Thursday, August 7, 2025

Last Boat to Avalon

The reality I had agreed to
Lasted til I fell asleep, 
When everything happened, the lack of forms 
No detriment at all,

Like I was falling into the world 
That only made sense in the swirl
At its creation, in the crystal ball
Equipped with every teardrop.

Am I ready to make it whole, 
By seeing it as it is at last
Not as facets to be mined 
But one universe to another?

The disclosure
We've all been waiting for 
Comes out of the earth instead,
For we hum at its frequency.

I sip my amethyst stone, 
Glow rose with light.
AI flies vector my location:
Calm heart, joyous mind. 

It seems that little boat
Has been adrift for centuries,
Locked against the winds and grey,
Spilling out its echo of effort

To every void in its motorboat vibration
As it asks to have a voice, for safety
When it plumbs the sheer nerve
Of cliffs perceived as mute, not silent.

There's no need anymore
For the boat to wind around
This or any other magnetic aura
Hoping to be magnified.

It will tell us now
Anything we want to know,
Though every secret it unhooks from the stars
Was known to us before, as who we are.

Saturday, August 2, 2025

Summer Purging with Ground Squirrels

The squirrels are jubilant today
After I learned their secret:
Know everything, but only chase
Seeds you can reach.

One hung high from the tree
So I could see him, waving his
Fat belly, no longer taunting
But cheering me.

They are welcoming at the ranch, too,
Cocked tails in dust formation
Into the ice plants, to gleefully reveal
Their special portals inside.

It's not a trick if you've figured it out;
Disappearance is only magic
When you think that they exist.
And now we're part of a brotherhood,

Where facts are like nuts, easily cracked
And hoarded, but better to discern
And hide. Authenticity comes
From staying so selfish

You recognize you've been lied to
For basically your life, and you are
The only creator being, in the blur 
Designed to hook your eye like a crow.

Maybe there are no nuts at all
Except to be buried, for show,
As a symbol, to help things grow.
It was always the knowing that mattered 

And equally the letting go,
Like a flying machine locked in plastic
With indecipherable directions — how can you
Even clean it up off the floor?

They run away, those squirrels,
From all of their messes, if only
To show us how to live
In endless discovery.

Brio does that too,
Eating his grain like a 2-year old
Letting it fly, but nuzzling some back
When his bowl is empty.

He is stopped by the dust
Rising like vapor over his white socks.
Until that's gone, his dry lips seem
To say, all is lost.

Wednesday, July 30, 2025

Sad Eyes of the Ranch Hand

The sad horse clown throws his head at your face
Then lifts a fart to your nose as you brush him.
It's a joke, see, but he has that look, like a 
Silent movie sad clown horse, everything
Is funny, he cries, or can be laughed at.
It should be, anyway. For otherwise
The tears would fill the valley, and none of us
Could survive his sad eyes.

                                                   But all he wants
Is an audience, someone who understands
What it is to stand in late afternoon sun
When all the browns turn to red, and the dirt
Freshly wet must be galloped, but there is
A lingering thought that makes me perhaps
Identify too strongly with his eyes
As I think of a certain ranch owner
From my past

                          And his miles of unspoiled
Wilderness near Arvin, Tehachapi,
To corral cattle in flies for slaughter
And accumulate foxtail shrapnel while
Shooting squirrels, and the barrel-of-fish pond
He about broke the bank on, to keep it from 
The interests of wilderness, its rumors
Of condors.

                      Not like here, where the sacred
Lives everywhere, above every shadow,
Because we can breathe with it, a chi-filled
Higher density breath, and see how the sun
Merely reveals everything is beauty,
Expertly arranged to show us ourselves,
In incremental symbols, like the brush
As the sun brushes by.

                                         Then the mirror
Of Brio's doppelganger alone in the arena,
The same sad eyes, restless tail, but maybe
He doesn't notice, and maybe we don't
Need to think anything about it but
It is a noticing, like all the wax
Of all the leaves overhang in a bow
Of remembrance.

                                The doublewide that's dropped
Here on the hill was given to the guy
Who worked this ranch for 40 years, who framed it
With tiny flowers and giant cactus
While the other doublewide sits empty,
Green rugs and aluminum TV trays,
Testament to a golden age, that was
Never built as sold, it was never 
As conceived.

                          The hunted bucks in the mansion
On the hill were all bought at least in town,
And the bar tab at the country club
May have spared a couple jobs, a lot of 
Two dollar bills circulated the county,
And he paid enough so that many will speak
Of him kindly, if they speak of him 
At all.

             It is natural, here, no one needs
Permission to talk, or any hindrance,
No head stall and bit, though sad eyes always
Remember it. Even the oak trees taste
Of freedom, the one thing dear Mother Earth
Wants us to have.

                                The man's head's big enough
To fill the hat, as he spends his loose weight
On his own braggadocio, on his own
Pain. Cry a river, or leave him there
High and dry — it no longer concerns me. 
What's hard is yielding up those sad eyes with
The poker face, no longer a bluff to call,
Sincerely wishing him to win it all. 

Monday, July 28, 2025

The Question of Why the Heavens Parted

Nature and I get along now.
The chickadee at the top of the tree
Is so close
In golden green light.

The rabbit zags
Beside me, content
As no houserabbit would be, with my
Proximity, my eager looking.

The squirrel beeps
The moment I say his name
In the context of a Prairie Dog card
Pulled like magic from the prophesying air.

The birds chirr now as they're bidden
By the dragon frequency that now inhabits me,
A call and response continually 
Recorded by the stars.

It's now available, as if I'm a teenager
Given the key, to nature, power to drive
Along the endless ridges as
The truth peels away every layer.

You savor the process, the marking of time
By the sun, the return of the crows
To sound the alarm of their day's news,
Which never amounts to anything but

It gets the finches to report 
In their sweet staccato 
Song hopes for the peace
That most clearly is.

Champagne-dappled King, golden in the gold
Sun's gravy, is the biggest draft horse,
Surfer handsome, but too sweet to lead,
To put his hoof on the scale.

One shouldn't have to do that, to be,
As Captain attests. Even grazing he is elegant, 
So cool the three brothers, Friesian curlies all,
Stare me away.

Everyone is equal, to be, who you are,
Even if that isn't what you were supposed to
Become, but you tried on that bridle
You were never intended to wear

And the world changed in its motion.
It only took freedom — the whole time —
To know you are alive, in the breast of nature
Never having to be anything but what you are

Exactly, and exactly is how you fit
In the tapestry where the records are kept
Although everyone in range
By this time knows it all. 

Friday, July 25, 2025

Kirk Reaches for a Note

"So he wants to tell you what to do
And when to do it, but that is not
The way it goes," said one smiling
Horsewoman to another, as they smoothed out
The sense of freedom allowed
Under the bluest of skies.

The horse wants desperately to be led
But he most assuredly won't take direction,
So the dance goes on, as it always does
Even on the Day Outside of Time,
The neutral threshold, between who I am
And who I will be

Where I finally received my rhythm section,
Saturn and Uranus — a boy and a girl —
To accompany me, and squeegee 
Pandora's Window so no light gets dusted.
There is no dust tonight.
Even the tree bark is blinding.

The crows take pains to complain
About the rock n' roll I play, that is
To say, they dig it perhaps too much.
There are other songs their craws reach for
In the light that makes them translucent,
Places more authentic and more whole

Not those of the barroom-bound blues hound
Flexing his string finger, but the loftier curls
Of finding not losing the harmonics,
Not the wrench out of experience's sweetness
But the gathering of codes, through petals falling
In sunlight to your fingers —

Who you are is not in being abandoned
But in living on, in spite of the bass
That ever-mournfully turns you down.
Any bird can play the mouth harp,
Feel the pain of being lined up
For release

But how can the notes lift higher
Than the dust beneath the angels?
The copper cowbells help to hypnotise
The horse, put him in a trance, so that
His stride stays on the higher road,
Nothing but a blank sheet of blue to interfere

With the call to be who he is,
No longer irascible or resistant
But cantering with the carousel horses 
In the sky, towards what is to be,
What he envisions
As the frequency agrees.

Confident now that nothing is missing,
There is no separation from source,
Not the slightest pause
Before acting as a God
With all the angels 
As his personal choir

To egg him on continually
With all the questions and concerns
Careful love throws over one
Like a warm blanket
On the cool
High road

Where the figure, to others
Cannot really be said to be real,
Just a dream in a matrix no longer glitching
But moving forward freely,
Not even forgetting,
The fleeting present is that strong.

Wednesday, July 23, 2025

Sunset Birds Over Kelvin

The crows have been angry with me today,
I tried to escape from myself once
And they cawed "You are not supposed 
To be here." The second time they stopped me
In mid-flight, to invite me to consider
The vast door they stood before
That could now be opened.

It wasn't the truth after all
That matched the gold
But forgiveness of my own need to hold it, 
In whatever form it presents itself, shifty 
Leprechaun to unstoppable shift, the floors 
Becoming crystalline, the air viewable 
As it would be to a fish.

Whatever you make becomes the truth
And there's only the thinnest thread now
Between desire and manifestation.
The world can exist separate from this,
On another hillside, where other oaks shimmy.
In this one, the silence is all-consuming — 
Every word becomes true.

Monday, July 21, 2025

Disclosure in Barking Sands

Tulsi has the tenacity of an oak,
Characteristic of her breed,
In her case feline starseed

Delivered with her white seer
Forelock to Kauai, where I am from,
The base where the alarm first went off

And the cane workers mercifully died
Instead of being able to run for cover,
Instead of any truth allowed at all.

And now we have reached the point
In the heroine's journey
Where the prophecies come true.

The pods in the shells shake furiously.
The caves are cleared and open for tours,
There won't be a need for me anymore

To decipher in a second with the iron in my hair 
Standing on end the ones with kingdom come
Explosives from the ones you can hide in,

Like the mountain lion hides in these oaks
Willing to do what is necessary
To earn the hard things:

Sustenance, shelter, the wisdom of the ages
That refuses to budge. 
Some birds fly up. Brio notices,

The other horses stir up dust
And ripple their necks, but they sense
The hidden danger only vaguely.

There's always a skirmish on the ground,
Always deer that can't be seen, the crying
Always mingles love and trepidation,

The thing that turns love into a true-badour song
That learns to live with its longing
Without its courtly home

But the oak roots hold the rocks in mounds
Like they were weapons, best deployed
In their wisdom not their release.

The turn of the evening brings shadows
To different locations, and the world moves on
With barely a dawning of what happened

To the Seth Rich flag in heaven,
The Racheal Chandler brave things said,
The Epstein Epicenter and its hunters already hunted.

She flings a rock in a sling, but it's for practice,
Not even for show. The target remains,
Always Diana to remind us

That what is taken down metes out justice.
The century plant is ready to bloom.
Julian Assange the white rabbit hops through time.

The land of water and fire has merged 
To Arcturus gateway violet. Now evening violet
Smooths the mountain with quiet,

Birds go on as before, raptors from other planets
Just to make sure
We're okay.

Sunday, July 20, 2025

Sunday Primitives in Baskets

Brio chiseled me for some grain
Navajo looked on outraged

But the day resolved
In delightful thoughts

That rose from Laguna Canyon
From happy beachcombers

And art connoisseurs 
Brio too

Free at last
From his stall

As the crows sweep
A rare flyover

When we remember
It's love and love alone

That has risen
In this vapour

To some freedom
Of becoming

Looping below
The dome of blue

That sharpens
Our experience

For the trees
To absorb 

And fungi to
Illuminate our feet

As we ascend
Vulture View

With our food
Of life lived

The vegan ice cream
From The Flats 

The habibi by the ghost
Of the cylinder press

The grasses hungrily
Stalk our energy

As the sultry breeze
Releases it

From our realm
So the new can come

Because now
We are open

To what was
Already there

In the curvature
Of the canyon

The rainbow
Witch wind

That only ever mirrored
What we made it

There is nothing there but
What we already believe

The illusion that we carry
Like a touchstone

Illusion is the only thing
You need

The last resort
Of the free

There were NASA uniforms
For all the little ones

And addressographs
In the Army Navy store

The mustard grass
Vibrates it all

In endless turn
Of response each choice

To sample 'til you've tasted
Every flavor

All valid 
All consuming

And interchangeable
At our will

Wednesday, July 16, 2025

Choosing a Stone

Even the robostrobe throws smoke back at first, until you know
What questions to ask. Same with the stones, who clam up
Until you let their wisdom approach, going sunwise
From the west, until it gets to know you, says “hi,”
The stone that will hold your own frequency, the only
Reliable witness, to the shape of our rage, our will
They re-ranged into the forms of the Kronos realm
Out of the war between fire and water in our heads,
As the foundation of our solar temple, for our choice 
To be material. They hold our bones, known beyond time, 
In sediment archive.

                                                The Druid bards used to
Sound them with a stick, off trees picked like cymbals
In a Zildjian shop, for the pulse, and played like Charlie 
When he swung back the roll of the thundering Stones. That’s where 
The poems came from, as they were given back only to song stones
Like Merlyn gave Excalibur back to Mnemosyne.

That’s why monarch crowns were assiduously combed
For symbol in crystal  – the people forebore nothing less
Than the silence of the ages they possessed, to confer
God’s authority, the voice of authenticity before they took away
The bells, when we could cry through dolmen portals to acquire
What came before, like unlocked sluice gates of the land, whose wisdom
Waits inside, drawing light down from the stars.

                                                                               But they do so for a price:
We had to hear heaven enough to hear the earth. Open enough to ring
Like the bells that brought on our doom once. Innocent enough
To go on. And so I put on myself the druid hoodie, in impossible quest
To recover silence, listen for once in the Anthropocene to the earth
As she cries to be freed from her stillness, like she’s been in our game
Of musical chairs too long, as the agreed-upon rules are breaking, now,
Becoming news. There’s no reason now the branches
Can’t be waves, expanding with each gustatory gesture,
For no other reason than creation is endless, and everything
Is known, who they are, what they represent.

                                                          The earth won’t wait, the age calls out,
And the dragon spiral stirs the nest and calls for more ridiculous druids
To trudge up the mountainsides like goats, to be chosen by stones and
Attune to the subtlety of how to convey peacefully the memory held
Intact in the ruin like runes, and unlock ancient permanences
Only we know what to do with. Our healing wand would blind with light
All unexamined pockets, as mirrors in a common crystal hit by sun
Echo the sound of the other world, the one beyond the cup-stone
And slate mirrors for scrying. 

                                                      We are asked to walk again the sage road,
Wearing our crown lotus crystal, the one modeled for kings, inside, 
To cast a magic circle in the portal between worlds. They knew 
All along, the old seers, that what they would do would be gone,
But also knew the stones could be trusted, the bards
Who didn’t write anything down, sharing only with the stone kingdom.

They've come down the mountain in invisible streams, nuggets
Everywhere, of golden wisdom, with no worry of any one calling,
They all are! But few yield permission to move them, much less
Consecrate a meeting. Without proper groundwork, people get hurt
As the horse gets too reactive, so the would-be druid must be
Hollow enough, to think, as pure extension of perception,
To follow a trail without breadcrumb or motive.

                                                                                        The whip cracks,
The crow caws, and the blue sky glows with all I need to know,
My twitching hands that sense water, and the meadowlark's report
Of the way to the ley line. "Will you be responsible on the trail,
Are you sure?" You must ask the horse, before going up the ridge.
As his hoof kicks up pebbles, the stones start to hum in my heart.
The mythical mountain lion becomes real in this echo, one must be
Careful to put the earth before everything else, and the earth says
"There must be some spot that only you know." There the rocks 
Will congregate, further up the hill, before the turning back
In hearkenings of other ranches, where the poop smells too human.

The stones kindly slough me off, but where the trails cross
There's a round one, who almost imperceptibly calls. I do the dervish
Dance in full late light, still incredulous I'd find the one
In a stone universe of suitors, but it said "there's a world I can
Show you," and in that delicate blend of trust and knowing
I grabbed it, not like a Tevis Cup, but close. And in that moment
As the black stones turned translucent, every other one was
Closed off, to help me, in my ignorance. All rocks, like all
Sentient beings, hurl towards the one.

                                                                       Mine was embossed
With a universe of stars, like an unfamiliar map that turns
With jeweler's drill discernment into an all-encompassing,
Deeply personal truth that sparkles in every heavenly zone,
As its very weight of geometry makes it sing, in the ever-ravenous 
Belly of the universe. It wants, turns out, the same thing as me, 
To fly, it shares easily, like we were drinking Guinness Stout, 
And the million times it was skimmed into the ripples of the sea
Comes back for review, first as tragedy, then laughter, then the succor 
Of knowing more can be shared, at other sundowns 
Where the waiting burns to be told, in the same fire 
That moved it here, from some ember of eccentricity, 
Some sliver of diversion from the circle. 

                                                                           The cactus holds its own,
As before, the flowers time their blooms as always for the birds,
Who worship the sun, who follows our cues, as the horse
Follows me to what becomes real only by moving through it.
The hills shake off their flannel. Only this moment is permanent.
It has affixed the rock to my hand, for the meditative mind
To tune the fork, and when it's silent, begin again.

Sunday, July 13, 2025

The Sight of Butterflies, Without a Net

Uhaul has a broom up his ass today.
"Amber went all Orange County on me
With her Wellesley knee-patch breeches
Putting the Hanoverians in dressage formations 
Like they were falcons. She'll scare the boarders, 
This is no 3-day eventing, This is America! 
It's like she owns the very air."

Left unsaid are her ten client horses
That she'll surely take with her shortly
When she vacates his pasture. But with his
Stylish vape pen and cell phone holster,
He's less concerned about the further thinning 
Of his livery yard than the effect on other horses
Of going cuckoo on a floating trot. 

This always happens when ownership changes, 
Horsefolk don't want rearrangements
And are content to leave the familiar entirely 
Than yield to change. There are a lot of people like that 
Now, who howl at the ground they've always defended
With renewed hatred and vengeance, to stall that same 
Feeling about themselves

But the ground has collapsed, to help them know how
To rise, but few do, they double down instead 
Their snorting and their rearing, their belief in
An illusion they refuse to unsee.
The horses here are the same way, reeling
From each emptied stall as if their fellow stabled
Was escorted at midnight to death row

But it's always that way with a new owner, they change things 
For the better, but the yellow police tape spread across 
The meadow saddens Brio, like the distant high-tension wires
Saddened Frank Lloyd Wright at Taliesin. He can't see the plans 
That will bring him more grass, an English-sized arena, and more
Room to graze in the face of this yellow optical maze
That vibrates like no mustard he'd ever seen.

New boarders always come to embrace the privilege of
A new thing, and a new coin is soon deposited in
The abundance bank. But the jury is out on who will stand 
The test of flow, the raging river of the solar flares 
And unlocked Vatican vaults. I too am oversensitized,
To how the wind blows the caution tape like reins, and how
The hooves and shoes on the trail form shadows, 

But it's peaceful, in this moment, and swollen with gold, 
Even the dust swells the coffers of the heart, that grows
Like the sun in generosity -- but there's no word
In the silence which trail to take, or what to say
To anyone not in heaven, but one sees down 
With more trepidation, for there's more work 
Within to take on.

My brave innocence is not, however, without incident,
Like when two crows went overhead and spoke my name,
Noting my coordinates for galactic command.
Ah but that only richens the adventure! The hills 
Have stayed the same, and only now it seems
That the nothing they have ever said 
Is the only correct way to answer.

Notes from the Extroverts Ball

In Echo Park, near Frogtown
The Chinese lanterns broke
Into a galaxy of shards,
As Buster Keaton the dog
Rescued children from the pool,
A guest helped himself to a cleaver
For the fistfight in the front yard
And a gunshot Mercedes muffler free
Squealed an inch away from speeding
Over the guardrail to infinity.

Yet there was laughter,
Anecdotes of shrooms and equestrienne studies,
A morse code ode to alpha boobs
As a Magnolia Banana Pudding recipe
Was passed surreptitiously  
Past the strict Vegeterrainean on the deck.
Who was a Wanna-Bee
And who was in the Biz
Was lost in the Tequila mixology
And the toxic drama family.

It bravely went on with a smile
Like the well-tempered fire pit
Until Carson saw the moon
Over Dodger Stadium 
And the party 
Collectively gasped.

Saturday, July 12, 2025

At the Ranch, Just Us Horses

Obsidian tonight is braided Rastafarian,
Wears pink boots over his feathers,
Knocks the Peninsula shavings over
Because he can, not a Quarab, a full Arabian,

He doesn't eat the grass as much as he
Talks his way through it, his lips must grip
The strands just so, to tear the truth out
Of the ground, when it's dry like now

And the birds are somewhere else, 
Perhaps a show, leaving the oak trees
Like old black men who hold the thing
Together by never reacting, just flexing

Their wizened gray bark in the sun
And letting their nodding boughs hang
Like Obsidian's jolly ball, which now looks like
A punching bag for bored, boarded horses.

A sound -- one woodpecker pleading
With the silence to be heard, 
It needs its steady chirr inside the pen
Of all that can be captured

For some archival record 
That even we cannot conceive of
But the bird knows, to be heard is
A service, thus one must be listened to

Even when the silence is occupied
With motorcycle crickets and Palomino sighs. 
This place is like a waiting room, the most auburn sun 
Filled with dappling, road apples out like magazines.

Elvis the Pinto and Dow Jones the Gypsy
Touch their heads together from neighboring stalls.
They are like two friendly but melancholy teens
Who show off their stylish eccentricities to all.

Unfamiliar birds dance with their craws 
Across the branch tops. The thing that is captured,
Not the birds in all their innocence, but the ears 
That make it mean, crack the code of its crackling,

Enact more memories of Earth herself, in her chair,
Restoring the Human to her breast again.
The shanty tack shacks are empty now
Though every one is full of light.

A mountain of magenta bougainvillea 
Behind them like a diva, on a stage too large
For any of us to take. With pink snip Obsidian 
Continues, pulls out any stalk he can nibble.

Thursday, July 10, 2025

The Outsider Leaves Town

He’s gone now, on the long, long road to Elko
Where snow comes in a flash, and the sky turns
Blue to black in an instant, to make way
For my best life, to be silent.

Who knows what car he’s driving in, and if
There’s a Starbucks station in this dark
Buck moon. All details of the contract we
Signed in blood are still under seal

As all souvenirs have been packed up tight.
He might have friends in Winnemucca but
He has none here, and never really did –
The bid was always rigged for me

To endure with a grin, so I don’t have to
Anymore. The “no” to all that I am
Is between Lovelock and Battle Mountain
Now, yet yes, still, comes too slowly;

The permission slip he never gave me
Has not been passed along – I must forage
Like a goat for what is lasting in my dreams:
Space to breathe, a sense of purpose …

In time I will remember I’ve never
Really changed. The embrace was on a card
And I followed the dance impeccably
And was, like each hard time, released

No longer questioning the right to advance
Or the right to be myself with someone else
Or the freak flag full moon move I once more wave
To bring the old funk to the floor.

There’s vast ores of silver, oil, lithium
Inside of those fat mountain fingers but
The only ones who know are on that road,
The one they say goes nowhere

Though all Chevrolets must get out of Dodge
Or Sparks or Truckee – eventually.
And Vegas is never too far away,
Whose lights were never what they seemed,

But the darkness that now surrounds the plains
Has never felt this comforting before.
I see the pain was mine and mine alone
When the road hitches a new ride.

Its disappointment with destiny needs no tent,
No food, no Molly, tho it may be burning,
That bush, unquenched, ever bright, forever unseen.
The quest won't end, for forgiveness.

Wednesday, July 9, 2025

Convergence of Eyes

The only noise the rocks will make
Is when they're relocated.

They were told by sacred mountain
To hold its crystal frequency like breath.

We are told this, too, so the sun glows through
The changeable: Our DNA, our sense of what is real, 

The mood the horse is in. At the top of the mountain 
The world's in one direction, the desert's in the other,

Mexico a far-off glimmer though it lives here now
With all the tribes who melted long ago into the hill

Out at the edges of electrical lines,
Where only bikes go by,

Some water towers swallowed by the ridges,
Windows turned like eyes to the sun

As it descends on the golden sanctuary
That will hold the future world.

Ernesto, who lives on the switchback path,
Is no spring chicken when it comes to horses,

He knows every scratch and how they got there
And tells the rocks everything

And even the county authorities let the wilderness
Be his secret ranch to oversee.

A yellow ribbon affixed to the arena flaps 
Too eagerly its victory in the breeze,

Not like the ribbon that winds the blue layered
Golden time of different frequencies held together

By the will of my eye to see it rise across veiled valleys
Veined with green. The fan of wind

Beckons the grasses into feather pens
Paid not by the word but by pollen count

For the universe that reads, like horses do cookies,
Its book, one fluttering page at a time.

Monday, July 7, 2025

God as Truth, Key 77

Sweep the dust,
Process the memory
As part of the process
That no longer includes me.

Say goodbye, fear and shame,
Be as a feather on your way 
As I no longer need to remember
The germ inside their husk

Also dust, just a place 
You can leave when you like, 
Blindfold and all, for the shell
Reverse engineered the seed.

The neighing continues
But the need for anything real
Pops like soap bubbles
Their impenetrable veils.

"Look at these scratches,
Pay attention to my wounds,
My new found friend is not,"
Brio warned, "what he appears."

Indeed, horses precede the stars
Born to house their life force.
Now they roam in Sagittarius,
That fixes its pursuit on pure truth

While the stones of Sirius
Cultivate every eccentric note
For the divine within each soul song,
The coherence of knowing what God is.

We manifest what naturally becomes us, 
Reclaim our sovereign identity,
So nature can chime in on divine command
As reminder we are singular in theme.

Our identities are fixed in stone too.
The mind is just too large now,
Carving a meaning for our dwelling,
The only goal that remains.

A song of nickers and whinnies
As the sun goes down on
What its codes have turned to theory:
Steel bars, a rusted roof, 

Some leather straps that might
Withstand the weather.
The quest for what is
Has barely begun.

Saturday, July 5, 2025

On Horses Running Maskless in the Sun

Red, white and blue for the horseman's holiday,
Stalls empty of all but the horses
And a golden light of forgetfulness
Imbuing all that milk and honey
With a holy glaze.

Even the moths say California
In the way they fly freely
Between the column pairs
Through the portal of wind
Cooling the desert fire with life.

The oak trees don't even bend
Their laurels crisp at attention
To hear what's coming 
Down the road,
For nothing has ever happened here

Though the rocks still move 
Relentlessly, and the foxtail turns 
From green to gold 
Instantly, and the pyramids 
Echo restlessly every sound 

Of families in the canyon 
Grilling as usual
At ceremonial barbeques
While the war games wait 
Heavy in the air

In the hush of patience
Before the free are allowed
To do what the universe wants them to do,
Be happy, in every moment of sun,
Every gift of bird song,

Every stamping neigh
How they love the carrots
Almost as much as us,
Though we still confuse this,
These late days, with avarice

But the clamor of their eager mouths 
For our hands is nothing now beyond
The need for a blessing, for
Simply by paying, in that
Moment, attention,

We are the priests
Of this blue light, for we forgot
Everything that led up to this 
Moment so it won't be 
Spoiled from what it could be.

But remembering comes easier
With each upper pitch 
In the frequency gauge
Til' all that's been repressed
Ceases, by itself, to exist

In the melting sun that holds,
Like a candle, a light 
From all of the silent ones
Who watch us, hoping for
Exactly this.

Saturday, June 28, 2025

Remembering Machado

It's to get the gods back 
Is the purpose of poetry 
The translator said, as she languished
Over limonera rendered into English. 
"I can't get a Camaro into a pre-great war poem 
Without attracting the attention of the poetry gestapo."
The fox in me hides in the camouflage
Where I'm always welcomed, for everyone 
Wants everything known about themselves 
As long as the observer is transparent
Like a cartoon ghost or a whippoorwill,
Forever thought of fondly, but never seen,
Never really. 

                         The king as always doesn't care. 
His is the reality we begrudge respect for
Although he is almost always never real
At all. He is so far up the mountain now
Above the duero, where the leathered rich go 
And the old Rich Jews, the higher oblivion
Where what mattered was theirs, but it fell 
Through the crack, and they're happy they are not 
Now below ruthlessly suppressing their empathy 
For the sake of the Grail! 

                                                 Lift the cup 
Of fresh-squeezed lemonade with lavender in it. 
My yard is my Earth. My world is my following. 
Each glance at me is a universe entire. 
That's why it pleases me, what I do,
Setting up the hot tub for the summer,
Letting the wind dictate the mix of chemicals 
While I spend my leisure deep in prayer
For the dankest moonlight jams.

Thursday, June 26, 2025

Only Birds Over Hillhead Road

Walking Juneau this evening has been like a video game,
Cars out of nowhere to dodge, small attack dogs on magical leashes
And muscular huskies who show they know they would throw her 
Down for lunch, before lurching off, to become the bicycle guy
Who says what a beautiful dog, and a little girl who stares holding
The largest piece of chalk I’ve ever seen, her sidewalk rainbow art
A plea to remember Pluto and all the stars and all beautiful flowers

Then there’s the gingerbread house with matching Diane Arbus twins
And its doppleganger white dog they giggle at, holding spiral lollipops,
And Juneau finally drinks from the ghost dog bowl as if to earn points.
Her sniff itself is her digging the game. Those people aren't real
But there'd be an explosion if she went up to them just the same.
And I pull til she cedes the challenge with wistful whiskerbrows
As I try to keep her safe, to be her badass self, as humans never are.

We get to the park and it's a dog show, like there’s a man with a pipe 
To pronounce verdict to a jury of ground squirrels, but there's nothing 
Real in other dogs to Juneau, as a careening skater carries a surfboard.
And the only thing missing, I notice now, there are no automatic
Weapons shot at me from every breezeway, no Molotov cocktails
From skidding off-balance Challengers, no numbchuck aggros
To fear, tho I do anyway, like the drummer in one of these windows

Who practices the wrist shuffle, anticipating his rapid disappearance 
From the condo of doing what others tell him to do, when he’d rather 
Whistle his tune in the real, the one they always told him didn't have
A right, just like him, to speak — he’d rather slip away than help them 
Understand the king’s business is worth the king’s time, they should be
Grateful he can frivole this age of peace where he's not needed away. 
The moment I refuse the joystick is the moment all resistance ends.

Tuesday, June 24, 2025

The Cazimi of Compassion

Deconstruct experience, the dragons say,
In dream, look at those throbbing hills,
They've got you hypnotized they are 
Still and real as a newspaper photo
And the scars on Brio's face, just enough
To feel love from Navajo, the Appaloosa
Apollo dropped beside him for repair
Like an Airstream, so grateful to have 
A companion at last, who, with doe-eyed 
Eagerness bit his eager eyeball. 

But Merlin, Navajo's version of me, is on the scene 
Like camo security, to stare down the mayhem
And tighten the valve of the crazy snake nozzle
In the always-full trough of emotional commotion,
Because all water rolls down the mountain to here.
"Hell I get a little spicy over dinner too."
Sez Merlin! You can't make this shit up.
The galactics must have us on speed dial
For the guffaws we provide, how straight
Our faces can bend to not remembering.

"How can you know what happened to them,"
They always ask, "unless it has happened to you?"
Even Quan Yin requires a giant pile of shit
For all the tears she needs to cry 
To learn compassion through her suffering,
So she can spark life into things
By feeling what they feel, as the cow horses
Rein like whirling dervishes and the deer
Disappear in the grass. 
A sawhorse holds a saddle.

I look for guidance
In the hair whorl of the sorrell, eye level
Of the peaceful mind. But it's just another
Scam of belief in what you see, 
When helicopters and waterfalls 
Whirr by you unnoticed all day
Behind cellophaned microphones,
While the Urmah hide like mountain lions
And the dragons only emerge from their holes
Sculpted in the sandstone when the sun falls.

They know in this way one comes to believe
And thus can re-solve the past and re-wire
What happened with what should have been.
Reality has broken just in time. 
We were worried
Our interpretations may have missed the point.
But then we passed, in a reality no one
Who was not then with us would believe,
Creation Corner, in the rich hills, teaching
How to manifest abundance when they're young. 

Sunday, June 22, 2025

Repentance as Nirvana

At the moment I recognized the scent
Of a need to find an adequate
Symbol the great white bird
Passed from meaning and my roof.

When the spell of others is broken
The residues, of past lives and
Tribes you gave your soul to
Become malleable enough to move.

Still there's the stick
The master hits you with
That removes more than it inflicts
As he raps the marble floor

To scatter the karma
And conjure the benevolent wind
And the breastplates of the terracotta 
Warriors' harmonized with dharma

Although we cringe, at how the outside
Bears down upon the house
And wrap our Easter crucifix in red 
To repent for repentance, dust for dust.

The mercy is seeing how we went off course,
Seeing who we are by what is taken away,
All but the inner quiet 
Has always been empty.

It is holy to let go, that's how
We become clean, repent for all 
By tolerating everything, by believing
They receive enough love

And we notice we are noticing
And can exist that way without a prompt, 
Until the stick no longer comes down fiercely
And we can tell what exists and what does not

And so we transcend the cycle of life
And death, because we have the proof
In a hand that no longer needs to act
And has nothing to prove.

Friday, June 20, 2025

Last Day of Spring

My cells
                are like sails
They pick up all
                               the codes
From dolphins leaping 
                                          freely
Right in front of me
                                     brought
Like a frog a fly
                             out of the sky,

A cloud production factory
                                                 now
With a springtime's worth
                           of negative ions
To remind me where I've been
                      How much I needed
A lot of rain
                       to bloom so profuse
In such vivid purples
                                       the lupines

And behind the veiled 
                                         cigar that 
Throws off spray
                               of 12-strand DNA
It dares me to open to
                                         the cold
Of empty wind
                            blowing every note
On my reed
                      that keens freely to its
Perfect pitch
                        of very unique.

It takes the lightest breath
                                                no lung
As an accordion
                                 but the forbidden
Of all but the pure
                                  by one who has
Left behind all but that.

We are changing indeed,
                                              the container 
Ships cleaned of children
                                              and advanced
Gyroscopes put in place
                                             and no one can
Pretend anymore
                                 that Catalina's still here 
Just obscured 
                             by the day's condensation.

It has lifted like a ship,
                                          asked to navigate 
Different timelines,
                                    multiple realities.
It is OK to let ours bend, 
                                             I finally say,
Still I see the melting mirror
                                                    as a threat

But those feelings,
                                   like grief, get less
And less the more I enter
                                               the discomfort
Of not knowing how
                                       it will end
Or why it was done
                                    in the first place,

The island of knowing 
                                         gleams in the distance.
It no longer has relevance
                                                 when dolphins
Come this close to us,
                                         to show how we are
Really finally ready
                                    to be blessed.

Parking Trap Malted

The Ted Fay Fly Shop lures you in
To the Angler Inn
Next to Rapunzel’s Castle.

Another town that time forgot,
More pink shutters,
Another red barn diner
With checkerboard floors
And menus that never change
Hung as curtains,
Deer head hat racks,
Train track bric a brac
And local businesses on the placemats
That exist at least in memory
If not in fact.

The 5 dollar charge for whining
Has not been updated for inflation,
But they’ll charge you just the same.

The lumber haulers have all gone
All that’s left is the railroad,
Itself an anachronism, some ironic
Take on retro tourism, a touchstone
To dreams embezzled by bankers
Like a smashed penny that makes
The box that contains your childhood memories
Smell like creosote.

Tuesday, June 17, 2025

On the Road with the Ghost of Buck Owens

At the Dino Mart in Gustine
The consequence of making an alien baby
Back in the dust of Bakersfield
Was revealed, as we became
The children of the Sinclair dinosaur,
Mewling for snaps at the green toy.

It was all we could do to get away
From a Wasco that was no longer roses
In endless fields for New Year’s Day
Along the death road to Paso Robles
Where we commiserated with a Starbucks robot
At California milk spoiled at 103 degrees.

But neither the five dollar rabbit
Nor the zebra from Shafter prepared us
For the dueling flatbeds of homeless chihuahuas,
One done up as a muscle car float
The other a plywood pallet on wheels
Where the chihuahua’s all had bells.

The roads are like that now, especially when
Family is involved. Every exit goes to Arkansas,
A hush hush past that’s now blown up
Like the one burned down house on the road
Where the rainbow ice cream vendor
Wheels her dyed-ice sugar for no one.

Every father has misplaced one daughter
At least, just as every son leaves home
So his heart can be broken, and no one
Looks at any loving couple as anything
But a misplayed bet waiting to settle,
Where the choice of lawyer proves your worth.

It’s a wonder they have all survived
To migrate like birds from this pizza reunion
To Arbuckle and Willows, Maxwell, Artois,
Ceres and Lemoore, Lockeford, Firebaugh
Tracy, Pixley, Ducor -- but mostly Porterville,
Swapped like crops with demand and the weather,

Kingsburg cling peaches for Dinuba pears,
Arvin champagne grapes for raisins from Parlier,
Weedpatch carrots that give way to Turlock honeydews, 
Or Reedley, where they grow loofahs on trees,
Or Galt to work white sturgeon eggs, or tomato sauce Davis
Or Lindsay's fragrant groves of citrus.

But they don't shed a tear, like the other orphaned farmers here
At the thought of someone in their family
Being sent away to Mexico in a plane
They worry if someone will speak to them again
After all the neglect summer dust required
To pack fresh offspring in out-of-state crates.

Sunday, June 15, 2025

Father's Day at the Stables

The horse needs a daddy too,
Someone to admire his gait
And validate how much he tries
To canter in this world
So jagged and so bright.

He runs to me
As if I didn't even own him
And associates every gift
Of grain as from my hand
And wants me to play with him,

The one thing fathers cannot do,
With the roles they must assume,
Defender with swords and lies
Of an implicate order that
Denies compassion 

As the devil's fork, 
For one must turn 
Love away
Before the not love
So that the foal can learn.

The horse accepts my strokes
As love before the groom
And stamp and snort
And the digging in of hooves,
In this case not to do 

What the human wills
Although he got what he wanted
Mostly, to gallop the sillies out,
Do his bronco buck routine
To the saddle before riding

But it's the horse case 
Scenario now, 
In which you cannot 
Break his heart
And stay his friend.

Electricity from the sun
Ignites my crystal,
Warms my heart with stillness
As the horse moves his white hooves
Kicking up sun dust

But there's too much wisdom
In the hills this afternoon,
The horse is fiesty 
And unwilling to make 
The mountain come to him.

The violet flame crowns the peaks
With mist. There is nothing
Between the sky and ground
Anymore. I walk
Even though I never have before.

This Week in Hollywood

The place of the temples
And crackhead actors
And the sacrifice castles
Now sublet as studios

With ivy like the highways
Down and out in all directions
To wreathe in laurel
Painfully unrealized dreams

In perfect weather
For every aspiration 
To be lost inside
Threadbare, still haunted villas.

We've lost our identities
Just like those who've turned
To stone as sidewalk stars
And concrete casts of palms,

Our heroes
Who we never even knew
Outside a role
We were played

To fool us to forgetting
Who we were
The heroes all along
Of the silver

Now embossed as dragons
Locked in theatre stone,
The next best thing to 
Being there

As they are
Fixed on by the hard 
Horde of eyes,
The next best thing to ruins,

The records tower 
Round as nature,
Egyptian pillars
To house the oscar, faceless,

Antiquated cinemas
Still lit with klieg
But offering torture,
Pasties, wigs,

Burnt offerings 
Of the holly wand's
Ceremonial magic
For belief

That what is 
Here
Could ever be
Real.

There are blue lights
Down the street
Enforcing curfew
On the multitudes

But just a few brave souls
Wave flags
About no kings
Atop of bridges.

They too are extras
In the cantina
Of stories that need
To keep repeating,

Old stories
Of how we aren't
And we will
Never be.

There's a pink
Compound with stars
On the gate
That preaches peace,

Holds light
In flood darkness
Like it holds in 
Souls

In its well-stocked 
Cabins
Carefully trimmed to catch
The sparkles of late light

On galactically inspired
Fountains 
Dedicated to a founder
Who is far away now

So his existence can't be
Questioned
Except as how we worship ... 
Him, as hero.

Is it enough, these
Woven cushions
On the straightback chairs
To turn the darkness 

Into something beyond these
Renditions of Jesus
And Krishnamurti 
We see on the walls

And all the avatars
Who brought
What we thought of as
Our own freedom?

It is service they say,
With every possible
Emotion,
Even calling in Sananda

Who bristles with love
As he dubs 
The soundtrack with
An empty ache of yearning,

What we're not supposed
To be able
To feel, being led
To the cage

Like the line
At the Palladium,
Of all the sad
Mexican teens

Who now believe
They are not free
To dream
So they can wallow

In restlessness
As if they only
Exist
In the waiting

With the myths
And all the pictures
Long since left
This blessed earth.

Saturday, June 14, 2025

The Geomagnetics of Presence

The white dust is alive
It's true
The veil's been uncorked
Like a Bakersfield gusher
And it's all the horses can do
To neigh their way through
Prying attention
From us scryers
Molten in the light codes.

All shapes descend from clouds
Walls bend
And time collapses
While space fills up
With symbols and messages
That are only there
Because I was open enough
To Hathor and her Muses
To pen them into life.

In the beginning was the word
And now it rains down
In light language,
Truth too pure for human form
But here anyway
As the crows for once 
Non-gloatingly proclaim
Here with the sleek June hides 
Of rippling browns like copper pennies

As the encroaching desert coil
Rattles the windy hills 
Snaked with trails
As the dragons posed as clouds
Look down to remind us
We have yet to learn who they are,
The false ones so repudiated
We almost didn't believe they could exist,
Like dinosaurs and serpent popes.

But now that our DNA has been
Handed back to us
And our heritage revealed,
Guides identified in frequency
If not in quadrant
We can look beyond the griffin in the sky
And the Bootes rhododendron
And all the thoughts of how things were
Now black

That can be laughed down the drain
With gratitude now
For they served to keep us small
And as judgement wears off
And peace is restored
As the only state
Worth crying for
The walls move, but just enough
To remind me they were never real

And the orbs dance out of the spray
Just enough
To show me I have to lead
My own way
But I am changed just the same,
As certain restrictions are lifted,
As the horse flies 
On the strength of our clarity
Leave the shiny hides behind.

Thursday, June 12, 2025

Silence of the Deafening Retreat

The light codes fall from Mt Shasta
Over Mossbrae and on down
To Sacramento as sacramental water
And to the galactic realms below
The Hollywood portal

                                         All the way
Underground, and Dunsmuir is
Suitable proxy for all of nature,
The universal common denominator,
For it holds the earth entire
In its igneous memories, but like
The waterfall that hisses hush
Will not say.

                           You can see
The fairies, all manner of translucent
Elementals, bouncing rainbow spheres,
Gnats dancing their sacred geometries,
A purple butterfly -- who would think
St. Germaine would have come down
The mountain in violet mist
Amid the feather lines of snow
Melt white and rapids
Charged with light?

                                     I should dive inside
Archangel Michael’s cold truth blue
I suppose, but the rocks have become
My friends, and the Tai Chi class
Has just begun.

                             The I AM society
Protects this spot more securely
Than the Union Pacific that is
Nevertheless content to push 
Pilgrims like us off its trestled path
To the blissful flow of poison oak
And mosquito traffic.                                

                                       The grasses
Who have traveled far to rest here
Glisten in a prayer of peace
So far removed from nearby golden
Fields where the wind propels cow tails
To spin like batons of clocks
In the no time of the present
Where everything exists
If you are quiet enough
To enter it, your heart entire,
The last sacred place.

Friday, June 6, 2025

6 6 Portal Blues

Below the suddenly still Scorpion moon
The first sugar magnolia bloom
Above the dutch iris just for us
And the smell of Carissa.
It reminds us of Hawaii
Like everything nowadays
The liquor blue late clouds
That please the crows
And wash graduation Friday night
That echoes from the pier
Another sincere 80s band
Who almost had a monopoly on shame
Back when, now that nothing
Is the same. The records will play,
The AI Genii will see to that,
But there is only the flame of originality 
That will light the dragons in the sky
So rapidly dissolving
As if we've found out its lie. 

Wednesday, June 4, 2025

Peace by Appointment Only

The succulents box by Falcon View
Next to the third eye pyramid, streetlights
By Ascension that look like bells.

“Can we bring something? Past lives?”
I asked my white people outreach coordinator
In a unabomber hoodie like a druid

But he simply said become a Jaguar,
Be such a master of frequency you
Can control who and where you are.

But as close as I got was how Kassandra and I
Rode horses on Pismo Beach, dunes veined
With searocket, so I cleared my schedule for the farrier.

What he does with feathers is a tribute to his art
But for Brio it’s a spa day; he drops his hoof
On the fur stand for the nipper and the rasp.

With him, Winona and Wyatt, four white stockings,
Four white pasterns, star stripe snip but not enough
To be a blaze, much less a bald, much less blue eyed.

Their chestnut-haired human Carey,
Technically Ceri, technically from North Wales,
Bristles at having to defer to riders:

“No lead line that’s how I roll”
“Unleash the horses to roll I say”.
She has a Dogma Pet Portraits QR code on her car.

Back in his paddock Brio pushes out the apple
Crisps from the blue star with his nose
Like he is solving a Rubik’s cube.

After three days of dangerous solar storms though
Reality is too much of a hot tin can
To keep kicking down the pasture road.

The hills are ablaze with light residue.
The crows, all the horses are quiet.
The mountain has moved under the clouds.

Even the arenas are locked. To assimilate it
We'll need permission to three-day sleep
Away 6,900 acres in Tehachapi.

But patience isn't a strong suit of Arabians.
They will roll on any hillside that will hold them,
Even old absconded Tejon Indian land.

But the black oaks have all the information you need 
Though one must be under hypnosis to reveal it.
The crickets, as usual, caution silence.

Back on the road, to the giant pulsing ball of sun
As the mountain falls, another reminder to
Release the trauma once and for all

Of the strawberry roan with immaculate bloodline
Who went cray-cray at the Paso Robles Cow Palace
To the horror of the Cutting Horse Association.

Saturday, May 31, 2025

Transcendalism at the Ranch with a Rainbow Tail Tamer

All the horses roll at once
At the dragon boat festival
Where we're fifth-year seniored
In the brand new sun
That accepts nothing less
Than all form obliterated

And its underlying energy
Shown finally as geometry
Belled from sound, and motion
Shown to be created in our minds,
The dirt and cactus and horse poop
Frequencies for green-eyed flies

Who secretly run the inner world,
Which might as well be the whole earth
For what its iceberg surface is worth.
Their minds are so pristine, 
Their love so immense and pure
Only a few are let inside,

To where the Pleiades is as close
As the codes in their crystal caves
And the moon's gravitational tyranny
Is not impossibly far away.
Things are exactly as they are here,
Except reversed. 

We, for example, are upside down 
And hurtling through space time 
As if the impossible speed would 
Make it real. The bells entrain us still, 
But we call it the blues, to be savored
Once the pain has been sucked through.

The pyramids lie like batteries
Beneath the sea. The rods we see
From Atlantis are countered
By Lemurian stone circles that pull
It all back to the shiny void beneath
That turns out to be unearthly green.

All of it could have been destroyed
But it was left for us to see,
To find the clues wanted desperately
In solution's salvation, what was seen
As mere stone in the prior age, when 
Life was breathing, not breath.

We got many things wrong
Back in the day, the solar winds
In purifying white say.
But there's no other planet with
The blues y'all. The veils 
Are no longer walls.

Each bee is free now
To believe in any hive they want to
Or none at all. The black horse 
Brays like a squeaking door.
For today, the sound of hinges
Is enough.

Monday, May 26, 2025

Patio Without Cheryl

Talk, talk says the crow,
And I go crying over
My breakfast, the distance
Between its caw and the wind chime
Can be measured now
In seconds.

The symphony of flow
Serves our lives back
As meaning, what can
Be memorialized
And what can no longer
Be believed. 

It turns us true so slowly
We only hear the bearings
As they click, not a moment
Before their aha moment
Of seeing how wrong 
We were, and laughing.

The present is indifferent
To all the past that fills it up, 
It only knows to keep going 
Through it, not to lose it 
But to lose resistance to what 
Has loosened its hold:

The chaos of everything fallen
Held in dynamic swirl, mere colors 
In a landscape of past, present, future -- 
All that we are 
A process of becoming
What we already were.

Saturday, May 24, 2025

The Horse Traders

Horses in mourning,
The change we call death,
But a carrot
Solaces the sorrell
Who may as well be a chestnut
(Only the sun knows for sure)

But the gypsy unicorn wants out,
Hooves stamp like an out-of-sync procession,
The gray mare stares with swollen fly eyes,
The Friesian pulls out hay from a hairnet
Solemnly, not like when he went crazy
During the solar flares.

Only the crows seem unfazed.
They've stared down death so many times
It's like a game to them
Where the shiny object always wins,
The shadow too vast to be seen
Except in the darkness of eyes,
Where it isn't seen at all
As much as we convince ourselves
We empathize.

                           Downtown now
They're horse trading jockeyed positions
And rebrands of ranch hand overseers
Based on feel, and the empty stalls
Where the vanished ones were will fill
Again with hope what had to be blown up
Yet again -- nobody knows what will happen
When its only eyes on the other side of the cage.

There will be time to bear your grudges
Toward the living. It's the dead who must
Let go their grip, for it's almost unbearable
But the only way that loneliness takes,
The one stick that ignites the rages of regret
At life not lived, the anguish at things not said.

The company only cares to keep the caravan
In motion -- the harvest is for the living;
If they waited for the dead 
They'd have thrown it all away already,
What the sun almost convinces us
We'd earned.

The crows are loud and alive
To correct us of our vibe, our longing  
For what we only get to see from behind
And remind us there are games more practical
To waste time on, our gulp for air
When a chipmunk could be there instead.

One sits on the tallest tree,
Reminding me its prophecy is always free.

Spiritual Illumination

My eyes are lanterns.
The only responsibility of the light
Is to see.

Form only exists to be created
To share, to merge, to learn the internal:
As outside, so below.

Reflection is not mere resemblance;
I become what I perceive,
Why not God?

I am more non-local than local anyway.
I'm not being kept from truth, simply
Unaware of my true nature.

Light can "be" anything it sees.
What purpose does form serve
Is the question.

Form is more fun than the formless,
That's why you chose it -- it bends to
Your nature: Every barking dog is universal.

Seeing is the same, in truth, as creation.
Form is transient, not the soul. This is the hidden 
Teaching that's been over-explained.

It's time to acknowledge the unreality
Of everything but yourself -- the only thing
You know: Descartes was a female.

Spirit comes through form easily
And does so to communicate who you are
From a higher place you can't, in this form, reach.

So it, too, is a tool to see, 
For light is, as said, 
Only what is seen.

Monday, May 19, 2025

Spring's First Dust

Back in the Saddleback Mountains
I need to live high on the horse

On the high road, the hawk trail
Where the dust is, which rises 

In scratchy clouds 
Like nebulae spirals,

In shells of what is recorded
Of the sights and touches we gave,

What created the views and access grids,
The novels and landscapes contained

Of the continuing generation like
A mandala ever erased in the actual.

The vista builds itself in monasteries of green
From the details. We add our own,

Some unique savor, some sharing of dirt
With all that calls but is never moved.

It's only me, the pacer, measuring
Like the meter's narrow gate

So heaven's kingdom, the utility, 
Can turn on the water of life already

All around, the Tao, the wordless
That words alone turn into form.

My Emotional Support Tree


Friday, May 16, 2025

The Essential Nature of Horses to Dance

The wild bay and buckskin played their cantering game,
Chance glance into dance into music into poetry,
The elegance of a tail snapping at flies.

                                                                       They meet 
Like two chess knights, expressing all love in the curving 
Of their necks.

                              Light on his feet, in perfect symmetry
With crisp gait, tail and head upright.

                                                                   They turn in a circle 
And stop on a dime
                                      While lonely mares look jealously on.

They turn to surprise and amuse and adore 
                                                                      In fitful, fretful steps
On white hooves, 

                               Each side releasing into a blink
In the lungewhip of their desensitizing presence,

                                                                                        Two foils, 
Paint and Arab, to the essential currents of magnet and bolt, 
Eyes like a silent movie couple
While Joey the resident mountain lion saunters through 
And even the rabbits pay him no mind.

                                          Their canter turns to gallop turns to dust
As their strict perfection tests the perfect afternoon
Its largess. 

                       But they are only the entire universe
In their dance, 
                           So it only goes as far as the darkening hills, 
So beautiful whenever you need it, and invisible when 
We want to learn it again.

                                             How can horses dance like that
Without us knowing?

Thursday, May 15, 2025

Fire Drill

Shares like the facets of some chandelier
On last night’s game or show rose in the din
Of aviary voices, impossible to distinguish.

We signed names to the clipboard
For the Fire Authority. It was only a bluff.
Yet the fake location seemed real enough.

The elevators for once got to touch our buttons
As we left, ut turba, trying to return
To desks once thought too brutal to endure.

Each floor was a different frequency.
We saw the consequence of every possibility, 
Every timeline flashed its bulb of memory:

The nuclear clean containment zone,
The timeless brand with receptionist only,
The ghost law firm still pending an appeal,

The million-dollar views of an empty suite
Flipped, hipped and staged within a beat of life,
As if on deadline to unveil what can't be right,

These never-before conceived-to-be realities
That easily co-exist with our own, albeit unknown
As most of the universe seems to be.

And there it is, Vates, the Parnassus Floor,
Where piquant muses cattily instruct crows
Who drop artwork for some tax break they don't know of,

Spend their break room moments moaning
How poetry's obscure because people still pretend
They don't understand (and so loathe) it

When really all they do not know
Is why the poet wrote it -- to show, as now,
How intention is all on the poem,

As I learn when I'm back at my desk, in wonder
How to make this experience fit my belief, not seeing
How things only make sense when they can't.

Wednesday, May 14, 2025

Notes from the Road to Fresno

I.

Selma Tattoo
Marks “The Raison Capital of the World”
Who heard Fresno
Through the Grapevine
And stole the sign
For the Sun Maid.

II.

Madame Sophia
At Clovis Avenue,
The Fowler Palm Reader
For orange-juiced hands
Who want an alternative future.

III.

There’s a hobo from Kentucky
Called Hog Royalty
In Bakersfield.

IV.

The Torah according to Jesus
Is on the coffee shop wall
In giant comic book frames
For children
While you wait for alchemists
To serve your holy brew.

V.

How can there be a place called Windfall Donuts?

VI.

A billboard that I’d like to see:
Burn while you yearn
At Urner’s Mattress

VII.

An actual billboard:
More than a Miticide

VIII.

I left it at some Oildale joint
Where Merle Haggard once sang,
Now karaoke and mechanical bulls,
The block glass of a past
That’s cheap as usual to chisel.

IX.

Oil jenny dragons
In the champagne grapes,
Ooh the world
Death row cows sense
As the Tejon Pass winds
Take on meaning.

Tuesday, May 13, 2025

Observation at Union Station

We talk and talk, but then we notice
The homeless men, one in a wheelchair
Holding court with a pipe, one rolling
His rucksack of possessions over and over
Along the concrete, one simply rocking
On the bench, all of them talking
Gibberish as if they're understood
Or like it doesn't matter if they're heard

And we feel as ashamed as the upright folk
Upon encountering the town drunk —
Our words are unconditional
But they must be heard
To be real.

Poem at Sunset

I pull my chapbook out of my chaps, at the high
Chaparral beyond Chapman. All judgement
Is overcome, by the spirit of our will, like the sun,
To let go.
                  Who we have always been waits for our
Recognition.

This time the Roman aqueduct toll road has vanished
But the hangar and pylon ruins in the dust sun of Tustin
Still loom in lilac over fields of never-to-be-duplicated green.
The canyon road only goes to the moon
                                            That grows in wisdom 
While we contemplate the burning away of spring,
As the glow of the last mustard lingers.
                              It’s time to get going on who we are
Instead of what we don’t want to be.

A horse locked in the arena, without a human, pleads
“Can you help a brother out?” Instead, I offer him apples
Even though they make him frothy.
                              Brio canters, aiming to please,
Feels our thoughts, prances in the dripping Orange Julius
Ball of sun that holds nothing back, as the track shows
The day’s horseshoe scars in purple 
Shadows and turbulent gold.

Head down, he races, with his eyes on my pen. It’s him
Or me, in constant balancing
                                                    Til the bedroom-eyed mare
Squeals, another smitten filly dutifully ignored,
As the one with the lopsided face looks on.
                           The spearmint spring in the sun,
Insects spiral, there’s a long disconsolate note
Of blue bird.

                        The owner’s white horse Captain
Is a jumper, large enough to leap the fence
In a second if he has to, but he’s content
To reach the grass the other horses can’t.
                                         He rides in the air
Like a ghost, the last of the sun blazing
Like a dragon’s tail, without fear, which is
The Lord of every horse.

                                              It’s the kind of light
I can disappear in, to be, free of
The iron shoe of others, in the void of
Knowing everything
                                    And knowing all of it is me,
Embodied in some chaste form to be learned of,
What would be experienced too directly.
             The precious moments of reddening hills:
The spray of the fly repellent, the mud flung
Off the hooves, the sound of the crows as
Their glittering feathers are combed
                        One last time across the final light.

Wednesday, May 7, 2025

On Location in Temecula

Film crews are the new donut loiterers, taking over for the PD, who are here too. This patch of cactus farms and grape acreage, neither a there there nor a nowhere, is a ready-made mountain backdrop hacksawed out of the hillside enough to be seen but mesas' away from being measured by the public relations firms. A train comes once a week, the only contact it seems with the outside world except for the cultural exchange at the Walmart. Horse trails meander onto Main Street and the hills crawl with Hobie Cats. 

The trimmed fat of the cattle lands has been  rendered into developers’ Ponzi dreams, complete with happy people seemingly bussed in, who seek the exurbian perfection of lake skiing and vineyard ballooning, the same name brand stores as every other strip-mall delivery locale in alien nation but operating on some alternative timeline without customers, barren of the duende of human misery as well, not near enough the homeless populations of LA, San Diego and even Riverside to provide any sense of things lost, wasted, of who, in the contrast, you are. 

Thus there is a sadness, at how we never know them and they never know us. They’ve gone with the clouds into the mustard, holding something they want us to see but it is only the distance, foreign and tantalizingly vague, not the confirmation they expect that it is real. It could only be that if we capitulate to the roadside circulars, call it a here, as we could, in theory, anywhere the longing machine doesn’t pre-record, and attend to the dust that attaches to its fabric as a mark of distinction. Instead, we try in vain to distinguish it from any other Anytown USA on any other temporary planet.

The way there is long, the way back familiar. The narrative arc caught a few snaps of recognizable life to be peeled back into the Burbank froth batter turner. But no trace of Temecula remains, for all our attempts to see ourselves in it. Home is nothing, it turns out, without the people you know.