The gaslight is not real
-- people say --
but they can't really know
if saying "you've taken my soul"
saves or loses it.
I'd like to think
there was a voice
you stole from me;
your total lack of honesty
let me believe
quite indulgently.
But now I know
there was no you
only me --
even loneliness was feigned,
it took every piece of
the city of lies I built
to fool myself.
Your gift of nothingness
I thought was life itself.
