correctly so than would be a person (as opposed to his long journey). Right away, the chimerical figure of Ulysses is dehumanized, more sun than man. So the question of “is he approaching” (what our romantic minds can easily construe) becomes “is it approaching?” (a more mysterious calculus).


The going gets even weirder from here:  


The trees are mended.

That winter is washed away. 


It’s hard to imagine – even metaphorically – trees being mended, even taking into account the miraculous reappearance of leaves in the spring. And how can the winter be washed away, when there is no snow in Greece? 


Trees and washing are important touchstones in the Odyssey, of course, for answering, in fact, the question, “Is it Ulysses?” When Ulysses returns to Penelope he goes disguised as a beggar, so he won’t be recognized by all the suitors sponging off his wife. While he keeps his identity secret from Penelope, her servant Eurycleia recognizes him when washing his feet, because of the scar he received from boar hunting as a boy. Ulysses similarly disguises himself as a stranger when visiting his father Laertes, but, when seeing how disconsolate his father is that the stranger has no news of his son, he decides to reveal his identity by recalling all the various trees he received from Laertes as a boy.


Mending also comes into play in the story, when a loyal sheep herder tells a disguised Ulysses of having seen Ulysses mending his sails – the only such story that he was still alive. So, metaphorically, the ship (made of trees) has been mended with his return, as the winter of his absence has been “washed away” by his being recognized.


But Penelope, as in the original, does not know he has returned. Her perception is only of the things around Ulysses, not the man himself. To her:


Someone is moving

On the horizon and lifting himself up above it.


Though the figure is identified as “someone”, the action is more befitting the sun, or a man ascended inaccessibly high, or a remote God. This lack of relation to the human Ulysses is amplified in the next line, a poetically apt description for the rising of the sun:


A form of fire approaches the cretonnes of Penelope,

Whose mere savage presence awakens the world in which she dwells.


The fire’s “mere savage presence awakens” her world by revealing it. “Cretonnes” is an inappropriate word to be used in this context. It nominally signifies the heavy patterned cotton fabric of Penelope’s upholstery, which presumably becomes radiant and alive in the light of the sun. However, it is a 19th century French term probably derived from Creton, a village in Normandy, that specialized in its mass production – another time and place from our ostensibly Aegean locale. This seemingly intentional incongruity complicates the search for identity, as if we should as readers be asking, “But is it Penelope?” 


This sense deepens with the next lines, which echo Enesco’s epigraph on the essential exercise of the composer (meditation) remaining intact despite traveling and practice, due to a permanent dream: 


She has composed, so long, a self with which to welcome him,


Her work and his traveling have not detracted her from composing a self implicitly distinct from her real self. This self exists to serve her dream of welcoming him, a dream which, in Enesco’s terms, is permanent. Outlines of this dream break uncertainly through with the rosy-fingered dawn:


Companion to his self for her, which she imagined,


“Companion to his self for her” can only sensibly be read as that her composed self would be the companion for his similarly fictionalized self. Both selves, the ambiguous “which” after the comma asserts, are products of her imagination. He is an actor and she is an actress, but the play runs on entirely in her mind, with: 


Two in a deep-founded sheltering, friend and dear friend.


These are curious words to describe their “relationship” in light of the deprivation and longing Penelope suffered in Ulysses’ absence, and the perils and traps he escaped – particularly of the female variety – to get back to her. That the trials each experienced in the obsessive devotion to reunion would only result in friendship and a need for shelter from more trials is a lesson only implied in the Odyssey, that the journey is all. There is no fire, no love, no heroism, no noble suffering, no art, without the continual grief of separation. Severely deferred gratification, however, leads only to the stasis of contentment, what the present poem intellectualizes as a “deep” foundation and “dear” friendship. But why would Penelope, in control of her dream, desire in such passionless and unfruitful terms? Her pining for her husband’s return becomes a longing for a kind of death.    


At this point Enesco’s violin returns, modulating the time signature of his dramatic theme to past tense: 


The trees had been mended, as an essential exercise

In an inhuman meditation, larger than her own.


The agency that mended is left hopelessly obscure, at least to Penelope. She equates it with Enesco’s practicing – and his meditation – but it is “inhuman,” even though it connotes a human fix and seems an extension of what the reader knows is the actual Ulysses' handiwork behind the scenes. Further, it is “essential” and “larger than her own,” indicating that these inexplicable processes – having already occured – should be a model for her own meditations.  


No winds like dogs watched over her at night.


Here, positive and negative aspects of dogs are transposed into one rather unruly metaphor. The disturbing wind-like howl of dogs at night – which upsets order, and may remind Penelope of the uncertainty and fears attendant on her long wait for her husband – contrasts with the way they protect her in her sanctuary of domesticity. Penelope, for reasons left unclear, denies either possibility. Perhaps she's unaware that the dogs have already recognized Ulysses?


She wanted nothing he could not bring her by coming alone.


The strange syntax continues. Canceling out the double negative, it seems to mean she wanted him alone, without gifts or baggage. But the line could also play in a more vaporous realm, suggesting that she, in fact, wanted nothing, which he, by coming alone, that is, without nothing, couldn’t provide. His actual self, in other words, was too much. There is the additional connotation that nothing only comes with others, not with him alone. The actual self cannot thus be canceled out by others but remains as an unbalanced equation.


She wanted no fetchings. 


With a characteristic archaism, Stevens employs a rich descriptor of what Penelope didn’t want: something procured, something conveyed, a minder, escort, commander – all of which seem to her tawdry, not real. She was holding out for nothing, a notch better than the lowliest something.


His arms would be her necklace

And her belt, the final fortune of their desire.


Again, a literal reading co-exists with a literary reading. He would wrap himself around her neck as the only possession she needed, and her belt, the last material thing in the way of their desire, would be the “final fortune,” her prize to him as well as to them together. Simultaneously, the intimacy has a far more abstract cast, of starry creatures of war that shine like jewels, bright belts that tell our fortunes -- the end of our searching is not in the embrace of another human, but in the unknowable vastness of the heavens. 


To this point, the poem bears a lot of amorphous mysteries, resonances and implications, nothing really cohering in the way that we – at least as traditional readers – would like. But it does carry an emotional weight, something longed for and not within reach, with the implication that perhaps its value is in not being graspable. 


Still, nothing prepares one for the pathos of the next line:


But was it Ulysses? 


As if with a sudden shudder, Ulysses appears in all his physicality. What had been surmised and outlined – and found wanting – just appears as a mirror image to the question. 


It reminds me of the opening paragraph from Franz Kafka’s The Castle:

It was late in the evening when K. arrived. The village was deep in snow. The castle hill was hidden, veiled in mist and darkness, nor was there even a glimmer of light to show that a castle was there. On the wooden bridge leading from the main road to the village K. stood for a long time gazing into the illusory emptiness above him. 

There is no objective reality. The choice is really up to the observer whether something is real or not. It’s a point we often miss. Ulysses could have been there the whole time, as was suggested by the trees, washing and mending. His being was independent of Penelope's perception, and how she qualified him away. Her realization that she may have thus done him an injustice brings him, if not into the open, at least out of her reach. For her conscience was pricked by the awareness of another soul, one whom she had arrogantly dreamed.


Or was it only the warmth of the sun

On her pillow? The thought kept beating in her like her heart.


Penelope seeks, as all people ensconced in duality do, to justify herself as an innocent rather than as a villain. How nice if all her imaginings were simply prompted by the warmth of the sun on her proximate pillow. What a sensible explanation! “The thought kept beating in her like her heart” because she knew she could equally be faced with a very real Ulysses in front of her who she could not meet in any defensible way.


The two kept beating together. It was only day.


In the balancing of the two thoughts – the veritable angel and devil on the shoulders – the two lovers actually meet as one. It is not what is said or even experienced that matters to lovers, but the space that is made for the other. With her question, her conscious openness to a reality besides her own, Penelope lets Ulysses into her heart in a way she hadn’t before. 


This is followed by a seemingly important but unrelated phrase that has puzzled many commentators, “It was only day.” Is this a recognition of the overriding control of nature in the form of the sun passing through the day, or a confirmation that this is only Penelope’s daydream? I don’t view it in either of those terms, exactly. I read it as her exclamation of happiness that, indeed, it is only the sun on her pillow – aka the explanation that makes her look good. She can make this claim honestly because she has now felt Ulysses in her heart. And she is comfortable both having him and not having him:     


It was Ulysses and it was not. Yet they had met,

 

The fact of their meeting – in the flesh – countered both the real and the imagined Ulysses. Which one was preferable is ambiguous, of course, but the feeling’s that the real one doesn’t measure up.

 

Friend and dear friend and a planet’s encouragement.

 

Penelope has reverted back to the composed version of their relationship, as if it is something for a storybook. It’s even blessed by nature (“a planet’s encouragement”), which gives it an even more abstracted feel, as if their coupling was compelled by outside forces. 

 

The barbarous strength within her would never fail.

 

As she realizes the real and illusory can live safely inside of her, she feels confident she can subsume Ulysses, and indeed the world, with her mind (“the world as meditation”). The savageness of the sun from the opening stanza, which could also have referred to her, now explicitly includes her. And it includes Ulysses too. She resolved the uncertainties that plagued her. Her and Ulysses have been joined, perpetually. 


She would talk a little to herself as she combed her hair,

Repeating his name with its patient syllables,


Instead of talking to him, she talks, or “would talk”, to herself. As if responding to him, she repeats his name. The syllables are “patient,” Latin for suffering. The clear implication here is that the two of them are having a real conversation, but a highly self-involved one. Her concerns are for herself and end with herself, while his need is to be amplified or validated by her, a process that amounts to nothing more than repeating his name. But, because he is patient with her, she is willing to weave and unweave her life for him (“syllable” comes from the Greek sullabē, take together – as in the good and the bad). That’s what love, marital love, is.  


Never forgetting him that kept coming constantly so near.


Like clockwork, the bottom drops out of the poem with its heartbreaking final line. The real Ulysses who appeared in the absence she created for him cannot possibly compete with the idealized one. There will always be that primary place in her imagination for the Ulysses before Ulysses appeared. But because that Ulysses has been supplanted by the actual one, the one she loves has become wholly imagined but unimaginable, like an archon formed in the shadow of the light that grows ever larger, ever blacker and more distinct. This is what obsesses her in her meditation.


As C.P Cavafy wrote in his famous poem Ithaka:


Laistrygonians, Cyclops,

wild Poseidon—you won’t encounter them

unless you bring them along inside your soul,

unless your soul sets them up in front of you.

(Edward Keeley translation)


So it is with Penelope, trapped with the byproduct of her desire, so that she is caught in a labyrinth of a permanent dream that shows, as in Stevens' "The Snow Man" poem, “nothing that is not there and the nothing that is.”

Tuesday, June 1, 2021

On the Blue Ridge

That Sunday morning, in Virginia
The flowers were wet, and sharp against the gray.
They lay there blue next to the road, the road away.

Impassible valleys, mountains of mist, this is
Where I came from, some way — how could I not
Grieve and pick flowers on that day?

When all the past was silent, at all I had to say,
With a black shawl thrown on my mother's ghost face
With "You don't get that," all the bearded man would say.

There was something in the blossoms
That made the pain alive, and gave me hope 
I could turn it into gift, for some empty vase.

But not this time, for this was Virginia, home of lovers,
Where the state police will stop you for your thoughts.
And this one made me throw back all the flowers

Into an overwhelming meadow of blue,
As if what I now knew would have to stay
Inside the woods I emerged from too.

An 18-wheeler barreled by, threw rocks across my feet,
As everyone I'd touched before that day
All made their rude escape.

That road's as lost in smoke now as those crags, 
But the flowers are as I remember them,
What I'd never have.

Sunday, May 30, 2021

Retrospective

The beach pits are going.
At my age, cutting lettuce 
                        is a tragedy,
                such is memory.

I know them by their hieroglyphs 
                      of cackles and gasps.
                They are rowing away
                      on a sea
                that is only 
                                     echo.

The past, the past, the past
      -- there would be silence
                            without it. 

Saturday, May 29, 2021

Haiku of Recovered Memories

Disco Rodeo, sure as parrots in Mexican restaurants 

The only certainties in life are death and chocolate

Thunder hunger: the forest is one eye

Be as kind to the dark ones as the streetlight is to the gutter

Long shadows of morning light, the entire world is black and white trying to change positions

Words of a different color

The green cello carries the wind through the glade

Friday, May 28, 2021

Mathematics of a Spring Afternoon

The poets are just too rational for us,
To bear so much memory, find in such chaos
Connectivity, and know the order is
Intrinsic, not made so by committee.

Too pure a pursuit of reason is madness,
For they no longer care enough to explain
How the wind and rain are one, why the birds
Sing notes at this moment, how it is music.

It is always a mistake, going up against
The anarchic spirit algorithm,
The social sanction of obedient belief
In defense of the individual, who no longer exists.

Thursday, May 27, 2021

An Acquaintance from Seattle

Reality is a fringe conspiracy theory,
An atonal free jazz trio
That captures the flux in its nakedness
And fractures the voices as they
Break on their way to relevance,
In textures impasto'ed one on another
In imitation of how it feels to be
Run over by what will never make sense.

Where are my friends? Where have they gone?
The echoes in place of my shoes
Who've been somewhere, thought things,
Waved hats as if they were kings,
Had encounters in alleys with history,
Got shanghai'ed by family,
Tried to let the city be
As they walked it with Horus eye.
There were many fine gradations --
Pale ales, slow curves, prog guitars --
And even finer degradations ...
I don't know where you are.
Was it only some common laughter?
Were we always so far away?
We had to disperse to these borders,
Uncertain if the country ahead is even real.

Wednesday, May 26, 2021

Pen Dragon and the Hedge

The age of reason is gone,
Violence has passed.

There's the heart now,
What's preserved.

But where is my heart
In these thorns and crannies?

Can there be comfort
In the unknown?

Tuesday, May 25, 2021

Half-Light in the Yard

The gladiolus blossomed in the night,
Crimson and purple, as the seed packs foretold,

But there was something inexplicable
In the sudden and uncontainable

Profusion, what we would call a miracle
If we hadn't been whipped too many times,

Enough to disregard the shapes of the grass, 
The path of the bees, the way light's held in the leaves.

We accept that there is an explanation 
Because we don't want to hear another one

And because our minds are so fragile
We are afraid of our own transparence.

The world was not physical once.
Night by night, it disappears.

Monday, May 24, 2021

Red Lettuce Day

Solomon may have split the baby but
There cannot be meaning
Without me ...
The sayer has so little standing 
Here,
The reader gets to decide everything 
Yet ... there is something said
Beyond what is picked up by ears,
Some leftover that can't defend itself
And lies exposed
To the years and the elements

And will wait it out 
Like Gary Cooper 
For an appropriate noon
That never existed 
Except as it was desired,
A showdown of sorts
Between opposing objects,
Both mute, both translucent
Except as they flare
With light
And wobble slightly.

Sunday, May 23, 2021

A Dream

The snaggletoothed rose of Snohomish County —
The stalks are green enough,
The roads appropriately rutted,
Views aplenty through the rotted slats
Of pioneer lean-to's and the brigades of rainbow Winnebagos.
Why's there edu-macation — for a job?

I have a job.
But is it an occupation?
My occupation is never a job.
Jobs are where you get shamed,
Pinched with red irons, fired.
I suppose it's that way here, too

Despite the pay cut,
The absurdity of replacing two legends,
The promises of freedom and how you never see how it's a lie,
Although you know, until it’s too late,
3 o'clock in the morning, to be precise,
Praying the familiar world will speak.

Friday, May 21, 2021

Scene from a Key Stealing

As if Zelda had to return to Alabama
Because the man who knocked her up
Cared more for alcohol than for her

And lived a life alone in shame 
Until you came along, a redemption at birth,
A pre-packaged world of your smile
     And endless curiosity

But you weren't one for words 
-- Those were found in books
You read in the trees --

The world you were a prophet of
     Was silent

Filled with bourbon and branch instead
And gracious laughter as the mansion collapsed
And every antique held a Civil War hero's spirit
And dolls and toys were as hard to find
      As wanton, well-read boys.

You made do -- 
The heaven they created of you
Became the perfect world you always saw,
And, seeing, was taken away from you

At a distance from your silence,
Where you were allowed to be alone
With whatever puzzle that was thrown at you
To celebrate the excellence they bred.

What was there for you to say ...

Except, today, you envy me?
My voice,
Strung finally together now
With knot after knot
Of your alienating touch.

Silence was my instrument too
As the landscape turned its noises,
And it's turning auburn now --
A scream develops in the sky.

I reach my mouth
And what can’t come out
Is pulled like forceps through my terror
From a prayer
Of surrender.

Thursday, May 20, 2021

The Fisherman

Money is the rot
Stinking up the dock
That soils the crisply tightened tacks,
The wafts of opulence across
     the endless pass.
And everyone must stand
Gimlet spritz in hand
To endure it — the fish —
Pretend that it belongs,
That it is loved and not
A momentary monster
     to recoil from.

There is another scent,
Bologna frying in a cast-iron pot,
The one who doesn't fit 
Yet stays there like a ferret
To become the rugged coast,
Dissolving house, the haunted ghost
In time — It is no one else 
But the outcasts who cling
To the place where they don't belong.
It means everything to them to fit in
When there is no common ground,
Just that pair of docksiders 
That have waited 40 years.
Two legs can only walk.

Tuesday, May 18, 2021

The Arugula Flowers

The arugula flowers leave the stem
Like children blowing to the wind
— Graduation in tears and celebration,
So small and fragile, but with such will!

My Father's Crime

If I could be so bold
And then hold back
                       hoping
For support 
     against the void —
My father's crime
     has become mine,
Not yet healed, been
                             seen

Why tell the truth as needed
     only to pull away in pain?
Pulling theirs in, the pauses,
                             the gestures,
       the scattered signs

Displeasure permeates
                        my mind,
            makes it want to
                       apologize 
For what? For being?
              For cowardice
                  or bravery?

The words do what they will
   still we shiver in the water
                                of our cells

Sunday, May 16, 2021

Charleston Antique Mall


The generations mesh so effortlessly
Though the representing people walk
So many miles away from each other;
Whatever it is they are examining 
Cannot be seen by the objective eye
Except to say, "Would you like us to
Hold that thought in the front to make it
Easier to pay?"

                             It comes out of the hand
Like a magic trick: Poison Ivy Barbie,
The Blue Sea Cookbook, the Archie's Greatest Hits.
There's L'll Abner glassware, vintage tongue depressors,
"Loading Up the Mandy Lee" sheet music, 
One can learn "The Love of Loons" or "Elizabeth
Taylor's  Love Affair with Jewelry," see 
A Cinderella slipper pincushion 
Under glass.


                                 There are books collected
Like the trash: The Brooks Reader, Confessions 
Of an Opium Eater, Collected Tales 
Of A.E. Coppard ... 

                                    And there are records:
Sonny and Cher In Case You're in Love,
Patsy Montana, Black Oak Arkansas, 
Dennis Day Sings Christmas is for the Family, 
Soundtracks of Pippin and Five Easy Pieces,
                                  And sound accessories: 
The Fleetwood Mac Rumours cover cocaine mirror,
An Up In Smoke Cheech and Chong lunchbox
And a "Jefferson Airplane Loves You" T ...


So much that was loved and discarded
Still fights for the eyes of the alive:
An Oscar the Grouch Talking Alarm Clock,
LA Lakers commemorative banjo,
Peanuts Chess, an elephant lamp,
A pristine bottle of Virginia Dare 
("The first lady of the land") soft drink,
Playbills for long-closed shows (Lovemusik),
Buttons for forgotten campaigns ("Symington 
For President"), Stieff cats, Moorcroft giraffes,
Mickey Mouse toasters and salt shaker roosters,
A White Flyer Laundry Soap grocery store sign ...

It's enough to give one hope
In some residual immortality
For a life that rushes away, like the sky,
So easily to grey, narrowing 
The moment to a pinhole crack
-- Tarkay prints, Black Oak Arkansas --
Only pleasure survives.

Saturday, May 15, 2021

For King

Go West Black Man
To Vegas and the Void,
Where your heart peeks through
The silver sun,
Far from the loaded gun
Pointed at you as the wrong man
At the wrong place and time
And a river away
From being pulled over again
For trying to make your way.

There is only the moment,
That's the plan,
But we can't see that fact
In our 2-dimensional world
On the film set of the strip
Before the lights turn on
And you are nothing more
Than a shadow needs to be
-- Almost, it seems, free,
Almost a part of who can
Only live because of you
-- Let's not soil the holy name,
Just know that we've forgotten
All about it, now that all there is
Is the way you look at us
Like the sun.

Wednesday, May 12, 2021

The Angers

The angers come
     From a too-solid world
That refuses to budge, 
     Mistakes turned to stone,
The fixing of one's martyrdom 
     Behind a secret deliberation.

The crows walk gingerly on stilleto heels.

The angers come
     From the vaprous world,
From nothing one can ever determine,
     A misheard imposition,
An arriving late to wait ...
     Leaving as inexplicably as it came.

It hasn't stopped raining since 1968.

The angers do not go away
     With the giant world against me,
There's no safe place to scream
     For what's left of conscience and reason
When all they ever learn
     Is be wary of my rage.

When the diaspora begins, the exiled turn pro.

Tuesday, May 11, 2021

In Search of Shakespeare: Schwartz, Berryman, Jarrell & Co.

I.

“What are Shakespeare’s themes? Melancholia, despair, distrust, sexual disgust, love versus duty, the mixture of the angel and the beast in man.” – Delmore Schwartz, November 17, 1946, in his journal

“It will be helpful if, while recalling as vividly as possible everything you have experienced of Shakespeare's work, you can put out of mind all that you have hitherto known of his character and life. You may know, for example, that Shakespeare was uneducated, his parents illiterate, that he matured very late after a long period in regard to which one guess is as good as another about what he was doing, that he commenced playwright by rewriting other men's plays, that Marlowe was his master, that he followed literary and theatrical fashions, that he did not deal with contemporary events, that he was indifferent to the fate of his work. These are fancies. Some may be true fancies, some false; I think most are false; but all are troublesome because they interfere with the reception of an image which has to be created slowly. At thirty men think reluctantly back over their lives, and we must try how far we can follow him.” – John Berryman, "Shakespeare at 30," 1953

“You often feel about something in Shakespeare that nobody ever said such a thing, but it's just the sort of thing people would say if they could is more real, in some sense, than what people do say. If you have given your imagination free rein, let things go as far as they want to go, the world they made for themselves while you watched can have, for you and later watchers, a spontaneous finality.” – Randall Jarrell, "On Preparing to Read Kipling," 1961

II.

Yes Shake-speare can be any kind of father figure you want, but what is lost by not attending to who he was and the concurrent “themes” he wrote about? Regicide, identity mistaken and otherwise, nobility vs. aristocracy, the abandonment of self in the passions of love, the interrelatedness of disparate strata of phenomena, the descent into madness as the old sureties collapse, the ability of the intellect to free itself from the physical world.

III.

The poets who would be doomed,
Picked for eminence in their youth,
Foolishly thought because they had lost their fathers
They had suffered enough.

It only made them sitting ducks
For fake patriarchs,
The vampires, who needed them
More than they needed …

Their imprimatur, their histories,
Their power in the ruthless arena
To protect their meek
As if they were holy

And worthy of the kingship
That was their legacy
When their own fathers
Chose to flee

-- They did not know Norfolk
To protect them from the fathers
And show them that they are
Alone!

They failed to learn
The times were dark,
That it wasn’t they who were
The black ones,

But something that could be transformed
By living within the hole,
Feeling all the ways
It would beat against one’s being,

And all the ways the mind
Can transmigrate
The fallen sphere
Through creation;

It is not a bulwark
Against the darkness,
But its radiant child
Rising on its own

Despite an empty stage,
A soliloquy kept to oneself,
The varieties of failure and alienation
One must cultivate

To be among
The elect,
The one’s we’d want
To live. 

Sunday, May 9, 2021

At Any Solid Place My Being Gives

At any solid place my being gives,
The dust of otherness fills up the room
As the humus dissolves — they are not dead
And I have never been myself alone,
But like crystals on a cliffside surface
As the stark sun brushes over it
There are far too many to recover,
Each unknown, unknowable — the shard of
Aeschylus, the glint of Harlowe, the glare
Of Bolden — as I am, in fact, unknown,
Despite the moments framed, the scenes replayed
From other summer operas, my life as
A dog, a treehouse fort, a baseball glove,
And all the remedial ghosts, in the winds
And in my friends, neither knowing which way
They would venture, as a knuckleball darts,
Without its own spin, between spinning worlds.

The stage has been set, with props and costumes,
An air of O'Neill waved over the lines,
And the audience knows what to expect
But ... yet ... it is always a surprise 
How the past speaks its insights to our times,
How our faces seem to replace  —  once shadow,
Now likeness — the greater ones immortalized,
Who have lived through every demolition,
Survived each rescission and revision,
And smiled like they were the children, not us,
Who guide machines we don't know how to work,
Never bothering to learn from the books
All the pieces of ourselves that we were,

Still we stood, beyond time, confident
Beyond measure, the gallantry of youth
Wearing ancient armor, and making up
Our battle cries, as we feigned our horses
Into a fantasized war that was always real.

Saturday, May 8, 2021

Last Afternoon on the Veranda

Under the pergola,
Clipper cigarettes,
The newly shaved shih-tzu 
Leaping at my waist,
They talked of hillbilly tweakers
On Twain, a Sicilian pizza parlor
Where their impossible daughter
Had found her baby's father 
In someone who'd always taken care of
His cotton shooter mom and chicken-flipping sister
And never knew what it was 
To get anything from anyone for himself.
It helped them to laugh, remembering 
How they set these curtains on fire,
Let friends embezzle the wine cellar,
Having to move back in again and again
In the basement witness protection program.

They had to drive the U-Haul from Vegas;
There's a shortage of them in California,
Everyone's leaving the state, like here,
Putting the old house up for sale.
Do we want a petunia in a pot?
A kumquat tree?
There are memories here
On this luminous porch
That will have to be snuffed out like a fire.

Friday, May 7, 2021

Verse Jesus Raises his Voice

Calls in the walls, like waiting friends
But everyone has left, in your wish to be alone.
There is no priestly hymn from the television screen,
The religion of apartheid won't make it in tonight.

A moth stays close, the moon is rising,
You have talked for eight hours straight,
Yet what is missing now, the listening,
Has washed the shards of light away

And there is much left, unspoken,
Not needing to be right, or real or heard.
It dreads the sense of something coming
As ideas and their noises tumble into form.

They fear that something will be said, that is to say,
They will be disappointed when it's not.

Thursday, May 6, 2021

Tales of the Sigil Keepers

"Their tales are full of sorcerers and ogres / Because their lives are ... we live / By trading another's sorrow for our own; another's / Impossibilities, still unbelieved in, for our own " - Randall Jarrell, born on this day in 1914

I have worn the regal gmail apron,
     The facebook tubal cain,
Signed the mysteries with my fingerings,
     Bowed before the graven
          Hidden in the currency.

So I look how the blood went from their hands
     To their mouths now with contempt;
Instead of pride at the unalloyed
     Victory of spirit,
           I am horrified

At those in sweet sleep who will not wake up, 
     Who know not what they do,
Those who we called then the headless chattel,
     Created
          To be consumed.

The story of my pain begins in media res,
     At the consequence I can't possibly
Remember, how it touches from its wire 
     Every fixture in the dead
          And luminous globe.

There are heroes, yes, and battles, of course,
     Journeys aplenty 
To slake your constant and insatiable thirst
     For darkness 
          Made visible,

But the plot's just to convince you of the lie
     We've not been bloodied, all of us, from birth,
Held tight to the wound that binds us, this strange
     Release, what we can't bear even to know
          Must, for now, suffice.

It's the only atonement available
     For what we have done:
Our forgiveness, which inevitably
     Must come
          As victim.

Wednesday, May 5, 2021

Another Difficult Conversation

Must everything be for Baphomet?
     Can we ever talk about it?
You who say it doesn't matter,
     The mechanics of life,
When you have to laugh and
     You have to die --

But these things you deem irrelevant today
     You worried about yesterday,
You feared for your future 
      And your family,
Yet the rationales have nothing now
      To do with your life,

It’s just an overzealous wind
      From the distance 
On an agreeable day,
       As you put what I say
In the category of individual
       And unimportant opinion

Because I don't serve Baphomet,
      Who you've never even heard of,
Preferring the opinions of the dark
       And hopeless minions
Because they are more interesting,
       Easier to disregard

Even as you do everything
       They command,
For you'll deign to be lectured
       By those who twist the truth
To keep you unsettled,
       Grasping for battle,

But the full truth, that should be enough
       To put you in the hospital,
Doesn't set you free, in fact it doesn’t 
       Even rate a comment,
For the devil you know is the only
       God you see --

What harm if you worship a lie?
        Even one that will crush your spirit
And laugh in your face
        At how stupid you can be?
"Ah well," you say, "it has nothing 
       To do with me,

"I am just like those others I can't 
       Take seriously.
What do I care if I'm evil
       If I'm good 
Or that I've given my good away
      In the end

"When I get nothing out of it?
     I am nothing anyway,
Why do you need me to have
     Some purpose in my life,
You who would have me
     Alive?"

Tuesday, May 4, 2021

Tinsel for Elizabeth

The lines are too long
     to be extraordinary.
They only take the ones
     who are equal in shame 
                    to the fame

— That's the way it has
                     always been.
Adolph Zukor pressed
                        the button.

The tourists can see all this
                in the script store
     on Hollywood and Vine
But it doesn't dissuade them
                in the slightest.

Sunday, May 2, 2021

Rationale for Silence

There is feigned aloneness 
     And there is the poem.
Dust motes in the Sunday sun
     Bring the only quiet
From shoedrops and shoes soon to drop
     In the other rooms.

Who can I talk to
     Except with you?
There are theories who you are,
     There are theories about me, too.
And, though nothing is real, somehow
     All I say is true.

I just can't let the day slip through
     Without surrendering to it, 
Even if it's only
     In a costumed note
That withholds more than includes,
     The slow and thrown away.

Is there anything at all
     You'd like to know?
Nothing is as it seems, and everything 
     Seems known already.
You are kind to let me repeat
     What has never been said.

There is something in that
     To make the stillness whole,
And make what is not
     Come out in the open,
Before the noise demands replies
     That will consume themselves.

Even the stubbornest puzzles
     Are eventually put away,
The cruelest understandings
     Will be buried in forgiveness.
What becomes of this
      That eludes each catch of love?

Is it just that it needs to live
     In the dark, without air?
For fear this thing will nullify
     Everyone who's out there
But me, and you, the complicit twin.
     The phantoms are that large.

The Vagaries of Pickleball

The girl at the pink dress age,
The wife at the doubles stage,

Four ducks are on top of the roof,
The one thing that matters is proof

Aka winning, such a tender shoot to weigh
Every iron of judgment away,

But in California they say nothing unkind.
The pain they feel is safe, turning inside the mind.