Monday, October 22, 2018

Elegies by Hölderlin: The Archipelago

Will the cranes return to you again, and the drift of ships
Comb again your shores? Will they breathe the desiderate
Air of your pacified tide, and watch dolphin backs,
Enticed from the deep, bask in the new light?
Does Ionia bloom? Is it time? For in the spring,
When the heart is refreshed in the living and the first
Love awakens and the people remember a golden age,
It always comes and greets you in your silence, elder!

Always, more colossal! Still you live and rest in your usual
Shadow of mountains; with the arms of youth you envelope
Your sweet arcadia still, and your daughters, O father!
All your islands are still full of flowers, none of them are lost.
Crete stands and Salamis turns green, at dawn the laurel blooms
Are lifted up by beams at the moment sun ascends and
Delos shows her luminous head, and Tenos and Chios
Have enough purple fruit to gush out of drunken hillsides
For the Cyprian drink, and from Kalauria falls
Silver creeks, as once, in the ancient waters of the father.
All are still alive, the heroine mothers, the islands
That flower from year to year, and if at times the abyss,
Releasing the flame of night, the nether thunderstorm,
Seized one of the lovely ones, and the dying sank into your lap,
You, divine spirit, you endured, for out of the dark
Depths comes something of you that is already perished.

Even the heavenly, the forces of the high, the quiet,
Of the clear day and the delicious slumber that brings
Intimations from far away into the heads of the sentient,
Out of the fullness of power, even they, the old friends
Who dwell, as once, with you — and often at dawning evening,
When the holy moonlight comes in from Asia's mountains
And the stars emerge to meet each other in their surge,
Shining with heavenly luster, so that, as they transmute,
The waters change for you, and the way of the brethren sounds
Above, their night song, inside of your loving bosom once more.
If then the all-transfiguring, the sun of the daytimes,
The child of the Orient, performs her miracles,
Then all the living can begin inside the golden dream
That the ancient poet prepares for them each morning,
To cast for you, the mourning god, another magic spell,
But her friendly light does not so fill you with happiness,
For she always weaves the wreath, the only sign of love
That you remember, around your silver hair, just like before.
And does the ether not surround you, and do they not, your
Heralds, sweep the clouds away with the gifts of the gods, the rays from
On high? Thus to be delivered over the countryside,
So the torrid shore rushes on with you, the trees sway in drunken
Thunder with you, their same wandering, meandering son, who soon,
As soon as the father calls, through a thousand serpentine brooks
Escapes, from the mad Maender to the Cayster plain
Towards your rejoicing, with the first born, and the elder ones,
For too long saved by hiding, and your majestic Nile
Surges high-whined from the distant mountains, like the sound of
          weapons
Triumphantly come, and reaches the arms of longing opening.

Still you think yourself lonely; in the silence of night
Your lament is heard by the stone, and flees from you often
To wail away from mortals on a wingéd wave to heaven.
Because the precious favorites never lived with you,
Who worshipped you, who once made stunning temples and cities
To wreathe your shores, and always searched and always missed,
For the wreath will always need its heroes, the consecrated ones
Glorified to eminence in the hearts of sensitive men.

Tell me, then, where is Athens? Above the urns of the masters
Is the most beloved of your cities, on the sacred shores,
In mourning for God, and collapsed completely into ashes,
Or is there still an indication from her that the skipper,
When he arrives, perhaps he will remember her and call?
In the columns that rose upward there, did nothing shine
Below but the figurines of God on castle rooftops?
Didn’t people’s voices, vociferous and wild, rustle
Through the agora, and rush away through the gateways of joy
Along the narrow lanes and down to the holiest of harbors?
Behold the distant reflection as the merchant loosens the ship,
Satisfied, for the wind and gods whistle to him as well,
He is loved, just like the poet, for he too is able to
Ameliorate the earth, and reconcile the distance.
He treks to faraway Cyprus, drifts far apart as Tyre,
In pursuit north via Colchis, and south to ancient Eygpt,
To the prizes of purple and wine and corn and fleece
For his own city, and, unflinching, he frequently sails
Beyond the Pillars of Hercules, to bless further islands,
Carried on his hopes and the ship's wings — at the same time, another
Lonelier young man on the shores of the city lingers, troubled by
An eavesdropped wave, and the great one punishes the sincere
As he sits at Poseidon’s feet, the earth-shaking master,
To listen, and it isn’t for free, the sea god’s teaching.

For the genius enemy, ever-extending Persia,
Who had tallied them for years, their weapons, the servants,
Who made fun of the Greeks and their few and tiny islands,
Until they seemed to the king a game, and, as in a dream,
Thought himself the sublime one, armed by the spirit of the gods.
He lightly gives the word, and, like a blazing mountain spring, stirs
An instant bubbling Etna that pours and spreads ferociously
To bury the cities in the flood of the crimson’s vivid blooms,
Until the holy sea has cooled the blistering stream,
And with the cities scorched and charred, the king now waves in the
          hordes
From Ecbatana to execute his noble plunder;
Woe, as Athena, the beautiful, falls; and the old people flee
From their apartments to struggle up the mountains, where they’re seen
          by
The beasts, who hear them scream for the smoking temples left behind;
But it wakes the holiness of ashes in the prayer of sons
For what is gone, when the valley is death, and the cloud of fire
Now fades away to heaven, and the harvest goes further within,
As the heat of Persia and her sacrilege of plunder moves on.

But on the shores of Salamis, O day on Salamis's shores!
The Athenians stand awaiting the end, the young girls and
The mothers, who carry the weight of rescued sons in their arms,
Listening, to the voice of the sea god echo up from the depths
Augurs of salvation, as the gods of the heavens look down
Balancing the weight of judgment, for there upon the trembling shores
A slow-encroaching storm has staggered in closer since dawn,
The battle, on the water’s foam, undetected in the fury,
And already the glare of noon is over the fighters’ heads.
But the men who rule the city, the grandchildren of heroes,
More clear-eyed now, think that they are the favorites of God,
Heirs of fortune, the children of Athena who’ve civilized
Her genius, and are no longer contemptuous of death.
For, as out of the smoke of blood, the animals transform at
Last, and rise as a noble force once more from the desert,
And the startled hunter now returns in the glitter of arms,
At the monarch’s command, for the ghastly task of stacking them
In the midst of ruins, one more overexertion of the soul.
And the insurrection begins; like men paired off wrestling,
The rebels back them onto their ships, the wheels tip as on the waves,
Floorboards break beneath their feet, and the sea force sinks with the
          ship.

But it was in a dizzy dream that the song of the day was sung;
The king rolls his eyes, maniacally smiles at the outcome,
He threatens, and begs, and seethes, and sends, like lightning, his
          messengers.
But he sends them in vain, for none ever return to him.
Instead the thunderous waves send back to this would-be avenger
Measureless bloody messengers, slain soldiers, and broken ships,
Before his throne, where he sits on the trembling shore, poor one,
Wanting to escape, and slip away into the retreating crowd,
To hurry, driven by God, and drive his errant squadron
Over the flood tides of God, who ridicules all his vain jewels
That were finally smashed, when the threat of his armor reached the
          weak.

But lovingly back to the stream that brought desolation
The people of Athens come home down the mountains in waves,
To mingle happily in the glitter of the crowd as they
Fill the abandoned valley, sadly, like an old mother,
Who only comes to life when her child, long considered lost,
Returns and she takes him to her breast, a young adult,
But in grief her soul has withered and delight arrives too late
For one exhausted of hope, who hears with difficulty
Whatever it was her loving son said to her in thanks:
That’s how their homeland appears to them when they return.
Because it is in vain the pious ask about their groves,
And never again will the victors be welcomed at the gate
That usually received the wanderer, when he from the islands
Joyously returned after he saw, shining from far away,
Mother Athena’s head, the blessed castle he longed for.
But they are all well aware of the obliterated streets
And the sorrow in the gardens all around the agora,
Where the pillars of the portico, where the divine images
Rest, collapsed, the soul was touched, and with the trust of the faithful,
Now the loving people join their hands once again together.
Soon a man, searching through the neighborhood, sees his own house
Under the rubble; a cry comes from his throat, his wife asks
Who dares commemorate a place of sleep, and the children
Ask about the table, where they usually sat in order,
Was it seen by the father, the god who smiled upon the house?
Though the people assemble a camp, the ancients shut it down,
Neighbors once again, and after the custom of the heart
The airy apartments organize themselves surrounding the hills.
So they can live there in the interim, like the free, the ancients,
They, confident indeed in the force of the coming days,
Like migratory birds, who bring their song from mountain to mountain
To draw out the lords of the forests and the far-murmuring streams.
But still mother earth envelops the faithful as always,
Her noble people again, and under Holy Heaven
The skies of youth rest gently in the leniency of old
As the sleepers drift, and through the Ilissus sycamores
They whisper across, and announce the future days to them,
Luring them to new deeds, the murmur of the sea god at night
Sounds from far away, sending happy dreams to the favorite ones.
Soon the flowers start to sprout and blossom, the golden ones,
Across the trampled field, attended by pious hands, and
The olive trees turn green, and on the fields of Colonus
The horses of Athens graze once again in realms of peace.

But mother earth and the god of the waves honor with blossoms
What the city is now, a stunning construction, the same star
On a sure foundation, the genius work, for fetters of love
Create it so, with pleasure, to uphold the great figures
That create themselves, and that stay forever occupied.
See how the creator serves the forest? And the other nearby
Mountains aid the hand of Pentelicus with marble and ores,
Alive just like him, and joyfully and gloriously
Join his hands, to light, like the sun, the success of the transaction.
Fountains arise and are guided in pure channels up over 
The hills, the lustrous basin overtaken by the source;
And within them glows, like the heroes of old festivals
At the common chalice, the apartments in rows, the town’s
Sacred, never extinguished fire, which soars through gymnasia
To form divine temples, a recklessly holy thought rose
To the ether, close to the immortals, the Olympians
Of the blessed grove; even to some of the heavenly halls!
For you, Mother Athena, you too, your magnificent hill
Grew, more proud to hold its blossom after grief, and so your
Favorites gather happily on the promontory to sing,
To the God of the waves and you, so often in their thanks.

Where are the pious now? What changed the children of fortune?
With their father’s home and day of destiny forgotten,
Do they wander Lethe yonder with no yearning to return?
Will my eyes never see them? On the thousand paths that run
Green through the earth, I will not ever find their godlike figures!
I the seeker never heard your speech, is that why you remain
In legend, because the soul that stays forever in mourning
Must flee before I’m able to descend into your shade?
Still I want to get closer to you, where your groves are still
Growing, where the lonely head of Parnassus shrouds the sacred
Mountain in clouds, and where in the dark of the shimmering oak
The wanderers met by Castalia’s prophetic source,
I will mingle my tears with the water from the blossom-scented
Shell, and germinate the green by pouring an offering
Over all you sleeping people, an offering to the dead.
There in the valley of silence, at Tempe’s hanging rocks,
I will live with you, and often call, by night, your dream-like name,
And when you appear to be offended, because the plow
Desecrates the graves, I will sing, with the full voice of the heart,
A pious song, to atone for the shadows that are sacred,
And live with you, until wholly accustomed to your soul.
Many of the more consecrated will question you, the dead,
You, the living, too, you honored workers of the heavens,
When you pass by over the wreckage, with all of your years,
You on the sure road, because the errant often seizes hold
My heart, under stars that are like lurid skies; that I look to
For advice, and they have not replied for a long, long time
On the groves for prophecy on Dodona, to comfort
The needy, for the Delphic god is silent, and the paths
Of long ago are barren, where once, guided by quiet hopes,
A man could rise to scrutinize the city’s honest sibyl.
But still today it speaks to people, far above the light
Interpreting the beautiful in full, the thunderer’s voice
Calls: Do you think it’s me? Or the soughful skreak of the sea gull
It clangs for: don’t you remember me as you did before?
For the heavenly ones like to rest in the feeling heart;
How else could they still escort the forces of inspiration
Ever with aspiring man, and over the homeland mountains
To live and rest with pleasure in the omnipresent ether,
And rule a loving people who’ve gathered in the father’s arms,
Happy to be human, with one common spirit to all.
But alas our race wanders in the night, to live, as in
Orcus, godless. Each in the drift of his own compulsion
They are forged in the roar of the deafening workshop, alone,
Listening only to themselves and laboring like beasts
With gargantuan arms, forever restless and ever
Fruitless, whose impoverishment, like the Furies, would never end.
For the soul of man to wake up from the frightening dream
And rise again in youthful joy, blessed by the messenger of
Love, as before, for the blossom of Hellas’ children,
To waft into the new age, over unrestricted brows,
Ourselves the spirit of nature, the wanderers from afar,
And the silence-dwelling god appear in golden clouds again.
Oh! And you hesitate still? When those who are born divinely
Live forever? O day! Still desolate, as on the rock
Bottom depths of the earth, while an unsung, everlasting
Spring still dawns above the unseeing heads of the sleeping?
But it won’t be long! Already I hear, far from the choir
Whose holiday songs echo through the grove and across the green
Mountains, where the young man's chest heaves, where the soul of the
          people
Brings the silence together in unbounded song, to honor
God, where the heights are valued, but valleys too are sacred;
For where the river bursts with the joy of cumulative youth,
Among country flowers, and where, on a sunny plateau,
Precious grain and tree fruit ripen, and the freely pious
Wreath the fortresses too, there, the city on the hill glistens
Within the human home, as the heavenly hall of joy.
For the whole of divine meaning has turned into living,
And the perfection, again, reappears to the children
Everywhere, O nature! And blessings, as from the mountain
Spring, trickle into the germinating soul of the people.
Then, then, O Athenian delights! The deeds of Spartans!
The ambrosial Grecian springtime! And when your autumn comes,
After you have ripened, your spirits running ever ahead
Of the world, return and behold, when completion is near,
The feast you too will receive on the last days of the year!
From there the people look on Hellas, crying and thankful
And humbled by the memories of that proud triumphal day!

But blossom in the meantime, ‘til our fruition begins,
Merely blossom, ye gardens of Ionia! And may green
Conceal the debris of Athenian grief to watching day!
Wreath with everlasting leaves, you laurel forests, the hills
Where your dead are buried, at Marathon there, where the boys
In victory died, and there on Chaeronea's fields
Where the last Athenians hurried with their weapons to escape
The disgraceful day, there, there from the summit of Oeta
Comes the daily lament of the destiny song, under the
Turning mountain waters and down to the valley of the war!
But you, immortal, though the Greeks no longer glorify
You in song, as sung before, across your waves, O sea god,
You sound more often within my soul, your fearless spirit comes
Strong over the waters, just like the swimmer, in the fresh
Success for which he’d practiced, and I begin to understand
The language of the gods, of fluctuation and becoming,
And when the age too violently ruptures, and the want
And perversion among mortals shatters my mortal life,
Let the silence still there in your depths be my remembrance.

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Der Archipelagus

Kehren die Kraniche wieder zu dir, und suchen zu deinen
Ufern wieder die Schiffe den Lauf? umatmen erwünschte
Lüfte dir die beruhigte Flut, und sonnet der Delphin,
Aus der Tiefe gelockt, am neuen Lichte den Rücken?
Blüht Ionien? ists die Zeit? denn immer im Frühling,
Wenn den Lebenden sich das Herz erneut und die erste
Liebe den Menschen erwacht und goldner Zeiten Erinnrung,
Komm ich zu dir und grüß in deiner Stille dich, Alter!

Immer, Gewaltiger! lebst du noch und ruhest im Schatten
Deiner Berge, wie sonst; mit Jünglingsarmen umfängst du
Noch dein liebliches Land, und deiner Töchter, o Vater!
Deiner Inseln ist noch, der blühenden, keine verloren.
Kreta steht und Salamis grünt, umdämmert von Lorbeern,
Rings von Strahlen umblüht, erhebt zur Stunde des Aufgangs
Delos ihr begeistertes Haupt, und Tenos und Chios
Haben der purpurnen Früchte genug, von trunkenen Hügeln
Quillt der Cypriertrank, und von Kalauria fallen
Silberne Bäche, wie einst, in die alten Wasser des Vaters.
Alle leben sie noch, die Heroenmütter, die Inseln,
Blühend von Jahr zu Jahr, und wenn zu Zeiten, vom Abgrund
Losgelassen, die Flamme der Nacht, das untre Gewitter,
Eine der holden ergriff, und die Sterbende dir in den Schoß sank,
Göttlicher! du, du dauertest aus, denn über den dunkeln
Tiefen ist manches schon dir auf und untergegangen.

Auch die Himmlischen, sie, die Kräfte der Höhe, die stillen,
Die den heiteren Tag und süßen Schlummer und Ahnung
Fernher bringen über das Haupt der fühlenden Menschen
Aus der Fülle der Macht, auch sie, die alten Gespielen,
Wohnen, wie einst, mit dir, und oft am dämmernden Abend,
Wenn von Asiens Bergen herein das heilige Mondlicht
Kömmt und die Sterne sich in deiner Woge begegnen,
Leuchtest du von himmlischem Glanz, und so, wie sie wandeln,
Wechseln die Wasser dir, es tönt die Weise der Brüder
Droben, ihr Nachtgesang, im liebenden Busen dir wieder.
Wenn die allverklärende dann, die Sonne des Tages,
Sie, des Orients Kind, die Wundertätige, da ist,
Dann die Lebenden all im goldenen Traume beginnen,
Den die Dichtende stets des Morgens ihnen bereitet,
Dir, dem trauernden Gott, dir sendet sie froheren Zauber,
Und ihr eigen freundliches Licht ist selber so schön nicht
Denn das Liebeszeichen, der Kranz, den immer, wie vormals,
Deiner gedenk, doch sie um die graue Locke dir windet.
Und umfängt der Aether dich nicht, und kehren die Wolken,
Deine Boten, von ihm mit dem Göttergeschenke, dem Strahle
Aus der Höhe dir nicht? dann sendest du über das Land sie,
Daß am heißen Gestad die gewittertrunkenen Wälder
Rauschen und wogen mit dir, daß bald, dem wandernden Sohn gleich,
Wenn der Vater ihn ruft, mit den tausend Bächen Mäander
Seinen Irren enteilt und aus der Ebne Kayster
Dir entgegenfrohlockt, und der Erstgeborne, der Alte,
Der zu lange sich barg, dein majestätischer Nil itzt
Hochherschreitend aus fernem Gebirg, wie im Klange der Waffen,
Siegreich kömmt, und die offenen Arme der sehnende reichet.

Dennoch einsam dünkest du dir; in schweigender Nacht hört
Deine Weheklage der Fels, und öfters entflieht dir
Zürnend von Sterblichen weg die geflügelte Woge zum Himmel.
Denn es leben mit dir die edlen Lieblinge nimmer,
Die dich geehrt, die einst mit den schönen Tempeln und Städten
Deine Gestade bekränzt, und immer suchen und missen,
Immer bedürfen ja, wie Heroen den Kranz, die geweihten
Elemente zum Ruhme das Herz der fühlenden Menschen.

Sage, wo ist Athen? ist über den Urnen der Meister
Deine Stadt, die geliebteste dir, an den heiligen Ufern,
Trauernder Gott! dir ganz in Asche zusammengesunken,
Oder ist noch ein Zeichen von ihr, daß etwa der Schiffer,
Wenn er vorüberkommt, sie nenn und ihrer gedenke?
Stiegen dort die Säulen empor und leuchteten dort nicht
Sonst vom Dache der Burg herab die Göttergestalten?
Rauschte dort die Stimme des Volks, die stürmischbewegte,
Aus der Agora nicht her, und eilten aus freudigen Pforten
Dort die Gassen dir nicht zu gesegnetem Hafen herunter?
Siehe! da löste sein Schiff der fernhinsinnende Kaufmann,
Froh, denn es wehet' auch ihm die beflügelnde Luft und die Götter
Liebten so, wie den Dichter, auch ihn, dieweil er die guten
Gaben der Erd ausglich und Fernes Nahem vereinte.
Fern nach Cypros ziehet er hin und ferne nach Tyros,
Strebt nach Kolchis hinauf und hinab zum alten Aegyptos,
Daß er Purpur und Wein und Korn und Vließe gewinne
Für die eigene Stadt, und öfters über des kühnen
Herkules Säulen hinaus, zu neuen seligen Inseln
Tragen die Hoffnungen ihn und des Schiffes Flügel, indessen
Anders bewegt, am Gestade der Stadt ein einsamer Jüngling
Weilt und die Woge belauscht, und Großes ahndet der Ernste,
Wenn er zu Füßen so des erderschütternden Meisters
Lauschet und sitzt, und nicht umsonst erzog ihn der Meergott.

Denn des Genius Feind, der vielgebietende Perse,
Jahrlang zählt' er sie schon, der Waffen Menge, der Knechte,
Spottend des griechischen Lands und seiner wenigen Inseln,
Und sie deuchten dem Herrscher ein Spiel, und noch, wie ein Traum,
          war
Ihm das innige Volk, vom Göttergeiste gerüstet.
Leicht aus spricht er das Wort und schnell, wie der flammende
          Bergquell,
Wenn er, furchtbar umher vom gärenden Aetna gegossen,
Städte begräbt in der purpurnen Flut und blühende Gärten,
Bis der brennende Strom im heiligen Meere sich kühlet,
So mit dem Könige nun, versengend, städteverwüstend,
Stürzt von Ekbatana daher sein prächtig Getümmel;
Weh! und Athene, die herrliche, fällt; wohl schauen und ringen
Vom Gebirg, wo das Wild ihr Geschrei hört, fliehende Greise
Nach den Wohnungen dort zurück und den rauchenden Tempeln;
Aber es weckt der Söhne Gebet die heilige Asche
Nun nicht mehr, im Tal ist der Tod, und die Wolke des Brandes
Schwindet am Himmel dahin, und weiter im Lande zu ernten,
Zieht, vom Frevel erhitzt, mit der Beute der Perse vorüber.

Aber an Salamis Ufern, o Tag an Salamis Ufern!
Harrend des Endes stehn die Athenerinnen, die Jungfraun,
Stehn die Mütter, wiegend im Arm das gerettete Söhnlein,
Aber den Horchenden schallt von Tiefen die Stimme des Meergotts
Heilweissagend herauf, es schauen die Götter des Himmels
Wägend und richtend herab, denn dort an den bebenden Ufern
Wankt seit Tagesbeginn, wie langsamwandelnd Gewitter,
Dort auf schäumenden Wassern die Schlacht, und es glühet der Mittag,
Unbemerket im Zorn, schon über dem Haupte den Kämpfern.
Aber die Männer des Volks, die Heroenenkel, sie walten
Helleren Auges jetzt, die Götterlieblinge denken
Des beschiedenen Glücks, es zähmen die Kinder Athenes
Ihren Genius, ihn, den todverachtenden, jetzt nicht.
Denn wie aus rauchendem Blut das Wild der Wüste noch einmal
Sich zuletzt verwandelt erhebt, der edleren Kraft gleich,
Und den Jäger erschröckt, kehrt jetzt im Glanze der Waffen,
Bei der Herrscher Gebot, furchtbargesammelt den Wilden,
Mitten im Untergang, die ermattete Seele noch einmal.
Und entbrannter beginnts; wie Paare ringender Männer
Fassen die Schiffe sich an, in die Woge taumelt das Steuer,
Unter den Streitern bricht der Boden, und Schiffer und Schiff sinkt.

Aber in schwindelnden Traum vom Liede des Tages gesungen,
Rollt der König den Blick; irrlächelnd über den Ausgang
Droht er, und fleht, und frohlockt, und sendet, wie Blitze, die Boten.
Doch er sendet umsonst, es kehret keiner ihm wieder.
Blutige Boten, Erschlagne des Heers, und berstende Schiffe,
Wirft die Rächerin ihm zahllos, die donnernde Woge,
Vor den Thron, wo er sitzt am bebenden Ufer, der Arme,
Schauend die Flucht, und fort in die fliehende Menge gerissen,
Eilt er, ihn treibt der Gott, es treibt sein irrend Geschwader
Über die Fluten der Gott, der spottend sein eitel Geschmeid ihm
Endlich zerschlug und den Schwachen erreicht' in der drohenden
          Rüstung.

Aber liebend zurück zum einsamharrenden Strome
Kommt der Athener Volk und von den Bergen der Heimat
Wogen, freudig gemischt, die glänzenden Scharen herunter
Ins verlassene Tal, ach! gleich der gealterten Mutter,
Wenn nach Jahren das Kind, das erlorengeachtete, wieder
Lebend ihr an die Brüste kehrt, ein erwachsener Jüngling,
Aber im Gram ist ihr die Seele gewelkt und die Freude
Kommt der hoffnungsmüden zu spät und mühsam vernimmt sie,
Was der liebende Sohn in seinem Danke geredet:
So erscheint den Kommenden dort der Boden der Heimat.
Denn es fragen umsonst nach ihren Hainen die Frommen,
Und die Sieger empfängt die freundliche Pforte nicht wieder,
Wie den Wanderer sonst sie empfing, wenn er froh von den Inseln
Wiederkehrt' und die selige Burg der Mutter Athene
Über sehnendem Haupt ihm fernherglänzend heraufging.
Aber wohl sind ihnen bekannt die verödeten Gassen
Und die trauernden Gärten umher und auf der Agora,
Wo des Portikus Säulen gestürzt und die göttlichen Bilder
Liegen, da reicht in der Seele bewegt, und der Treue sich freuend,
Jetzt das liebende Volk zum Bunde die Hände sich wieder.
Bald auch suchet und sieht den Ort des eigenen Hauses
Unter dem Schutt der Mann; ihm weint am Halse, der trauten
Schlummerstätte gedenk, sein Weib, es fragen die Kindlein
Nach dem Tische, wo sonst in lieblicher Reihe sie saßen,
Von den Vätern gesehn, den lächelnden Göttern des Hauses.
Aber Gezelte bauet das Volk, es schließen die alten
Nachbarn wieder sich an, und nach des Herzens Gewohnheit
Ordnen die luftigen Wohnungen sich umher an den Hügeln.
So indessen wohnen sie nun, wie die Freien, die Alten,
Die, der Stärke gewiß und dem kommenden Tage vertrauend,
Wandernden Vögeln gleich, mit Gesange von Berge zu Berg einst
Zogen, die Fürsten des Forsts und des weitumirrenden Stromes.
Doch umfängt noch, wie sonst, die Muttererde, die treue,
Wieder ihr edel Volk, und unter heiligem Himmel
Ruhen sie sanft, wenn milde, wie sonst, die Lüfte der Jugend
Um die Schlafenden wehn, und aus Platanen Ilissus
Ihnen herüberrauscht, und neue Tage verkündend,
Lockend zu neuen Taten, bei Nacht die Woge des Meergotts
Fernher tönt und fröhliche Träume den Lieblingen sendet.
Schon auch sprossen und blühn die Blumen mählich, die goldnen,
Auf zertretenem Feld, von frommen Händen gewartet,
Grünet der Ölbaum auf, und auf Kolonos Gefilden
Nähren friedlich, wie sonst, die Athenischen Rosse sich wieder.

Aber der Muttererd und dem Gott der Woge zu Ehren
Blühet die Stadt itzt auf, ein herrlich Gebild, dem Gestirn gleich
Sichergegründet, des Genius Werk, denn Fesseln der Liebe
Schafft er gerne sich so, so hält in großen Gestalten,
Die er selbst sich erbaut, der immerrege sich bleibend.
Sieh! und dem Schaffenden dienet der Wald, ihm reicht mit den andern
Bergen nahe zur Hand der Pentele Marmor und Erze,
Aber lebend, wie er, und froh und herrlich entquillt es
Seinen Händen, und leicht, wie der Sonne, gedeiht das Geschäft ihm.
Brunnen steigen empor und über die Hügel in reinen
Bahnen gelenkt, ereilt der Quell das glänzende Becken;
Und umher an ihnen erglänzt, gleich festlichen Helden
Am gemeinsamen Kelch, die Reihe der Wohnungen, hoch ragt
Der Prytanen Gemach, es stehn Gymnasien offen,
Göttertempel entstehn, ein heiligkühner Gedanke
Steigt, Unsterblichen nah, das Olympion auf in den Aether
Aus dem seligen Hain; noch manche der himmlischen Hallen!
Mutter Athene, dir auch, dir wuchs dein herrlicher Hügel
Stolzer aus der Trauer empor und blühte noch lange,
Gott der Wogen und dir, und deine Lieblinge sangen
Frohversammelt noch oft am Vorgebirge den Dank dir.

O die Kinder des Glücks, die frommen! wandeln sie fern nun
Bei den Vätern daheim, und der Schicksalstage vergessen,
Drüben am Lethestrom, und bringt kein Sehnen sie wieder?
Sieht mein Auge sie nie? ach! findet über den tausend
Pfaden der grünenden Erd, ihr göttergleichen Gestalten!
Euch das Suchende nie, und vernahm ich darum die Sprache,
Darum die Sage von euch, daß immertrauernd die Seele
Vor der Zeit mir hinab zu euern Schatten entfliehe?
Aber näher zu euch, wo eure Haine noch wachsen,
Wo sein einsames Haupt in Wolken der heilige Berg hüllt,
Zum Parnassos will ich, und wenn im Dunkel der Eiche
Schimmernd, mir Irrenden dort Kastalias Quelle begegnet,
Will ich, mit Tränen gemischt, aus blütenumdufteter Schale
Dort, auf keimendes Grün, das Wasser gießen, damit doch,
O ihr Schlafenden all! ein Totenopfer euch werde.
Dort im schweigenden Tal, an Tempes hangenden Felsen,
Will ich wohnen mit euch, dort oft, ihr herrlichen Namen!
Her euch rufen bei Nacht, und wenn ihr zürnend erscheinet,
Weil der Pflug die Gräber entweiht, mit der Stimme des Herzens
Will ich, mit frommem Gesang euch sühnen, heilige Schatten!
Bis zu leben mit euch, sich ganz die Seele gewöhnet.
Fragen wird der Geweihtere dann euch manches, ihr Toten!
Euch, ihr Lebenden auch, ihr hohen Kräfte des Himmels,
Wenn ihr über dem Schutt mit euren Jahren vorbeigeht,
Ihr in der sicheren Bahn! denn oft ergreifet das Irrsal
Unter den Sternen mir, wie schaurige Lüfte, den Busen,
Daß ich spähe nach Rat, und lang schon reden sie nimmer
Trost den Bedürftigen zu, die prophetischen Haine Dodonas,
Stumm ist der delphische Gott, und einsam liegen und öde
Längst die Pfade, wo einst, von Hoffnungen leise geleitet,
Fragend der Mann zur Stadt des redlichen Sehers heraufstieg.
Aber droben das Licht, es spricht noch heute zu Menschen,
Schöner Deutungen voll und des großen Donnerers Stimme
Ruft es: Denket ihr mein? und die trauernde Woge des Meergotts
Hallt es wider: Gedenkt ihr nimmer meiner, wie vormals?
Denn es ruhn die Himmlischen gern am fühlenden Herzen;
Immer, wie sonst, geleiten sie noch, die begeisternden Kräfte,
Gerne den strebenden Mann und über Bergen der Heimat
Ruht und waltet und lebt allgegenwärtig der Aether,
Daß ein liebendes Volk in des Vaters Armen gesammelt,
Menschlich freudig, wie sonst, und Ein Geist allen gemein sei.
Aber weh! es wandelt in Nacht, es wohnt, wie im Orkus,
Ohne Göttliches unser Geschlecht. Ans eigene Treiben
Sind sie geschmiedet allein, und sich in der tosenden Werkstatt
Höret jeglicher nur und viel arbeiten die Wilden
Mit gewaltigem Arm, rastlos, doch immer und immer
Unfruchtbar, wie die Furien, bleibt die Mühe der Armen.
Bis, erwacht vom ängstigen Traum, die Seele den Menschen
Aufgeht, jugendlich froh, und der Liebe segnender Othem
Wieder, wie vormals oft, bei Hellas blühenden Kindern,
Wehet in neuer Zeit und über freierer Stirne
Uns der Geist der Natur, der fernherwandelnde, wieder
Stilleweilend der Gott in goldnen Wolken erscheinet.
Ach! und säumest du noch? und jene, die Göttlichgebornen,
Wohnen immer, o Tag! noch als in Tiefen der Erde
Einsam unten, indes ein immerlebender Frühling
Unbesungen über dem Haupt den Schlafenden dämmert?
Aber länger nicht mehr! schon hör ich ferne des Festtags
Chorgesang auf grünem Gebirg und das Echo der Haine,
Wo der Jünglinge Brust sich hebt, wo die Seele des Volks sich
Stillvereint im freieren Lied, zur Ehre des Gottes,
Dem die Höhe gebührt, doch auch die Tale sind heilig;
Denn, wo fröhlich der Strom in wachsender Jugend hinauseilt,
Unter Blumen des Lands, und wo auf sonnigen Ebnen
Edles Korn und der Obstwald reift, da kränzen am Feste
Gerne die Frommen sich auch, und auf dem Hügel der Stadt glänzt,
Menschlicher Wohnung gleich, die himmlische Halle der Freude.
Denn voll göttlichen Sinns ist alles Leben geworden,
Und vollendend, wie sonst, erscheinst du wieder den Kindern
Überall, o Natur! und, wie vom Quellengebirg, rinnt
Segen von da und dort in die keimende Seele dem Volke.
Dann, dann, o ihr Freuden Athens! ihr Taten in Sparta!
Köstliche Frühlingszeit im Griechenlande! wenn unser
Herbst kömmt, wenn ihr gereift, ihr Geister alle der Vorwelt!
Wiederkehret und siehe! des Jahrs Vollendung ist nahe!
Dann erhalte das Fest auch euch, vergangene Tage!
Hin nach Hellas schaue das Volk, und weinend und dankend
Sänftige sich in Erinnerungen der stolze Triumphtag!

Aber blühet indes, bis unsre Früchte beginnen,
Blüht, ihr Gärten Ioniens! nur, und die an Athens Schutt
Grünen, ihr Holden! verbergt dem schauenden Tage die Trauer!
Kränzt mit ewigem Laub, ihr Lorbeerwälder! die Hügel
Eurer Toten umher, bei Marathon dort, wo die Knaben
Siegend starben, ach! dort auf Chäroneas Gefilden,
Wo mit den Waffen ins Blut die letzten Athener enteilten,
Fliehend vor dem Tage der Schmach, dort, dort von den Bergen
Klagt ins Schlachttal täglich herab, dort singet von Oetas
Gipfeln das Schicksalslied, ihr wandelnden Wasser, her unter!
Aber du, unsterblich, wenn auch der Griechengesang schon
Dich nicht feiert, wie sonst, aus deinen Wogen, o Meergott!
Töne mir in die Seele noch oft, daß über den Wassern
Furchtlosrege der Geist, dem Schwimmer gleich, in der Starken
Frischem Glücke sich üb, und die Göttersprache, das Wechseln
Und das Werden versteh, und wenn die reißende Zeit mir
Zu gewaltig das Haupt ergreift und die Not und das Irrsal
Unter Sterblichen mir mein sterblich Leben erschüttert,
Laß der Stille mich dann in deiner Tiefe gedenken.

Sunday, October 21, 2018

Beachgoers at Corona del Mar

The let go
       of the crystal,
The weight is too great
        to create space to hold
What needs to be,
        and what isn't.

The faces, each one of them, cries
        for justice to be fixed
In a world where boundaries
        don't exist
Except as breached frontiers;
         why do we care so little of
         our own needs
That we'd balance those of others?

He stares hard at the ocean
While the chaos of the beach
          flaps its restless fetters,
As if other people
          don't exist,
And the silver is the only thing
          that's real.

Another escapes
          down the crags of coast
Where the glossy mountains
          crash
To approximate the grace
          of solitary gulls,
Themselves escaped,
          from what they eye
Without a feeling
          of real safety,
The urge for oneness
          with everything
          on the other side.

One can hear the voices
          pleading to connect
Erased by the whisperings
          of surf.
The voices say
          "follow me, for once,"
But the sea replies "I lead,
          and you follow,"
As if that always will be
          destiny.

Saturday, October 20, 2018

The Surprise for Today

The palm trees still glisten, bobbing their quills.
The clear skies are silent and brilliant still.
The noises are rising again on the hill.
The crisscross of mist’s still frost on the lawn
After the karma has gone.

The dishes and pans in the sink don’t demand.
The toast tastes perfectly fine without jam.
In the tissues strewn there’s nothing to understand.
There’s no fear that the lights are still on
After the karma has gone.

Whatever has changed is easily disputed,
There’s no spark of light or smoky new hues,
The wind doesn’t seem to have yet moved through,
And the cabinet pictures have the same faces on
After the karma has gone.

But the needed words that never could be said
No longer need, after all, to be said,
And when you make the bed, your arms aren’t like lead
And you don’t care whether the drapes are drawn
After the karma has gone.

The doors can be opened or closed.
The scent could be lavender or rose.
In your closet they’re safe, your clothes.
Your brow pencil’s no longer out on loan
After the karma has gone.

When it finally broke, it was easy to walk away,
There was nothing left for you to do or to say,
Everyone just took their role in the play.
There was no one left to be wrong
After the karma has gone.

That swordplay called love is no longer needed.
Your painful advice is no longer heeded.
The silent treatment does not mean one’s mistreated.
The mind that was torn is now calm
Now that the karma is gone.

Thursday, October 18, 2018

Impressions of Blue Life

The steam still comes off
               the steel mill,
The sun still glints across
               the wire barbs,
But the asphalt lot is empty,
               roped off.

The battles that were fought here
               against the real
Needed to be fought more than the carnage
               needed to be saved,
Somehow, although it seems a total waste
               now, the scrap swept into piles.

Late sun will draw the eye to what was once
               a field of gold
Where children learned their needs
               could not be met
And dreams were to be chased elsewhere
               than the echoing walls of day.

A few still return, as the freight cars rest
               orange in the sunset,
To homes that haven’t changed
               and cars that they call vintage,
Where the verities play out the same
               though the rules are in another language.

Still, the pink sky on the baseball field
               stirs a feeling that’s unnameable,
Unaccounted for by the computer mind
               that orders their stray whims
To something interesting and hopeless,
               what won’t require a moon.

The cravings start at sundown for the children
               who don’t know why they can’t have what they want,
For they know how to make everything stop
               before the thing their parents never had.
A shiver goes down through the neighborhood
               that feels, but has no way to say.

As the Gods are picked off one by one,
               and the neighbor’s boy coughs blood,
And the new divisions ask for their donations
               as they march invisibly through the house,
And the logos shine in brilliant white across the city
               as before, as always.

With so much to remember and only so much
               they can forget,
One never knows the time the lights will turn off
               for the night,
But there’s comfort for them that there's everyone else
               as the covers come back down.

They dream of different things than they’ve been told,
               more real for being seen,
One of many things they’re not supposed to know
               but yet they do.
It all goes in that general word called God
               that sounds below the soil.

And they wake remembering nothing
               but they are safe and loved
And the light that shifts and dances
               can be followed.
They inherit all the things of the world without knowing,
               because they're strong enough to carry them off.

Wednesday, October 17, 2018

The Junkie in My Dream

Their shadows in the sun sway like spirits chafing.
It will seem so natural to them
To float away from their bodies,
And so funny to discover
There were no words that led to the truth here,
And easier still for them to let
All that seemed important go forever.

That face in the mirror with the dead eyes and pallor
Disappears after you've stared enough to make him real
And he turns like worm to butterfly into another saint to free,
And you lose interest soon enough
In the dull colors of this imagined world,
Its sculptures in the yard must give way always
To the light that looks at them as from above.

Monday, October 15, 2018

Desert Woman Redux

The thistle-strewn land to the side
Where the birds pick at stones
Seems inviting

I would go with my feet and converse
With the smoketree and ironwood

But the world on this side,
Of stucco and tile, would take
Whatever communion I had
Like parents take the adults
Their children had become away
On special occasions and holidays

So any walking I would do
Would be away

It was always the lack of the other one
That sent me into the arms
Of the desert woman

The spikes of ocotillo
That pray without asking
For supplication
Lack the quality of need
— We call it desire — for another,
To save and be saved

That’s why the chairs
Overlooking the mountains
Are always in pairs,
To see with changed eyes

The undifferentiated shrubs,
The arms like razors

Sunday, October 14, 2018

The Walk through the Slot

Anza Borrego SP

Unseen above, at every turn below
Are guardian faces, everywhere, watching,
And smaller faces embedded in the same stone
Observing at every bend and every fold,
Each one looking out, at us, who pass without seeing.
There are wise men on one ledge, kings on another,
Pious women with small solemn faces
And wild flaring dresses to hold it all inside,
And there are, everywhere, textural messages
From the water that has touched everything,
From primitive pictographs to folding
Stochastic permutations, all glorious curve
In one swirled wave from serpent water
And its keys to consciousness spiral, below
The council of deities, the ledge homes for fairies,
The towns of choiring elves, the poets and warriors
And priests as on display, almost two-dimensional,
Papery, leaning over the edge. The bugs and birds and reptiles
Who have joined are embossed also in the walls,
Like a book of pinned butterflies, amid the breasts and torsos
And other connections to what is sacred embedded in the stone,
Loops dancing like the play of egg and sperm, stick figure
Battles with arrows and skeletal funeral processions,
The cleaned skulls of sacred hoofed grazers,
Alligators, low frogs, high owls, whales in mid filter,
Kissing fish, masticating cows, grinning tigers, elephants
Caught by surprise, huddled sloths all eyes, a gorilla
Embracing a lamb with his Vedic three-point cap,
Buddha panda bears, bug-head aliens with bulging veins,
Cartoon ogres with lips distended, heads with multiple eyes,
Then the bridge overhead of no words
Opens to massive mathematical buildings
And towering cathedral spires in wizard robes,
Cliff homes with eyes for every bat and tiny creature,
And the towers get bigger and more circular
As the creatures turn to wolves and raptors,
The nestled cubes fit more painstakingly together
And, at the point where ape and human are melded
As one, raised roofs and turrets look down on
Gravel hillsides lined with stalks like little trees over the vista
Where the canyon opens, the rocks below broken like pottery,
With the imperfect, unfinished sculptures cast aside
And glazed with the drippings of pink mud.
A giant lizard lies at the top in the beating sun,
Around the bend, a giant lion, slightly golden,
And then come creatures beyond recognition,
And the inscriptions become equations of some unrecognizable truth.
Then the straight red lines of infinite guidance begin,
What has to stay at a distance, and there, on an island below
In the crispy glistening silt, people have stacked rocks in homage.
Then there is the final rise, behind hollow-eyed guardian dogs,
A pyramid that holds the sun, emptied like an instrument.
The cracks in the clay below are like something breathing.
And then, in a blink, comes the final gift, that the passageway
Is nothing but blank white stone.

Saturday, October 13, 2018

Return to the Desert

                                   Welcome, said rocks
And dead things to the living; they’re playing
That musical suite again, red on green
In a bronze key.

When the sunlight comes, the white brush
Emerges to meet it, the bared mountains
Shake off their dapples, the cholla hums
With its glow, the sagebrush is brushed
with translucence.

The clouds retain some of the night,
Some of the crystalline stars that hold
Their solidity long after the eyes are closed,
Now woven like threads across the light.

The many textures of sand take shape
As it's swept to the foreground with its
Swirls holding shadow like a trance.

Then the sun explodes across the landscape,
Exposing all the hieroglyphs
Dense with captured truth
That seem to fly from place to place
Instead of holding still forever,
But there it is.

The creosote branches, so seemingly
Wild and grey, turn thoughts
Like sages, with a hint of blue,
That turns the branches purple,
A glow that gives away that there’s
Too much to experience and to say.

Flash flood water is pouring down the hills
With gills, elephant brown and frothy as life,
Making the desert run, its tiny trail of silver,
Because it is the only thing that moves,
Can dominate the mighty granite mountains.
The foam splays onto the golden alluvial plain
Guided by the stones, who connect to all
That passed within the flow as it went over …

This gives way to jagged edges of salt
And a few trees gnarled with green, in full
Wind-tossed release, who stand like oracles,
Flecked with the thought of clouds, ignored
But wise in communion with the wise white stones
Humped up against the black wash of sky,
Holding to their shapes on the scrub hills

As the pockmarked, sunbaked metal rocks
Maintain their positions as well, on falling sides
That slide eternally downward and divided,
But the truth calls even if we don’t know
How it gets through the stone’s sheen
And cracked grandeur.

So many grey and white and black and brown
Essences lying around as if limp and helpless –
Though mountains jettison boulders over edges
When no longer needed, if we throw them it is
Because they not we decide.

The breeze makes everything easier,
This torture of the sun and its knowledge,
The prickliness of the leafless others
Sending out their nerves, all are soothed
By the greasewood odors, that reminds
How the desert keeps its secrets as it shares.

It wears the mien of the dead, but the tiniest
Things move, the glistening webs, the individual
Mesquite leaves, all of a piece of this symphony
Of sun and wind and water, collected in the
Water’s churn, as the desert poplar, also filled
With sun and wind and water, sings alongside
The stream, though so mingled with the sound
Its silence is what is heard.

The distance lies in turquoise,
And the clouds streak with mauve
At the end of the play of blue and grey,
The clouds so close to be so silent.

Thursday, October 11, 2018

The Man on the Park Bench

The sad silence,
The sad wanting to speak,
The sad inability to pull words out
To meet the meanings,
The sad knowing, in all you could say
No one would hear you anyway …

The only comfort:
That everyone’s alone,
And no one has a clue,
And nothing makes sense
If not misconstrued …

When we hold to each other
Because we don’t know what else to do
We learn all that we will know,
For there’s nothing in anything else
That can teach us.

Wednesday, October 10, 2018

The Moment Before the Trouble Begins

The urge for divulgation
Is almost as great as
The desire to not
Want to know.

Of this letter here,
Neat and perfumed,
My better angel goes
“Throw it away,”
For opening it will
Only draw out words
I can never say.

And those phone calls
Needing to be made
Will only skirt the silence
That hangs like a
Bottomless valley.

I so want to touch
What’s missing
With my hands
And to prove with my tongue
I know what’s unsaid
Inside your head.

But these are the things
That must stay elusive,
As they sit on the other side
Protected.

What they laugh and cry about
Will only draw you in
To an impenetrable mystery,
Like the flight of upward flocks,

But it’s one you carry with you,
Like the tune hummed by
The homeless man
As he rearranged the
Trash in the can,

A part you’re now on stage
To play with all your feeling,
But the only lines
You have to say
Are your own.

Tuesday, October 9, 2018

October Dawn

Memories burn
       a hole
only to live there
       and reappear
       in shudders,
when the eyes of
       what was
meet what is
       now.

The flux retains
      such grandeur
even after it's
      been stripped
      of all its jewels.
The forward road
     shows familiar pearls
whose shine makes
     the head
     spin in circles.


Monday, October 8, 2018

October Dusk

The moan of the evening dogs
Who missed the light again
Redeems some missing flicker
Of what never came between
So was not seen

The birds they seem to fly
Towards the disappearing sun
As if, like us, they’re learning
How to trust

The bluing of the trees
As sunset fails its explanation
Reminds us how
What might have been
Is somehow still to happen

Held in darkness
Like the lamps
That dawn at dusk
So hopeful of response

Sunday, October 7, 2018

Anniversary Poem

There is only what
              you are
As far as the eye
              can go

What need for heaven's
             theories now
As the sea moves through,
             completes me?

The mountains and trees
            have no secrets
When all of you is there
            to flow inside

There isn't a past
           without us
And the future is tangibly
           endless

Not like these sunsets
          that deliver
                 mere grace

And the silence
         that only brings wisdom

What is there
        is to be shared

Like a line
        of questions
Spread like ears
       across the sky

Divided from their answers
      as we are
              divided
      from each other:

To keep alive the ecstasy
      of merging
Again and again
     just like night
             turns to morning

And everything comes
    again

With your first
    look
            and touch
                    and word

Thursday, October 4, 2018

Apologia for Madness

I believe you
Even though I know you're lying

For your heart is broken in so many ways
How could the mind use its weapons?

Sometimes, to prove your light
You have to be taken by darkness

So that the whole world will darken
In order to die without meaning

Wednesday, October 3, 2018

The Drummers in Grand Park

Most of what I hear – are my own thoughts
As they softly ride the edges – of what comes – 
So quick to credit others – for their timbres and their beats
As I jam along beside them – in a generous communion
To find – when the hypnosis lifts – that I’ve missed everything
– What they said what not what I heard at all –
My argument never moved them from their tempo –
My sanctifying notes – never noticed in the din.

How strange then – how the world moves on
As if each forgotten hum – was pulled to some
Safe center where – it was shared – and understood
– And we are born again each moment – in the hope
That this new merging with the heart will fill – its moments
– And another will come soon enough – so that –
Eventually – after all the mergings – all the moments –
It will feel like you were never alone at all.

Tuesday, October 2, 2018

The Poet and the Evening Shreds

Today the clouds are real.
The imagination is freed.
When the mind's not compelled to disclose
It can follow what floats above it,
The uncanny gray and white shapes
As externalization of thoughts
Too radiant to contain.

They weigh down from the sky
To fill us with width
Like everything good and familiar,
But are unrecognized
Even as our own consciousness,
They are ceded to God
Or the fortuitous machinery of the heavens
As if the feelings inspired
By its developing pink
Are less of a response
Than the pink itself,
The quality of feeling
Captured for what? Our eyes?

Another day we fail to know ourselves
Descends into dark
Though we've come somewhat closer now,
Enough to earn another one tomorrow,
And the glow of unaccountable lavender
That persists in the slow October sunsets
Shows what we otherwise would never see;
It would be too sad for our sense of separation
To look at, what we could only,
Like our flaws and cracks, pass over,
A quality of mercy
For having pursued
The endless to its end,
With nothing but a glint
As compensation.
It disappears to gray
As if the mere hue gave too much away.

What comes to fill encroaching darkness:
All the figures that are seen,
Who don't exist.

Sunday, September 30, 2018

The Unwrote Poem

She became a poet to stalk me online.
That's what the mad do, they say.
She put in her verse what was erased in mine,
My "blind unkindnesses" and her gun firing lines
Before she falls to her divan to mourn the one
And true liar who tragically walked away
From his only shot at happiness ...

There'll be no self-reflection in this new game
Where disembodied phrases mean whatever pain
You choose in that woebegone moment to feel,
A voice from the bottom of a back nine well that says
"Save me" or "you're doomed" it's impossible to tell,
Like that song on that old record you always skipped before,
That makes the symphony around it sound meaningless now.

All the mistaken formulas for how to murder love;
Do you leave it to rot for the hounds? Stab a victory shot
In its weakest vein? Speak no ill of the living until they are safe
And buried? Or dress the would-be corpse again in the latest regalia?
The mystery roars on, as the bards with their pipes
Pontificate what might have been, under different conditions
Than the ones we're blessed or cursed to forget.

There are no words, there are no pictures
For the twisted postures of lovers trying to keep
The monster at bay and the compromised plans for the day,
There are only the words of the scorned —
Trying to explain to the court they're not wrong
When the only crime the jury wants deciphered
Is how the feeling of forever got away.

Saturday, September 29, 2018

Shooting at Pirate Tower

Mussel ledges in the swirl
As pony necks ride to shore
And sluices fill with juices that are
Pulled through arches back

Epiphany of moon spun melodies
That rush to greet each other in
Swollen crests of foam

The stone rolls down
Like kneaded bread
To the edges of the coast
From breezy promontories
Where the eye is filled with sea

The crash of luminescence
Splashing the silver glow of stone
Continues with its aching sheen to the sun’s
Elusive home

Brides and bathing beauties come
To stand in front of lenses
And hold their fronds and flowers
As if they are as ancient as these
Slowly yielding stones

Or at least this dying turret spit
Built to hold a moment
Forever to be captured
In its wake

By those who’d make their vicious mark
With blue and white umbrellas
To set perfection in perfected order
For the vague tastes of man

White flashes like a war zone
Before the ever-decaying phallus
Our correspondents claim conglomerate rocks
To hold the couples' love in endless
Effervescence

The seagulls sneer their squeals at me
As I scribble in their light
They know there is no harmony
On my side

Thursday, September 27, 2018

Silence Along the Boulevard

City trees with Christmas lights
And carved initial trunks
Are trimmed to fit in grates and streets
And frame sky thoroughfares …

Still they are as wild as country horses
The way they insinuate in the breeze,
The way their leaves take umbrage,
And how they lean into the scene

With a knowing nonchalance,
Bristling resistance
To the noise of roving question marks
Circling round some secret need

As the sun in dapples answers
And the thinking wind delivers
What can never be endured
As a breath, for their reply.

Wednesday, September 26, 2018

The Dream of No Meaning

The sun comes to pin us in vacancy
In wind's superfluous fluidity,
We are leaves catching street without care
To some inexplicable command.

To be free on a reef without consequence
Where empty shells rattle out beat,
And sensations turn moments to pleasure
Like an illicit dream, to savor

The magnificent impotence of being,
Where sad faces remain unprosecuted
And the pink trees are like nothing ever seen,
And it's still a secret what makes us laugh and sigh.

Not a place, though, that I can stay
As the clouds of my home appear in the sky
And the people I know refuse to accept
That I can't name what I can't bear to see.

Tuesday, September 25, 2018

Writing as Survival

I’m always on the other side –
It's all receipts, playbills, envelopes
To my two-dimensional eyes –
What everybody seems to understand
Is incomprehensible to me:
How rivals are one’s only friends,
Where human kindness ends and deals begin.
They come with clippers at whatever I am every day
Wearing a smile, bearing no explanation,
As if someone else knows so well
How I should grow, or how I offend,
They don’t have to even tell me.
It is all, as I said, on the other side,
The why – other people’s unfathomable needs
And the inarticulate desires beneath them,
What always wins, for it represents the great
Insatiable, every person who shares the planet, Each one denied, needing to be satisfied,
The divine voice inside long since silenced
To a life of compromise and shame.

From my side, I have given each one of them,
Out of pity, my heart. I’ve made their beds,
Made their meals, told them tales to make them
Feel a little less lonely, but they seemed to prefer
To see it in terms of the way they prefer it;
They dropped nickels on the sheets,
Sent the meals back cold, said of my stories
I was a liar, not to be trusted, as if the heart
That made me do all those things for them
Was wrong, so that I will try even harder
Next time, in the name of love, one of the mysteries,
That won’t explain how one can only find oneself
After they’ve given all they are away,
Or why the value of things is in how they’re wasted,
Or how the cosmic dice that rolled these pairs
Relies on you to play them.

Monday, September 24, 2018

The Second Half of the Year

The full moon of letting go
Must be as heavy as a medicine ball
To hold the swollen mind.

It can’t even shine through the clouds
Spun in a macabre glow.

The gourds on the vine
Seemingly so ripe
Are the hardest things to free.

Sunday, September 23, 2018

The Pigeons of Laguna Beach

The royalty are out in force,
Pontificating like pontiffs
To the pigeons in the trees
And to anyone who doesn’t look away.

They have no parking space to tend
But they’ll take the dimes and quarters
Off your hands. They do not follow orders
Like those hilltop mansion owners
For a view of this last wilderness of water.
And they don’t have to share their ice cream cones
With children or with dogs. They are free
To harangue their way to fame
Like that local hero on the statue,
Who showed everyone that they were wrong
With the force of his incorrigible hair.

The families at the crest of the beautiful
Translucence, the ocean’s endless rhythm of grace,
Who pick at each other like seagulls stab entrails
Look at the way they stagger diagonally
Or sleep without shame on the sidewalk
And pretend to be thankful, for the family meal,
The shared sun, the seat by the sea,
But there’s a hidden envy
Of those beyond judgment,
Who lord over the sand with their
Red robes and Mardi Gras jewelry
As they teeter on the edge of invisibility,
Like any other king or queen at the inconvenient secret,
That these grounds we walk on are not really God’s
But their own.

Saturday, September 22, 2018

Crack of Fall

The illusion of physical reality
Flits above the razor grass,
As eucalyptus and bamboo
Swirl in empyrean calm.
Toads cry from the sky,
Lizards disappear,
The tree leaves shake like coins.

Soon in lapping flames of wind
Shadows dislodge from shapes
To shiver away the dust
Of what is seen, and sweep
The residue of being
In an endless empty echoing
Where everything becomes more clear
As it disappears.

Then we are left with
The quiet of the swaying trees
And, slowly, the real is revealed.